Eren's wife

You grabbed his dick and with the tip, you rubbed it against your clit. He hissed because it was so red and sensitive he could come at any moment. “Shit Eren need you.” Your high-pitched moans were driving him mad. 

His big hands were surrounding your waist and he positioned you on his dick. Before entering, Eren kissed you hard, making a mess of saliva that was running down your chin. You gathered your juices and stroked his dick for more lubrication, making him moan in your mouth. His eyes were at the back of his head and some strands of hair were sticking out of his man-bun, sticking into his forehead. 

He bottomed you out and you needed some time to adjust to his dick, even though you were used to it, it was never enough, he was so big you could feel it in your tummy. One of Eren’s hands where in your waist and the other in your tummy, feeling the bulge his fat cock was making. 

“Ahhh, mmmmph…” you couldn’t form a sentence even if you wanted to, you were sooo full your brain was totally empty. Eren was trying not to cum feeling your pussy embracing him like it was meant to be. 

“Shit baby, I need you to move, please fuck yourself on my dick.” Eren’s voice was broken and whinny and you couldn’t help yourself but moan. You started to move back and forth, making you even fuller! Eren’s hand moved back to your waist, helping you move. His mouth was on one of your nipples, biting softly and making circles with his tongue. Your head was hanging backward and your right hand was in his hair and the other pinching your other nipple. Your eyes were at the back of your head and you could feel Eren’s moans vibrating through your boobs. 

“Fuck me harder baby, please.” Eren was pleading at this point, wanting to make a mess on your pussy. You obliged and started to ride him. Your boobs were in his face and he was looking at you with adoration. He wanted to make you feel the best he could. His hand on your ass was helping you jump on him, moving faster and faster every time. You were starting to clench on him. 

“Shit! Like that my love, don’t stop.” 

“Eren you’re so big! Aaaaah shit.” You were moaning like a porn star, making a show for him. “Yes yes yes yes! Ah!!” 

You two started to kiss desperately. Tongues and teeth clashing while making the other cum. Eren grabbed your waist hard while keeping you in the air and thrusting into you. 

“FUCK EREN YESYESYESYES!” You were pulling his hair, and he was moaning and whimpering like that was the last thing he would do. You went to touch your clit a little to make you cum, while he was impaling you with his massive dick. 

You came around him, with high-pitched moans and he steadied you, cumming inside your pussy, making a mess. He let go of you, straddling him again, with your boobs on his face. You could feel his seed leaking out of you, but you weren’t going to move, you wanted to feel it inside of you, not letting anything go to waste.

“Answer me.” 

“N-need your dick, please.”

Eren let an airy laugh and started to kiss your neck. You moaned and couldn’t wait to feel his semi-hard dick on your pussy. You moved your hips, trying to feel the friction that his pants would give to your needy clit. Eren’s hand traveled with the other to place them on your waist, while he was biting your ear softly, he rocked his hips with yours. You noticed how his hands were now on your front, caressing your boobs and stroking very gently your nipples, without making them too hard, just to give you enough pleasure to keep you going. 

“Aah” you said softly while moving faster on his now hard dick. He separated you from his neck and squeezed your neck a little bit to make you look at him. “I want to see you play with your pussy for me.” Your eyes widened and you noticed how your face started to be warmer because of his demand. He saw your reaction and smirked with his handsome lips. You kissed him hard, trying to get him to suck on your tongue, you were very horny and you just wanted to do the nasties things. 

“Open your mouth and stick out your tongue.” He knew you better than anyone else, and knew that you just needed a little boost to help you get out of your shell. You obliged and when your tongue was sticking out of your pretty mouth he started to suck on it. You moaned while his tongue was licking and sucking yours. Your eyes were at the back of your head and your hips didn’t stop moving for a second. You were going to cum in your thong from the friction that his dick was giving to your needy cunt. 

“You’re such a nasty girl. You like being a whore, don’t you?” 

You nodded while your tongue was still out and he took his ring and middle finger and started to push them inside of your mouth. You gagged at his fingers, but he didn’t stop, he loved seeing you take his fingers so well. “The things I’ll do to you… you don’t have any idea how much I want to see you play with your pussy. Shit” You moaned while still rocking your hips back and forth and pushed Eren’s fingers deep into your mouth while grabbing his wrist. “You’re a slut.” He couldn’t stop smiling at how nasty his girlfriend was becoming. He loved corrupting you and making you his little bitch, all his. He loved you so much. 

He made you gag one more time and finally, he took his finger out of your mouth. “On your knees baby, take off your clothes.” 

You did what he told you to and in no time you were naked on your knees. Your pussy was almost dripping into the floor. Your shyness went almost away as you looked at him with innocent eyes while circling your clit with one finger. He was sitting on the sofa looking at you as if you were his prey, dedicating all his attention to his girl. He had his hair in a bun and little pieces of his hair were framing his handsome face. He had his legs spread and his hands intertwined in his knees. 

“Ah, fuuck.” Your eyes were closed while you were going faster on your clit, you were going to cum in no time. “I’m c-cumming EREN SHIT.” 

“Not yet, baby, let me see how well you finger yourself.” 

“Eren, c-can’t, p- please.”

“Do as I say.” He said in a demanding tone. “Sit and spread your legs for me.”

You sat down and spread your legs to let him see how wet you were. You started to circle your entrance with your index finger and Eren came down to face you. He spread your legs a little bit more and spat on your pussy. You needn’t more lubrication but you loved it. You whimpered while watching his saliva get in your pussy and you didn’t need to be told twice. Your index finger finally got in and you moaned like a pornstar. Eren’s face was mere inches from yours, but he wasn’t going to kiss you, he wanted to feel how desperate you were. You inserted a second finger and started to curl your fingers inside of you, hitting that spot. 

Your eyes were closed and your mouth agape. You were moaning and whimpering while going faster, trying to get there, but you knew you couldn’t get there with your fingers alone, and less if Eren wasn’t touching you.

Eren placed a hand on your chin and made you look into his eyes. “I wish you could see how nasty you look.”

“Please, p-please need…” 

“What do you need, princess?”

“To see.”

“Want me to film how dirty and nasty you are? How angelic you sound when you moan?”

“Ah, ah yesyesyes.” You were so turned on by that idea you were surprised.

Eren took his phone out of his pocket and clicked on record. He directed the phone to your pussy to record the squelching wet sounds you were making while having a direct view of it. 

“You little slut.” He moaned while looking at how fucked up you looked fucking yourself with your fingers. 

“Eren, pl-please need your dick, mmmmph”

Eren took your fingers out of your pussy. While he was recording with one hand, he slapped your pussy with the other. “AH MMMM” you moaned loudly. His fingers were touching your pussy and you were bucking your hips like a bitch in heat, trying to get your clit to touch them. 

“Look at you, you have no shame, love. Your tongue lolling out of your mouth, moaning and rubbing your pussy in my fingers. I’m gonna destroy you.” 

“AAH, fuck I’m cumming EREN!” 

“Come on my fingers, whore.” 

You couldn’t hold it back anymore, and you came with a loud moan, wetting all of his fingers while your pussy was contracting, wishing you were filled to the brim. Slowly you started to calm down, rubbing slowly onto him. He recorded your face one last time and threw his phone into the sofa. 

Getting closer to your face he gave you a quick kiss on the lips “get up, love, I’m going to fill you up so good you’re going to cry.”

The sensation of the weed made you even hornier than you were. That was not the first time that you two were going to sleep together, but it was one of the first times, and even if you didn’t show it, you were nervous. You didn’t know how did you pull a girl like Mikasa. But she was more than eager to please you and to make you forget your own name while fucking you dumb. 

Your hand was on her hair, pulling it lightly and gaining a moan from her. Your heads couldn’t stop moving, trying to get better access to each other's mouths. The kiss was a battle with tongue and teeth getting in the way. 

“Mmm” you uttered, getting hornier every second. You grinded on Mikasa’s lap, trying to get friction on your aching clit. After seeing you trying pathetically to grind on her, she helped you positioning yourself on her naked thigh. She smiled at you and you couldn’t help but get butterflies in your stomach. She kissed below your ear, and you whimpered while moving against her thigh. Your clit was rubbing against your thong, giving you extra friction, but Mikasa wasn’t having it. 

“Take your thong off, I wanna feel how wet you are.”

“Shit” you moaned at her direct words. It always took you by surprise how bold and direct she was in bed. You stood up, taking your thong off, but before you could sit on her again, she started to take off your t-shirt. The cold air got your nipples hard, and you threw your head back, while your hands travelled to your boobs. She took your hands away and replaced them with hers. Her slender fingers massaging in a sensual way your beautiful boobs, giving them the attention they deserved. You were completely exposed to her but the desire was stronger than your shyness. You positioned your hands on her shoulders, also massaging her neck while she was playing with your nipples. You bit your bottom lip while watching her do it. She was still sat on the bed and you were standing before her, and your boobs were in front of her face, making the job easier. 

“Ah Mikasa, shit” you bit your lips while whimpering at the feeling of her fingers slowly caressing your nipples, very superficially at first. Your hands were on her head, putting her closer, wanting her to pleasure you more, but she was taking her time. She looked at you with her mouth agape, admiring how horny you were getting with her ministrations. Your perky nipples were so sensitive that you were enjoying it too much. Finally, her tongue gave a little lick at them, circling it while pulling and circling the other nipple, not giving you time to miss her touch. The tongue piercing she had made you shiver, making you more eager to feel her tongue on your boobs again. 

“Mm, yes, yes” you were starting to get wetter by the second, and soon enough your pussy would be dripping onto your thighs. Your high-pitched moans made her go faster, biting them and pulling them softly. “I can smell how wet you are” Mikasa’s voice was full of lust, and you wanted to give her the same treatment full of pleasure that she was giving you. 

“Please, I need more.”

“Tell me what a bitch like you wants.”

“Mmmmm- just please touch me.”

She laughed at your desperation. “I’m touching you.”

“In my pussy please.”

But she had other plans, she wanted to sit on your face first, and then, you’ll get what you deserved. She smiled mischievously while slowly, laying you in the bed. She licked your lips because she knew how much you liked her piercing touching your skin. 

“Mika” you moaned. 

“Shh, I know.” And before she placed herself above you, she took her panties off. Her pussy directly on your face. She was facing you, so you could see her boobs and her face while eating her out. You put your hands on her waist, caressing her while giving the first lick to her wet pussy. You loved the taste she had. You wanted to touch her boobs so bad you were going to pass out. You loved them. And you loved eating her out while she was totally unhinged. Mikasa, slowly, started to move her hips on your tongue, getting that sweet friction. The tip of your tongue was still while she was doing the work. Your fingertips started to circle her boobs, not touching her completely, you wanted to hear her more. She curved her back, giving you more access to her body. 

“Ah!” Mikasa’s sweet voice echoed in the room. Her high-pitched moans made you reciprocate the feeling. Your tongue now was moving with her while you pinched her nipples, making her arch her back more and speeding up the process. Her hard nipples made it easier to play with them. You could see her head back and her mouth agape while moving on your face. Her wetness was running down your chin and you wouldn’t let anything to waste. Your tongue now entering her pussy, penetrating her. 

“Ah, mmm-ph, fuck, I’m cumming!” Her hands were now on top of yours, touching her boobs in unison. She was riding your face faster this time and finally, while making out with her pussy, she came on your face, pinching her nipples and whimpering until she was overstimulated. You cleaned everything she gave you and your moaning vibrations only made her grind more. 

“Shit, mmmph yes, yes.” She was so horny you were going to cum only by eating her pussy. 

You massaged her waist and she turned around, giving you her back. You knew what she wanted to do and you couldn’t complain. Her pussy was still on your face, but now you two were in a sixty-nine position, and she was going to eat you out like you deserved. 

Mikasa got your legs and tried to put them as far as possible. Her fingers separated your lips, you didn’t need to be wetter, but she spitted on your pussy, watching the globe of saliva get down into you. You moaned in her and she started to grind on you while biting her bottom lip and caressing your clit with her index finger. Her tongue finally got a taste of you and she whimpered. Her hands were massaging your ass and you were doing the same. 

Your tongue was further inside of her and she was almost bouncing on your face, wanting to get to her climax again while trying to make you cum. 

“Shit, how wet you are. Do I turn you on that much, love?” 

“Mmm shit, baby.” You loved when she talked to you while fucking you dumb. “Yes, only you.” 

Mikasa smiled and started to lick your pussy as if her life depended on it. Her index finger was circling your entrance and you bucked your hips for her to fill you up. She got the hint, and fingered you with his slender finger, curling her finger to give you more pleasure. 

“Yes! Ah!Mikasa.” You were so close, she was feeling you squeeze her and she was close too, you could feel again her juices dripping down your face, and you were eager to lick all of her. 

Finally, you came on her mouth, dripping on all the bedsheets while whimpering like a bitch in heat. She kissed your clit and removed her finger from you, just to lick it clean. “You taste so good.” She said while riding you faster and moaning, cumming in your face again. 

You both started to make out with each other’s pussy slowly, trying to help the other ride the orgasm. 

Eren was with his mouth agape, with a hand on your hair, pulling it, and the other on the front of your neck. His pretty face was framed by his dark hair. He could see your body being pushed forward by his force and your ass bouncing. 

“Eren, Eren, Eren” you couldn’t think about anything, only about his thick dick pounding inside of you at a brutal pace. You were drooling onto his bedsheets, your eyes were at the back of your head, and whimpers and high-peached moans could be heard in the whole house. 

The lewd noises coming from your pussy only pushed him to go faster and harder, something you thought would be impossible. 

“You were begging like a slut. You like this too much” and he laughed. He laughed at how pathetic you were, but that just turned him on even more. He was going to give you everything you wanted. 

He towered over you, his hands on each side of your head. In that angle, he could fuck you even deeper. “AH EREN” you moaned as if your life depended on it. “You’re squeezing me, shit” his deep, low voice in your ear made you go feral. You started to drool even more, the side of your face covered in your spit. 

You backed your hips onto him to feel him more, but that was impossible. 

“I’m going to fuck you so deep that you’re going to feel my cum for days.” And he slower the pace for a few seconds before giving his all again. “Ah, ah, yesyesyes!” your brain was mush at this point and you couldn’t care less. “Ugghh—mmmmph” 

“I’m going to come on that pussy, my little slut.” He bit your shoulder while his thrusts were going harder. “You going to cum? Make a mess on my fat cock?” 

He reached for your clit, almost rubbing it with his hand, hard enough to make you squirm a little but not enough to hurt. He was going to come and he wanted to feel you milking him dry before he pumped his cum inside of you. 

“C-com-coming-g” you tried to say, as your eyes were at the very back of your head. 

“That’s it, milk me dry bitch, feel my cum in you, fuck, come on.” you came with a hard cry, thinking you were going to pass out of pleasure. 

“Shit, shit.” Eren said hiding his head in your neck. He stopped his thrusts and emptied himself inside your throbbing pussy.

After a few seconds, he started to kiss your neck, calming you down. You were so sensitive that you couldn’t help but whimper when he pulled out of you. You could feel his cum starting to drip very slowly. He filled you up so much and you were sure to keep it inside. 

You kept moaning because you were so horny, you couldn’t help it :( Eren saw your pathetic state and pushed his middle and ring finger inside your pussy, curling them and hitting that spot. “Ah oooh fuckfuck.” 

“Feel my cum? It’s going to be deeper now, I’m not letting you waste a single drop.” Eren said giving you a sloppy and nasty kiss on your wet mouth. 

You three were at Connie’s house. Eren was there all the time, you went from time to time, not wanting to interfere in their time. Leaning against the table you were observing and trying to catch the conversation. 

“I don’t think Sasha’s really gay.”

You laughed under your breath, if only he knew the things you did, he would be surprised. 

“She knows something.” Eren said with a smile. 

“Come on, Connie, she’s the definition of bisexual.” 

“Ey, how do you know? She never told me anything!” Connie exclaimed, a little bit offended. 

“You’re a boy.”

“But I’m her best friend. Wait, did you do something?” 

Eren was laughing, probably Mikasa told him something. You looked at Eren with a smile on your face and then you looked at Connie who was frowning. 

You didn’t respond but he knew that answer to that. 

After that, the conversation was normal again. They were talking non stop, whoever said that boys don’t gossip, they were wrong. 

“And she told me that she never had an orgasm with a boy.” Connie said. 

Now, you were really interested in the conversation. “Sadly, that’s the most normal thing. I never had one, either.” 

“Yeah…” Eren exclaimed looking at the ceiling. “They always cum with me.” He said it very seriously and you had to raise an eyebrow. He saw you looking at him with that expression but he reassured you that it was true. 

Connie winked at you. “What Connie, have you fucked Jaeger?” you laughed. 

“I wouldn’t mind being with him in a threesome. I don’t think I would touch him, but who knows.” 

“Deal.” Eren joined.

And they both looked at you for a moment and then they continued talking with you like nothing happened. You had confusion in your face for some time and then you discarded the thought. They couldn’t imply what you thought, right? You were never the type to attract boys, or anyone. It was luck that you had fucked Sasha several times. 

Eren got up to grab something to eat and you decided to follow him, you wanted a drink. You were behind him and he was so wide. You’ve never thought about it but he was so hot. Maybe the conversation earlier opened your eyes, because he was so fine. And Connie was too. 

“You’re so cute.”

“What?” you never thought that these words were going to be directed at you. 

“Don’t act like you don’t get this every day.” said Eren with a little smile.

“Mmm, actually, never.” you said it like it was the most normal thing. At least for you it was. 

“Well, you are. And Connie thinks the same.”

You had to laugh because there is no way that both of them think that you’re attractive. 

“Come one, let’s go.” 

But Connie entered the kitchen, too. And now Eren was behind you, and you could feel all his muscles in your back. 

Eren and Connie looked at each other. Connie grabbed your chin delicately and lifted our head up so you were looking at him. “You’re adorable. Very beautiful.” He said with his breath hitting your face, you were in awe. Eren wrapped his arms in your waist and you looked up at him with your mouth a little bit agape. He smiled with his beautiful lips, and you couldn’t help but to blush. You relaxed and you rested your head on Eren’s chest. They understood everything. “Do you want to make us feel good, baby? Like you deserve?” You nodded your head yes, but they wanted to hear it from you. “Use your words.” 

“Yes, I want to.” you said softly, a little bit shy. Connie smiled at you, got closer and kissed you. His lips were warm against yours. Your eyes were opened in surprise, even though you knew what was going to happen. He moved his lips in tandem with yours. His right hand moved to your neck and he squeezed it a little. You whimpered and he smiled in the kiss, happy that you were into that. You could feel Eren’s erection in your back and you backed up against him to feel him even closer. Eren’s hand roamed your body slowly, wanting to feel every inch of you. His lips were in your neck leaving little pecks, forcing Connie to touch you somewhere else. 

“MMM” you moaned into the kiss and into Eren’s touch. You felt your pussy get wet in seconds, you buckled your hips towards Connie this time, and he was more than happy to feel how desperate you were becoming. 

“Our girl wants to be touched? Mmmh?” Your eyes were wide with desire and shyness, a combination that made them go crazy. “Let’s go to the bedroom, okay?” and then he pecked you in the lips. 

Once in the bedroom, Eren started to kiss your lips, hungrily. His plump lips were so soft against yours that you couldn’t stop moaning. His hands were cupping your face and your hands were roaming his toned chest. He bit your bottom lip and you pushed your tongue against his lips, he got the hint and started to make out with you. The kiss was heated and your pussy was needy, you needed to be touched. You rubbed your hips against his leg, he was much taller than you, so he pushed his leg so you could get friction. Connie started to take your clothes off, stopping the make out session. Eren’s hungry eyes were all over your body and his erection was starting to be painful. He grabbed his dick with his pants on and started to pleasure himself with your view. Connie got on one knee and started to take off your pants. He kissed your lower back while touching your ass and legs. He left your little thong on and he smiled, with his fuck boy grin. 

“You got me so hard, need you now.” Eren said while kissing you again with all he got. He pushed you against the bed and Connie, seated against the wall in bed, grabbed your hips to take you with him. You were in front of Connie, with your back against him and Eren was in front of you. You were between the two men, and you could swear that it was heaven. Connie’s clothes were long gone, and you could feel his dick on your lower back. He was hard as hell. 

“So good for us. Let me eat your pussy, I need you to cum hard on my face, got it?” Eren’s voice was deep and urgent. You nodded because you didn’t trust your voice. His long fingers got hold of your thong, he took off the little cloth you had and kept them in his pocket. 

His face was closer now to your core, you were dripping in Connie’s bed and he was more than happy. Eren’s tongue licked your entrance, trying you out. He wanted to taste you. “Ah, Eren.” You bucked your hips against his face. “I barely touched you and you’re so sensitive already.” It wasn’t a question, it was a fact. “Mmmmm, please.” you whimpered, again.

“Use your words, or he won’t do shit.” Connie was so cruel with his words, but your pussy clenched. 

“She likes that, keep talking like this.”

“Is that what you want? To boss you around?” 

You moaned and Eren started to eat you out. “Yes, yes!” Answering the question and encouraging Eren to keep going. “Little slut. Our little slut, doing whatever we tell you to.” You turned your head around to watch Connie. Your mouth opened leaving high pitched moans and whimpers. “Play with your nipples, I wanna see it.” 

You looked at your front again, watchin Eren lick your clit like a kitten while a finger was circling your entrance. “F-fuck.” You were a mess already with all the stimulation. Your hands were massaging your boobs, you were so sensitive and couldn’t wait to touch yourself more. You started to caress your nipples, very superficially at first, circling them with the hem of your fingers. You wanted to feel more, so you pinched them slowly, feeling the sensation. You bit your lower lip, but a moan escaped your lips anyway.

Connie grabbed a hand against your throat, squeezing your sides. “AH! YES!” You arched your back, feeling Connie’s dick on your back and Eren’s tongue and fingers inside your pussy. “I’m cummin oh shit!” Eren’s tongue lapped at your juices like a starved man. He was rutting his hips against the bed like a bitch in heat. “Cum on my mouth, fuck, do it,” He sounded so desperate. Your orgasm hit you and your pussy started to clench on his tongue. His fingers were circling slowly while you were still bucking your hips to his face while playing with your hard nipples. 

“Fuck, what a whore.” Connie’s deep voice made you moan again. He laughed and bit your ear. His hand let go of your throat just to finger you. Your pussy making lewd noises because of how wet you were. Connie started to make hitting motions inside your pussy. You were so sensitive and that made you moan like never before. “Fuck, I wanna hear you moan like that again.” You sounded like a porn star. 

Eren got his dick out, while Connie was still fingering you and you gasped at the view. Big, very big dick, with a vein on his side. And it was long, too. Your mouth watered, you wanted to suck him off so bad. 

Connie took his fingers from you and put them in your mouth. “Lick them clean, bitch.” And you did what he ordered you too. “That’s it.” He said while watching you taking his fingers as if it was his dick, watching him directly in his eyes and moaning without looking away. 

“Fuck.” Eren said under his breath, watching you taking Connie’s fingers so well, thinking about fucking that slutty mouth of yours with his fat cock.

Connie positioned himself between your legs. You now could see his dick. It was so big and hard you were sure he was going to split you in two, and you were wishing for it. 

He gathered your juices to lubricate his dick, then he stroked it a few times before positioning himself in your entrance. Eren, on the other hand, went to your side and spat on his dick, stroking it while tapping his dick on your lips. You opened your mouth and he pushed himself inside of your warm mouth. 

“Oh shit!” Eren moaned at the sensation of your warmth engulfing him and you started to bob on his dick. Connie pushed himself inside your pussy. “Mmmph-” You continued bobbing your head while Connie was staying still, giving you time to adjust to his size. Eren’s hand went to your neck, choking you and feeling his dick down on your throat. 

“You’re sucking me so good, fuck, take more.” Eren pounded his dick at the same time as Connie, and you bucked your hips, wanting to feel Connie deeper. Your saliva was slipping out of your mouth and your pussy was making squelching noises. Your hand went to play with your hard and perky nipples while looking at Eren, and your orgasm was fast approaching. 

“Squeezing me so tight. Look at me while I’m railing you.” You looked away from Eren to look Connie right in his eyes while still sucking Eren’s cock like a pro. Connie felt your pussy clenching, but he decided that he wanted to fuck you in all fours. 

“On your hands and knees, now.” And you obliged, looking at Eren and waiting for him to fuck your mouth like that. 

Connie filled you up again and started to circle your clit with his fingers, helping you get to another orgasm. 

Eren positioned himself in front of you. He put his hand on your head, making you still so he could fuck your throat faster. Both men were going to cum. “Let me cum on your throat, fuck, fuck.” You nodded and in no time Eren was cumming deep down on you, his seed spilling outside of your mouth. After taking his dick out of your mouth you got your tongue out, showing that you swallowed it. He got down making out with you. 

“Let me cum in your pussy, bitch. Come on, ffffuck.” You nodded like your life depended on it while making out with Eren, and your orgasm washed you the same as Connie. You felt his cum deep in your pussy and his cock throbbing while spilling it. Eren let you go and you catched your breath again. Connie’s strong arms were gripping your hips hard. You knew you’ll have bruises tomorrow. Eren and Connie looked at each other with a smile on their face. 

Connie took his dick off you and you could feel his seed spilling out of your pussy. He put one finger inside, collecting the mix of cum. “Open.” He said to you and you took your tongue out, lapping your juices mixed with his cum. You looked at Eren with innocent eye’s while taking Connie’s finger in your mouth. He got a grin on his face, knowing that round two was going to be sooner than expected. 

Both of them laid on your side, both hugging you and catching their breath. 

“You’re ours now, only ours, got it?” Connie ordered. “Yes.” you said out of breath. You were going to be only theirs, you couldn’t object to that. “We’re going to make you feel good every fucking day.” 

You looked at your reflection in the mirror and saw dark circles under your eyes, but you always had them. That’s why you fitted so well in the underground. You looked kind of dead. You liked it, somehow. 

You brushed your hair and tied it up, not wanting to be a nuisance in the expedition. You sighed. Twice. After the dramatic pause, you got dressed and a little smile appeared on you. “I look so nice.” Maybe it was not that nice, but you needed some fun in your life. Why not believe it? 

“You’re going to come back. With Levi” You said to yourself trying to calm you down. It didn’t work, but you didn’t have any other choice than to give your best. You have been training hard for this, it was your day to shine. 

“I need to go inside.” Said Levi on the other side of the door. 

“Lovely as always.” You said, rolling your eyes. You opened the door to find a very stoic face Levi, the usual. He didn’t move to let you go outside, he just pushed you back inside, but this time with him. 

“Levi, wha-” but you were interrupted by a little kiss that he gave you on the lips. It was a peck, more than a kiss, but you got flustrated so fast that you didn’t know why he wasn’t making fun of you. 

“Come on, it’s going to be okay.” Levi said with the same voice tone he uses every day. You knew that it was going to be harder to make him feel comfortable, but you understood him. You weren’t going to rush the situation, you were happy to have shared something so intimate last night. 

“Let’s go, then.” you said with a soft smile, his eyes were different from a second. He turned around, and you followed him into the dining room. 

No one was there yet when the both of you arrived. But Hange appeared out of nowhere the moment you both sat down. 

“Good morning beautiful people!” They were so full of energy all the time, even though it was really early, you didn’t mind. “How did you sleep? Have you dreamed about the magnificent creatures that titans are? Oh, I’m so excited!” Said Hange while sitting in front of you two. 

“Hello, Hange. No, I was worried that I was going to die.” 

Hange looked at you seriously for a moment and then started laughing. “Oh dear, you’re not going to die, we’re researchers in the same team!” You admire how positive Hange was, but it was your first expedition, and you didn’t know 100% how it was going to be. 

While you were talking with Hange, Levi got up and got some tea for him. You were not really hungry, even though you needed to eat something, it was your big day. “I wish we could see some abnormal titans. It would be your first time, right? 

“Yes, I cannot lie, I want to see one, too.” 

Hange was over the moon. They knew that it was unrealistic to be this happy, but if you were going to explore outside the walls, a positive mind was always welcome. 

Levi sat down, looking at the both of you and then said “You and the relative new recruits are going to be guarded by my best men. I cannot guarantee that you’re going to live, but they will protect you.” 

Hearing that you were a little bit calmer. You knew that the Levi squad had the most capable people in the whole military, and you should trust them. 

While chatting with Hange, and occasionally Levi, the other members were entering the room. They were talking with one another, it seemed like they didn’t care that much, and that calmed you a little bit more. 

Sasha, Connie and Jean were talking with Mikasa and Eren. Armin came after them and smiled at you. That boy was so sweet. 

It seemed like Jean and Eren were not going to be fighting today. At least for now. 

You decided to go with them. 

Hours later you were at the Karanese door. It was outside the walls? Well, technically no, but it was your first time in Wall Maria since the titans came and conquered the zone. The sun was shining and you thank whatever was above for it. Imagine your first expedition with rain. You looked at Levi, and remembered that his first expedition was like this, full rain, no vision. 

Commander Erwin Smith stood in the front row. He had determination on his face, even though he did this enough time to get used to it. It was more like a recognition expedition, nothing “important” to be done, but lives were going to be sacrificed. 

Your ODM gear was heavy on your body and you were sweating. Your senses were intensified. But you needed to remain calm. You could do it, like all of your friends. They were much younger than you and they did it several times before. You tensed all your muscles, and stayed calm, in any moment now, the expedition would start. Your heart was beating fast, your-

“CADETS!” Erwin Smith's voice resonated through the place. “LET’S GO!” And with this last scream, the expedition began. 

Some of the cadets were screaming too, advancing the titans their fate. The horses went at full speed through the door until the wall was no longer in your vision. It was like time stopped for a second. The birds above, flying free without noticing the war that was going to take place just below them. The sun’s rays were shining with full force, everything was blinding for a couple of seconds. It shouldn’t be any different, you had been there plenty of times, but the sensation was so different that you had to breathe deeply a couple of times. Everything was changed. Since the fall, it looked ruined, but that doesn’t mean that you didn’t find it beautiful. Is that what outside the walls looked like? Without people it seemed to have a new light, you didn’t know how to explain it. 

You were immersed in your thoughts, you hadn’t seen a titan since you entered Wall Maria. You had to be careful, they could come at any given moment now. It was an inspection exploration, that was the name you gave it, only to look and see and then all of you would come back. 

Suddenly a thought came to your mind. Levi. Where was Levi? You started frantically searching for him. With all the nerves you forgot about him. Where was he? He should be okay, he is humanity’s strongest after all. 

“Calm down.” 

LEVI. You turned your head to your right and saw him, in all his splendour. The sun hitting directly to his face. How relieved you were! 

“Don’t scare me like that…” 

He didn’t know if it was because you were searching for him or because he literally scared you, but he was happy that you were alive and well. 

“Follow me, NOW!”

What? What was happening? 

You looked at the front and saw a titan running towards your group. Your eyes widened and you stood there until the realisation hit, and all your group followed Levi. The titan was following all of you but you had to look back. Titans were magnificent. You had always understood Hange, but now… seeing an active one in broad daylight was an experience. Your mouth was agape and your eyes widened with excitement. It was scary but you liked it, you liked it so much. Now you remembered why you also joined the scouts. To see them, to study them, and to somehow kill them. And suddenly while you were thinking that, you stopped your horse and turned away from them. You started to run towards the titan. Levi saw you and couldn’t believe what was happening. He instructed the other to continue without them, following the other groups that were around. 

You were fixed at the titan. 7 metres you thought. You could do it. You didn’t hesitate to grab your swords and to try to stand on your horse. You knew you couldn’t be in this position too long or you would fall. You aimed the grapples at its ankles and you propelled at full force to make a cut in the feet. The titan fell and you aimed now at the neck, going up and falling at full force with both blades. The cut was clean and the titan was dead. Your eyes brightened at the accomplishment you just made.

Levi was looking at you and he wasn’t happy at all. “GO TO THE HORSE, LET’S GO.”

You did it and in no time you were catching Levi. He was not looking at you, he seemed like he was deep in his thoughts, but you knew that he was very aware of the surroundings. You pushed your luck too much today, but it was your first expedition and you needed to do it. You wish you could stay there and watch the titan a little closer but if you stayed there any longer you were going to die. 

Someone was screaming at your left, and you decided to look. A scout you didn’t know the name of, was being eaten alive by a titan. You stopped your rhythm and Levi took away from you the reins of your horse so you couldn’t stop at any moment. You looked at him with a stern look but that did absolutely nothing to the Captain. He was moving forward, knowing that he could not help the man being eaten. You looked to your left again and saw the lifeless body without the head lying on the ground. The blood was on the titan’s mouth. While you were trying to digest the scene, another two screams could be heard a little far away. 

“LEVI, WE NEED TO HELP THEM.” 

He didn’t answer and he didn’t give you your horse reins either. He kept moving forward. You couldn’t believe it, he was letting all these people die. “LEVI!” but it was no use. He kept ignoring you. That was it? You knew it, but you didn’t want to believe that he was going to let them die. 

“Focus.” That was all he said to you. He finally let you get the reins again, but you didn’t see another titan than was approaching to you. 

A voice was singing in the distance, with a guitar. You were sure it was night, but you couldn’t tell. You were there for weeks, you didn’t want to go outside and even if you wanted to, you needed to do it at the exact time. Rush wasn’t going to let you go much further. 

You were near a wall, you could see everything from above but no one could see you there. You sighed, looking at the rocky ceiling. The inhabitants of the underground could know what time it was, you thought, but you were clueless. Was it 3am? 11pm? You didn’t know, but you were going to close your eyes for a second. 

“Ah, Levi” a sweet and tired voice uttered. “Finally home.”

You opened your eyes but had to close them again, the brightness was blinding you. You felt weak and your head hurt. You opened one eye, because you could feel movement and screams. Your head was low, and someone or something was grasping your waist. You raised your head and you opened your two eyes. You saw that you were on a horse and the Wall was nearer every second. You were a little bit lost, but you supposed that the mission was already finished. 

You looked down again and you saw a pale hand in your body. “Levi?” Your voice sounded weak. 

“We’re almost there.” he said. “Hold on tight.” And you did. 

“What happened?” 

But he didn’t respond, so you turned your head to face him, at least as much as you could. 

“Don’t. Stay still.”

You turned around again to face forward and saw that you were almost there. 

“I’ll tell you everything later.”

You hummed trying to remember what happened, but the only thing in your memory was killing that titan, while looking amazing doing it. You smiled a little bit, thinking about it and feeling Levi’s body behind yours. 

The moment you all entered from Wall Maria, everyone went to the headquarters. Levi got you down the horse and helped you walk inside. 

“I got it, Captain.” Sasha said, winking at you and taking Levi’s horse to his place. He was thankful for it and got you to his room. 

You laid in his bed with his help, since you were still dizzy from something that you don’t remember, and felt so much better. 

“How’re you feeling?” said he while going to the bathroom. 

“I feel tired and dizzy.” you said the truth. “But I’m better now laying down.”

Levi came with something that you saw other times, it was for cleaning wounds. You frown and that hurted you. “Auch.”

“Don’t do that.” you did it again. “Brat.” and you smiled at him. 

He put the antiseptic in your wound that now you knew it was in your forehead and under your right eye. “Do I have a cool scar?”

“Shut up.” You were going to be fine if he was still grumpy. After cleaning your other wounds, he let you alone in there so you could get changed to clean clothes, you will shower when you feel better. He was always letting you use his clothes and you didn’t want that to be a burden for him. 

“You’re always lending me your clothes.” 

“That’s because you don’t know how to be clean.”

“How cute.” and you frowned again, and you hurt yourself, again. “I said don’t do that.”

“Levi… what happened?”

He looked at you and sighed. “You fell down your horse, she’s fine by the way, because a titan was passing by you and you hit your head and face in the ground. I killed him before it was too late for you.”

You looked at him and you thought that the story was going to be better, but well, it was your first mission. “Thank you for helping me and not letting me die.”

He just nodded. You got close to him and grabbed his handsome face in your hands. He looked at you in your eyes and sighed again. He got close and kissed you. It was slow, he didn’t want to hurt you. He lowered his hand to your waist and licked your bottom lip. You opened your mouth to let him. He moved in synchronicity with you. It was rhythmic. He deepened the kiss and slowly, he pushed you to his bed. 

Now, with you being seated, he put his hand on your chin and told you “let me help you relax.” And you nodded. You laid down and he got over you. He kissed you once again. His hand went to your chest, massaging your boobs over the t-shirt he gave you and you moaned. He took the opportunity to deepen the kiss even more. “Levi…” you whispered while he pecked your neck. 

He looked at you and got down on his knees. You wanted to watch him but the position was still painful. “Please, relax.” 

He took off the pants and your underwear, tossing them to the floor. He got close to your pussy and licked a strip from bottom to top, teasing your clit. You needed that, you needed to feel him, and this time knowing that you both are alive. 

His tongue circled your entrance and pushed a little inside. “Ah, mmm.” “You like that don’t you, baby? Let me hear those pretty moans of yours, don’t hold back.” He smiled and your clenching pussy. Levi pushed his tongue once again inside you while circling your clit with his long finger. You were so sensitive, always so sensitive and he liked it so much. You clenched your pussy and he moaned at the sensation, sending vibration to your core. You were so close, he was eating everything you were giving him and his finger didn’t stop a second. 

“I’m so- mmm so c-close!” 

He kept giving you what you needed and in no time you were cumming in his face. He stopped giving attention to your clit and licked every drop of you. You sighed, happy and tired. 

He cleaned you with a towel and put on your underwear again. You hummed, ready to sleep a little bit. He positioned you inside of his bed and gave you a kiss. He caressed your face and watched you drifting into a much needed sleep.

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“Hey, baby.” You said with a sweet voice, but he didn’t even look at you. You touched his arm to get his attention and the only thing he did was to move his arm so you were not touching him. You huffed, you were tired of being ignored. You crossed your arms and tried not to text Eren right now, but you knew that was not going to be possible. Your boyfriend was laughing alone watching the shitty programme while smoking a blunt, not even asking you if you wanted some. You were tired of his shit. 

You looked at your phone again and clicked on Eren’s message. Wanna hang out today? sent 17:12. R u with your shitty boyfriend again? sent 17:25

You sighed and answered him. Where do you wanna go? sent 17:45

The response came faster that you thought, not even two minutes passed by. I’ll pick you up, do you wanna watch something in my house? sent 17:46

A smile appeared on your face. I’m at my boyfriend’s, you know the address? Sure sent 17:47

I’ll be there in 15 mins, wait for me outside. sent 17:47

You waited patiently until it was time, you said your boyfriend goodbye and he didn’t dare to look at you, he was in his own world, and sooner rather than later, you were not going to be in it. 

You waited outside his house and saw Eren coming in his car to pick you up. You almost ran when you saw him and didn’t hesitate at all to get into his car. 

“Ready, darling?” said Eren with his beautiful and playful smile. You smiled at him, looking at his beautiful emerald eyes. Yes, you were ready to leave behind that bitch. He looked at his front again and started to drive home. 

“Are you going to leave him?” “Yes, not now, but maybe tomorrow or in some days. I want to think that he will try to see me or fight for me, but I think we both know that’s not going to happen.” You knew Eren was impatient for you to leave him, but now he was rather serious. “I want you to be happy, and he’s not doing it. You cried more being with him than when you were single.” He was right, but you didn’t want to think about it. 

The ride went by so fast that you thought you teletransported. Opening the door of his house, he put his hand on the small of your back, and guided you to his couch. You started to get butterflies in your stomach. You didn’t have a crush on him, right? I mean, you couldn’t think about that, but he made you so happy… only with a look he had you on your knees. But also, you knew that he was out of your league, he was a Greek god and there wasn’t a girl that didn’t have a crush on him. You both sat down, and he started to bring snacks and drinks for you to have. “What do you want to watch?” “Literally, I don’t care.” 

He put the first thing he saw, it was going to be in the background while you talked, so it didn’t matter that much. 

“I thought you couldn’t look any more beautiful, but look at you today.” He said with a grin. You knew you were red, and a little smile appeared on your face while looking at your shoes. You didn’t want to look at him because you will literally melt. “Thank you Eren, but you don’t have to lie.”

Eren’s face was contorted into a idontknowwhatyouaretalkingabout face. “What are you talking about?” 

“I mean, look at you, why are you telling me this?”

“Because you are.” his face was dead serious. He wasn’t lying. 

“Being so much with him melted your brain, princess?”

You looked at him with wide eyes. But the hot on your cheeks was not going away anytime soon. 

“You deserve someone that makes you feel beautiful and worthy, and who’ll be better than me?”

You laughed in his face, thinking that he was joking, as always. But he wasn’t. You looked at him again with big eyes. His hand caressed your cheek, and he left his hand in there, feeling you. “I could make you so happy, baby. You just have to give me a chance.” 

You knew Eren was a beast in bed but you didn’t know if he was a good lover. With all probability, he was. He was faithful to death and always treated you like a princess. Your brain was going a thousand kms per hour. You didn’t know what to do. You wanted to kiss him and for him to fuck you until you didn’t know your name. You wanted him to do whatever he wanted. And you were here for it. 

You got closer and closer until finally, your lips crashed in a rushed kiss. Eren grabbed your hips and made you straddle him, never stop kissing. Your hand moved to the back of his head, and little by little strands of his hair came out of his man bun he made everyday. His tongue was playing with your lips, asking for permission to finally taste you whole. You obliged and opened your mouth for him. Your tongue was playing with his, exploring every inch of his mouth you could, not stopping any minute to breathe. 

Your hips were slowly moving in his lap, getting both of you some friction. You moaned in Eren’s mouth because of the pleasure of his dick rubbing your pussy. Eren took advantage of your open mouth to place his tongue deeper inside of you. His hands were roaming from your hips to your waist, repeatedly. Your hand intertwined in his hair, finally letting him free from the bun he had perfectly made this morning. His hair fell in his face, and he was beautifully framed by his long and dark hair. 

Your hips couldn’t stop moving, and every now and then you moaned, not wanting to hold back, and even if you wanted you couldn’t stop, it felt so nice you wanted to be like this forever. And if the friction was that good, imagine what could happen when he fucked you sensless like all this women claimed. 

He separated from your lips to look at you. “You look so beautiful, fuck. Are you feeling how hard you are getting me?” You couldn't say anything but moan at his words. He kissed your neck, starting at the top, behind your ears. His hands were in your back, pulling you closer to him, even though that was impossible. You were so tiny in comparison to him and that made him go feral. His lips and tongue were tracing your neck, leaving marks behind. He left hickeys in the front, where everyone could see. You didn’t care that your boyfriend could see them, in fact you wanted him to know that you were Eren and Eren’s only. He passed his tongue after leaving the marks to soothe the pain. 

“‘want you to ride my thigh, would you do that for me?” He said it in his deep and lustful voice that made you do anything he wanted while looking at you with blown lust pupils. You nodded and he helped you to take your pants off. He was fully clothed and pretended to be like this, so you could grind yourself on his jeans, getting even more friction. He discarded your pants somewhere in his living room and left you with your thong. 

He pressed his finger in your clothes pussy and you whined. You were soaked. He could smell you from his seated position. Slowly, he took them off, and with his index finger he made a trail from your entrance to your clit. He had a grin on his face the whole time, he was having so much fun. He licked his finger while looking at you and you almost fainted. He looked so fucking good and your pussy started almost dripping. 

“You taste heavenly.” He said while kissing your tummy and caressing your waist. He then placed you between his leg and pressed you down. “Mmmmph” that’s all you could say. 

“So whiny just from sitting on my leg, you’re so desperate.” he was so unfair, and that just turned you on even more. He was so fucking hot you wanted to eat his dick until he came hard on your throat. 

“Move for me.” and you obliged, not wanting to wait more. Your hips started to move slowly at first, you were a little shy and he knew it. He wanted to see you flustrated. He wasn’t going to help you get off, but before letting you have fun, he pulled up your shirt (luckily for you, you were not wearing any bra) and made you bite it, so he could see your beautiful tits move with every move on your hips. Your hands were in his legs, trying not to fall. Your nipples were hard from the friction on your shirt before, and with the cold air were still perky, ready to be sucked. But Eren was mean, and he wasn’t going to give you that satisfaction, not yet. 

Your clit was rubbing perfectly in his jeans and he was adoring his view, with his arms crossed behind his head. Your spit was slowly dripping on your shirt. “You’re making a fucking mess, so fucking desperate to get off? Pathetic.” And you moaned even higher. He was making you so fucking wet. There was a stain in his jeans and it was going to be bigger. “Look at you, trying to get off by yourself. How many times were you dreaming this?” and he emphasized the sentence by clenching his leg, giving you extra friction. “MMMPH” that all you could mutter. Your eyes were closed, but you opened them just to see his beautiful face, with his long hair and that scene almost made you cum. “Fuck, what a slut you are. Are you having fun there using me?” And your eyes went to the back of your head while desperately riding his leg. You didn’t know you were into degrading, but holy shit, that was so hot. You whined while going faster, riding his leg like a bitch in heat. He was clenching his thigh from time to time to help you reach your orgasm. Finally, with a loud whimper, you came, making a mess in his thigh. He then, grabbed you and let you to his room. 

He placed you in your bed, sitting in front of his crotch. You were so fucking horny and you wanted to suck the life our of him. You palmed his erection through his jeans and kissed it. His hand was on your hair, caressing you. “So sweet for me.” You looked up at him and whined again, you didn’t know you could get to whiny. You bit your bottom lip while looking him in the eyes and undoing his belt. When the belt was done, you took off his trousers and his underwear. And oh my fucking god, he was huge. 

“Open your mouth.” And you opened your mouth to him. He placed two of his fingers in your mouth, making you gag in his long and big fingers. You were still looking at him as if you were in a trance and he couldn’t control himself. He pushed his fingers deeper, preparing you for his big and fat cock. Your spit started to gather on the corner of your lips and soon started to drool into your tits. He pushed his fingers in and out of you a couple of times before grabbing in dick and stroking himself while looking at you. 

“See how hard you make me, princess? You’re all mine.” You nodded and he smiled at you. His dick twitched at your beautiful face. His tip was leaking precum and you, as his good girl, licked it clean. The tip of your tongue pressed lightly against his slit and he hissed at the sensation. His hand on your hair tightened a little bit. You moved it in circles, never leaving the tip. Your hand was playing with his balls while the other was caressing his dick. His long, thick and veiny dick was a sight to behold. You grabbed his dick with your right hand and smeared the precum and your spit in your lips, never stopping looking at him. His mouth was a little agape, looking at you in awe. His little slut. Your juices were dripping on his bedsheets  and your cunt was clenching from the view. Eren with his long hair down made you have impure thoughts. 

Your mouth opened again to welcome his member in your warm mouth, and he let out a breathy moan. He threw his head back from the pleasure and your tongue started to work on his shaft again. You were bobbing your head back and forth and taking more of him little by little. Your tongue playing with him too. One of your hands was masturbating the part of his dick you couldn’t get in your throat while the other was playing with his balls. 

“AH.” he thrusted more into your throat, he wanted to feel his big cock contracting in it. The combo was making him crazy, you were making him crazy. “You suck cock so fucking well, I’ll make sure that, no- no one gets to try it ever a-again.” His moans were getting higher every time. You loved how he had no shame and was so vocal. His pretty voice was getting strained from the pleasure and you swallowed more of him. He started to thrust in your mouth, chasing his high, but he wasn’t going to cum in your mouth, not today. 

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum.” He stopped and pushed you a little to get his cock out of your mouth. “Want you to cum in my mouth.” you said to him with big puppy eyes. “As much as I want to, I’m going to fill you up full of my cum until it’s dripping out of your pussy.” Your eyes widened and your pussy clench at his words. Without another word grabbed you from your waist and laid you down on his bed. 

He towered over you, and his arms were on each side of your head. He lowered himself to kiss you one more time. His kisses were demanding and you couldn’t stop the thoughts of other women getting the same treatment that you were getting now. But you discarded that feeling, now you had to enjoy every second that you could with this man right there. 

His arms were flexed, supporting his weight trying not to crush you and you couldn’t help but to touch them. He was strong, everybody knew that, but touching his clenched arms made you even wetter, and he knew it. Both of your spit was drooling into your chin, Eren’s tongue was discovering all of your mouth again. Your hand was on the back of his head, grabbing some of his hair that was framing his gorgeous face. 

He separated himself from your mouth and a string of saliva was connecting you two. He smirked with his mischievous smile that got all the girls wet, and his mouth trailed down to your cleavage. His hand roamed the valley of your breast while his tongue was making his way towards your nipples. 

“So fucking beautiful. Look at these tits, all mine.” And after that, the tip of his tongue was playing with your left nipple. “Ah, Eren…”. You were a mess, so wet and so horny. Eren’s tongue continued playing with your nipple while slightly biting it. “Fuck, more!” You wanted everything of him. And he obliged, biting again and soothing the little pain he caused you with his warm tongue. The right hand was playing with your other boob, not wanting to leave you unattended. He was twisting and flicking it and you were going to cum. 

“Eren, Eren… gonna cum.” 

“Your nipples are so sensitive… I'm gonna have fun with you.” And again that beautiful and mischievous smile of his. He didn’t stop playing with them and he wasn’t going to stop anytime soon. 

“Eren…” 

“Tell me, my slut.”

Fuck, you craved his dick inside your wet pussy. You needed him or you were going to combust. 

“Mmmphh, p-please, Eren, please.” You couldn’t think, your brain was like mush, you didn’t have any coherent thoughts, only his dick. His fingers were flicking your nipples and your hand started to travel to your clit, you needed some friction. But Eren stopped your hand midway. 

“What do you think you’re doing, mh? Use your words.”

“Please.”

“Use your words or I’ll stop,”

“Fuck me Eren, I need your big cock inside my fucking pussy, pleasee.”

“That’s my girl. That wasn’t that hard, was it?”

He laughed, and he gave you what you craved. He took off his shirt first, and you could see his abs, the most beautiful boy ever. Your eyes half closed because you were so, so horny that that’s the only thing you could do. He took two fingers and wetted them in your juices, so he could stroke his dick better. You moaned desperately. Finally, he took his dick with one hand, while the other hand was at the side of your head, and placed the tip of his dick in your entrance. He was going slow, because he was big, and didn’t want to hurt you, but you were so wet that it wasn’t a problem. 

You both moaned at the sensation. Your wetness involving his dick, and you clenched your pussy at the sensation. 

“Fuck, do that again.” And you did it. You clenched your pussy for him, making him moan in response. His pace was slow but steady, ready to destroy your pussy whenever you were ready. 

“Eren, faster, please, please, please.” You chanted the last word like your life depended on it. “I’m gonna destroy your pussy, is that what a whore like you wants? Fuck.” And his strokes got faster and harder. 

“AH YESYESYESYES.” your head was backwards and your mouth was in a o shape. Every thrust he gave made you moan, the harder they were the higher the moan. Your hands were clenching his sheets, his hair was falling in your face. You were in heaven. He was fucking you so hard, you needed his dick like that, you wanted more and more. 

“I feel you clenching, going to cum for me? For daddy? I can feel my dick inside of you” And he pressed one hand in your tummy to feel the outline of his dick inside of you.

Oh my god. You were going to die of pleasure. His deep voice dirty talking to you got your pussy gushing with your sweetness. “Yes, daddy, fuck me more, I’m gonna come!” 

His thumb was circling your little clit, giving you the extra friction you needed to cum on Eren’s cock. After some seconds you came hard, with a cry and your eyes closed. His thrust didn’t stutter, he was giving you what you deserved. Your pussy was wetter than ever and even you thought that was impossible. You got sensitive but didn’t want to stop. Eren got your legs and put them on his shoulders, folding you into his bed. That new position allowed him to fuck you deeper and harder. “S-s too m-much!” 

“You fucking love it, don’t you? Love it when I fuck you deep and hard, giving you all my cum.”

His hips were starting to stutter, he was so close, your pussy made just for him, so tight and warm, he was going to fill you up to the brim. “I’m going to cum inside that pussy.” You were begging him to, and he wasn’t going to deny you that. 

After some more thrusts, he spilled his cum inside of you. You felt how he filled you entirely. His breath was uneven, but oh, he wanted to do it again. He took his dick out of you and you whined, because you felt so empty without him inside of you…

But he wasn’t finished. He got down on you and started to eat you out. His cum was mixed with your arousal and he moaned at the flavour. “Eren, oh fuck.” He started to lick you clean, not leaving anything behind. He folded your legs again, to have more access to his sweet pussy. His tongue on your entrance was going in and out, getting everything inside of you in his tongue. Swallowing everything. He was so vocal the vibrations were sending you to the edge again. After everything was clean, he played with your clit again, making you cum all over his face, and oh god didn’t he love that. 

“Eren...” your voice was tired and filled with lust. He got up from below you and kissed you eagerly again. His tongue filled with both of your cum, salty and tangy, all together. You moaned at the taste. Making out like this was something you would’ve never guessed. And you loved it. 

“Please, baby, break up with your boyfriend.” Eren said between kisses. Your boyfriend wasn’t even on your mind, but that was the signal you needed to break up with that asshole. 

However, tomorrow the scouts will have an expedition through Wall Maria, and you will join them. You were ready mentally, at least you tried to be, because you didn’t know what would happen once the doors were opened. Titans were everywhere and all of you just wanted to close the hole in the wall and claim your territory once again. Every time the door opened, a lot of your comrades died and you had to be prepared to look at them being eaten alive with your own eyes. And probably, you would be one of them. It will be the first time seeing titans in action in broad daylight. You have killed them, but they were inactive, and tomorrow will be your first real experience. You couldn't stop thinking about it. 

Looking back, you made good friends with Sasha and Connie, and you wanted them to be there at the back of the mission. They were nervous but nothing they haven’t done before, they tried to explain to you every detail that you needed to know and what their first mission was like. Sasha promised that one of them pissed themselves, but Connie denied it. You knew who was telling the truth. They made you laugh every time you talked with them, they made you feel like you were part of their team. Jean sometimes joined when you were talking with them, and sometimes, only sometimes, you wanted to smack him. He couldn’t stop talking shit about Eren and about the mission. But sometimes, and only sometimes, he was right. Eren was kind of suicidal and the mission sometimes were pointless (deep down you knew that every exploration was a step closer in defying the titans.) You never joined one, but you could see how all of them agreed in silence with their faces. You learned also, that Levi trusted Commander Erwin Smith with his life and who were you to disagree with that? You didn’t know Commander Erwin Smith as the others did, and especially Hange and Levi. 

—

It was late at night, and as usual, you climbed up to the roof, to be alone or to be with Levi, you cherished both options. The night sky was clear, you could see every star, it was an engulfing sensation. This time you were sitting down with your back against a wall, you were not at the front like most times, you wanted to be really comfortable today, since tomorrow was your first mission, and you wish not to be the last. 

“You changed positions.” Levi’s voice resonated through the night. 

“I want to be comfortable, you know, maybe it’s my last day alive.”

Levi looked at you with an understanding expression but it was quickly to change. 

“I saw that.”

“I don’t know what you're talking about.”

You let it be, you didn’t want to spend the last time on earth fighting with Levi. He sat down next to you and released a little sigh, almost imperceptible. He looked so calm, but even Captain Levi should be nervous about an expedition, right? 

“Levi… aren’t you nervous about tomorrow’s expedition?” you said with shyness in your voice. You didn’t want to sound too afraid or something. He looked at you with raised eyebrows and you raised your eyebrows too, mimicking him. 

“I come from the underground, how bad can it be? And I have been to uncountable expeditions, but… sometimes I think that this could be my last. I’m not necessarily nervous, but I have to understand that people are going to die, my comrades or me, and it’s not easy.”

You looked at your front again, with your arms surrounding your legs and your chin in your knees. You sighed and he continued talking, he could be very talkative given the right time. 

“I remember my first expedition. I should’ve gone alone, and if I did, maybe my friends would’ve been alive right now. But I let them.”

“It wasn’t your fault.”

“I know, and I cannot change the past therefore I cannot regret anything I’ve done.”

You looked at him and your pocket was feeling very heavy. You always carried a picture of them with you, at all times. You know that they died in their first expedition and Levi was never the same. You wanted him to have the picture, he deserved it. 

“Levi, there’s something I think you might like to know.” 

He looked at you with a raised eyebrow and then at your hand inside your pocket. You carefully took out the picture that was neatly folded and handed it to him. He was sceptical at first, not knowing what that was and why you wanted to give it to him. He took it from your hand, touching your fingers in the process. Your mouth was a little agape, loving the sensation he had left on your skin for such a little touch. 

“What’s this?”

“Open it, Levi.” your voice was calmed and sad, and your eyes were watery. 

Levi obliged, and carefully he unfolded the picture. He looked at it for a few minutes, without saying a word. You were prepared for all the questions that might come. However, what you didn’t know is that Levi, little by little, was forgetting how their faces looked like. He didn’t have any picture with him to remember every day the existence of his friends. Little Isabel and Farlan, the ones that saved him and the ones that died so young. 

He looked at you after what it felt like an eternity. His eyes were kind of wide and his face was surprised. 

“How?” His voice was steady but low. 

“Well… it’s kind of pathetic but… I never had that many friends and actually, I never bonded with them and I was alone all the time. My life was horrible and I just wanted to leave the city where I lived. I didn’t have anywhere to go and I just went underground… It wasn't my safe place but I could escape these people and then I saw the three of you, being together. After some time of watching you I decided to go to a man that made portraits and tell him that I wanted a portrait of you three… with me in it. It sounds pathetic I know, but I wanted to feel part of something.”

Levi listened to you very carefully. He didn’t expect to hear that from you. You seemed very cheeky and free. However, that interior world it’s something that people don’t go explaining to the first person they see. He didn’t pity you, because he knew how inferior that made him feel, but respected you, for all the decisions you made, and respected you because due to the horrible things that led you to the underground, he has a portrait of his friends. 

“You can crop me out of the portrait, it’s all yours.”

He would never do that, not when you gave him the picture that you had made explicitly for you, because you wanted to be part of a friend group, like him. He placed the picture in his chest for a couple of seconds, and then he folded the picture and put it in one of his pockets. 

“Sorry, for what happened to you.”

“It’s fine, now I’m in a better place than before.”

He grabbed your hand, and squeezed it a little. Your eyes went big, you didn’t expect that at all. Your body was suddenly hot. You felt your cheeks get hot also. It was like steam was coming out of your body. You never pushed his hand away and he silently thanked you. 

With the little clarity left in your head, you rested your head on his shoulder. He was shocked, but he didn’t push your head aside as well. Your bodies were closer than ever and tomorrow could probably be your last day alive. You wanted to live without regrets. 

At the same time, you both looked at each other. Your head was inches away from his, and he didn’t move away a millimetre. In fact, he came closer to you, you were dying inside of nervousness but that didn’t stop you. 

Both of your lips touched in a kiss. For a few seconds that was all that you did. After a few more seconds, Levi put the other hand on the back of your head, and your lips started to move in sync. His lips were very soft and you swore that you could die right there. The kiss was slow and meaningful. Levi dared to ask for permission to deepen the kiss by pressing his tongue against your bottom lip. You happily let him enter your mouth fully. At first it was timid, the tongue barely touching yours. It was exploring your mouth very slowly. You didn’t want to rush anything, you were scared that Levi was going to run away if you made the wrong move. But you dared to touch him. Your hand was travelling up to his face, and you left your hand there, caressing his skin. He leaned even more towards you, and now the kiss was more needy and aggressive. Your tongues and teeth were clashing between each other, you two wanted more. 

His hand that was at the back of your head now rested on your face. Pushing you a little, you both breathed. He looked at your swollen lips, your flushed cheeks and then into your half-lidded eyes. If tomorrow’s going to be your first expedition, he wanted to go without any regrets. 

You two stayed there for a couple of minutes, just breathing and caressing each other's skin. You didn’t dare to move and neither did he. You were too nervous and he was too, but someone had to break the beautiful moment. 

“This might be a weird question, but do you wanna get a shower?”

You laughed, but you understood the question. If you were going to leave this planet, you wanted to be clean, and knowing the clean freak he was, that was not a very weird question. He had a private shower, so thankfully he would let you be there with him. 

Going down to your bedroom, you open the window and you both slide in. You grabbed your belongings and disappeared with him into the headquarters. 

—

His room was impeccable as always. Nothing was in the way, everything was clean and the only object you could observe was his set of tea in his nightstand. He grabbed your hand, pulled you close to him and kissed you again. It was as timid as the first time, and you loved it, you loved every second. After some shared kisses you two went to his private bathroom. You didn’t know if he meant shower together or just shower, but you hoped to be the first option. His lips left yours, only to be in your neck next. He kissed every single inch of your neck, licking and sucking. Your mouth left some breathy moans and he loved them so much, he wanted to hear more of those sounds you made. His hands were very slowly caressing your body, not yet touching where you needed him the most. Your hands were in the back of his head, silently trying to make him understand not to let you go. Levi wanted to be like this forever with you too, but he also needed to feel you skin to skin. 

Slowly, he was undressing you, taking his time with each piece of clothing you were wearing. The straps on your upper body were the first to go. Levi was undoing your straps, while light touching your skin in a sensual way. You were watching him in owe. His rough exterior was now turning into the gentle man you had behind you. Your heart was melting, and if you were to die tomorrow, you’ll die happily. You have never experienced this feeling, someone being so gentle towards you, without rushing anything, without pressuring you. 

After all the straps were gone, he turned you around so this time he was facing you. He kissed you again, slowly and sensually while taking off your clothes. However, he wasn’t touching all of you, he wanted to be something special. He started to kiss from your neck to your collarbone, he stopped and looked at you with half-lidded eyes. You looked back at him with lust blown pupils and he continued his way down. His lips were like feathers when he approached your breasts. Your hand moved again to the back of his head and slowly you pushed him towards you. He pressed his lips to the top of your breasts, kissing them without leaving an inch unexplored. He took out his tongue and licked your nipple. You moaned again, a soft moan that kept him going. He wanted to hear you again and again. While playing with his tongue on your nipple, he started to flick your other nipple with his hand, not letting you unattended for one second. You were watching him, breathing rapidly from the pleasure and the nervousness. When he thought it was enough, he kissed your body again until he stopped at your underwear. He looked at you again, and said “you won’t be needing this tonight.” while taking them off and tossing somewhere in the bathroom. 

He opened your legs and the scent from your pussy hit his nostrils, and what a sweet scent you had. His hand opened your pussy lips, getting him the perfect view. He let out a sigh and licked a strip from your entrance to your clit. “Mmmm” is all you could say, with your eyes half closed. He was savouring every second that he was in your pussy. His tongue was going up and down, paying special attention to your clit. Levi’s tongue circling your entrance every now and then, when finally he sucked on your clit while stuffing you full with one finger. 

“LEVI!” you shouted, your pussy filled with his long and slender finger. Even though it felt amazing, you couldn’t wait to be filled with more fingers, and even better, with his dick. He got the hint and started to pump in and out of you, and after some time he pushed another finger in your tight pussy, making you orgasm with the ministrations he was giving to your used clit. 

The pulsing sensation involving his fingers made him wonder how it would feel while his dick was inside of you. That thought made him feral and Levi undressed himself as fast as he could. Then he grabbed your waist and lifted you up with your legs around his waist. With you in his arms like that, he pushed himself in the shower with you and pressed you against the wall. You two started to kiss passionately, as if you two weren’t going to be together ever again. Your tongues overlapping each other while your teeth kept clashing due to the force you and Levi were kissing. One of his hands was grabbing your head and pushing you impossible close to him, while the other was on your waist, keeping you up. His erection was touching your inner thigh and you moaned in Levi’s mouth. The hand that was grabbing your head, came down to pump his cock while placing it in your entrance. “Fuck, I’m gonna fuck you, can I?” He said it with lust in his voice. “Please.” That was all he needed to hear to start to penetrate you. His dick entering you inch by inch, until he finally bottomed you out. You were so wet and well prepared that it wasn’t hard do to. Both of you let a breathy moan after he was fully inside of you. You urged him to move a little bit and he obliged. His dick was slowly penetrating you. He was thick and you couldn’t stop but moan in his ear. “That’s it, you’re taking it so fucking well.” His voice was filled with lust. You wish he could continue talking like this to you. “Please, more.” He wasn’t sure about what, but he gave it to you anyway. The way your pussy was contracting in his cock was making him lose his mind. You were so tight and so wet he could come in any second. He went faster and rougher, he wanted to give you everything you deserved. “You like it like this? Want me to fuck you hard? Mmm?” You were a moaning mess and couldn’t answer him, but he wasn’t going to give up that easily. 

“Use your words or I’ll stop.”

“No, puh-, please Levi, fuck me.”

“Want me to fuck you hard?” 

“Yes, yes!” Your eyes were at the back of your head while his fat cock was entering you rough and fast. You were bouncing in this cock too, wanting to cum already. He noticed your urgency and started to make circles in your clit, gentle circle so you couldn’t come right away. “Going to cum for me, darling?” That pet name made you moan louder and he smirked for himself. His fingers were working on you while he was trying not to cum by his view. Your hair wet and framing your beautiful face, your mouth agape and your eyes rolled back and your moans resonating in the shower. His hair was also framing his handsome face, and his voice was breaking little by little, his orgasm was right there. “Come on, come on, fuuuck, come for me.” That was all you needed to cum in his dick, squeezing him so good that he was drunk by your pussy. “LEVI!” You got even tighter and he thought that was impossible. Not even five seconds after, he was cumming inside of you. You could feel his cock throbbing inside your pussy. He bottomed you out again and you felt his cum filling you up. 

“Aaah… shit.” you couldn’t utter anything else, you were fucked up. You both came down from your high and he put you down, helping you get to your feet again.  Your faces were close, you two kept looking at each other for some time. He came down a little and kissed you, tenderly. His hand was touching your chin to lift your face up so he could push his tongue inside of you easily. He almost got hard again, but it was too late already. 

Levi helped you clean you and you helped him. The aftercare with him was something you didn’t think about, but it was so intimate that you almost cried. You have never felt this before, and you wanted to feel it again. You didn’t want to die, you wanted to be with him like this forever, but you both chose this life. 

“Are you okay?” 

“Yes, Levi, thank you.” You smile softly at him and he gave you a little smile that warmed your heart. He was so handsome and seeing him smile always got you. You laughed softly and he swore that it was the most beautiful thing he ever witnessed. You were looking at him so tenderly that he had to look away for a moment. 

You two got out of the shower and started to dry yourselves and get dressed. He gave you his pyjamas, he knew that you didn’t need them because you got yours, but he wanted to see you using his clothes. You pecked him in the lips and started to get dressed while he was watching you. After that, he led you to his bed, tucking you both in, together. 

“You’re not going to die tomorrow, don’t die on me, please.” He muttered this to himself but you heard him, and you hugged him, answering him.

You were looking directly at him, sometimes you were wondering what could you feel being with him, at least for one night. Two months ago, you started to recognize the feeling that you were falling in love, little by little with that man. You were friends for a long time, you knew him, as you knew the rest of them. 

Connie noticed your gaze and he looked at you while his grin disappeared from his face. He looked almost neutral, noticing Connie looking at you, you looked away. Your cheeks were starting to get a pink tint in them, but you looked at him again, and he was still looking at you with a stoic face. 

“I’m going to get some drinks, who wants another?” You said in hopes of getting out of his field of view. The fridge was in the kitchen, just in front of the living room, but it was enough to escape his gaze for a while. “I want another, please”, Eren said, you smiled at him but not before another voice stopped you. 

“I’m gonna go with you, and see what else we’ve got in there”. You looked at Connie as he said that, and he got up and started to go to the kitchen. You bought drinks, so Historia wouldn't have an empty fridge by the end of the afternoon. Turning around you started to follow Connie into the kitchen. 

He was leaning against the kitchen counter with his hands. “Are we going to address the elephant in the room?” 

You slowed your movements. “I- I don’t think I understand.”

He didn’t say anything and sighed. You opened the fridge, grabbed some drinks and closed the door, but you didn’t want to look at him. 

“I think we should talk about it.”

“Talk about what”?

“Whatever tension is this.”

You sighed and looked at him. He turned his head around to face you and he was still with the same expression as before, and it was weird, because he was always smiling. “Okay.” That’s the only thing you said, and he nodded. Connie looked at his pocket and pulled out a joint he had rolled earlier. “Do you wanna smoke?”

“Okay.” It seemed like the only word that you could utter. 

You didn’t want to talk to him but the tension, as he called it, was going to be too much to handle. You knew you were not being the nicest person, but you couldn’t express happiness in this condition. You were sure that he didn’t like you back and maybe this was going to be the end of your friendship, and you were terrified. And if this was the case, your friend group would be affected too. 

“Come on.” He said almost in a stern tone. You followed him back to the living room. “We’re going to smoke, won’t be late.” You gave the drink to Eren, and Connie said “where do you wanna go? I think the balcony would be better.” “That’s fine by me.” Connie led the way and you two disappeared into the second floor. 

Historia’s guest room was at the right of the stairs at the end of the corridor, and it had a decent balcony. She had some chairs and plants were adorning the floor. And yes, that was almost Ymir’s bedroom, she was with her almost all the time. Connie opened the door and invited you to sit in the right chair. The view was very pretty, it was dark but you could appreciate the city thanks to the moon’s light. You looked at Connie, he had the joint in his mouth while lighting it. He looked so good. The smoke came out of his mouth and disappeared into the chilly night air. Connie gave it a few puffs before looking at you again.

“Wanna smoke?”

“Thanks.” You said while grabbing the joint between your fingers. You dragged the joint to your lips and gave it a few puffs. He was observing you, your face, your eyes, your lips… He had a concentration face, almost like he was trying to memorize all your features. 

You two were like this for more time than you wanted to. The joint was starting to run out and the tension was increasing. Finally, Connie spoke.

“Do you like me?” 

“Excuse me?”

You didn’t expect this, you were red and your eyes were big in surprise. Connie was always the funny one and seeing this side of him, more straight forward and serious made you like him even more. And yes, you did like him but how were you supposed to say that?

“Do… you like me?” He repeated the question looking directly at your eyes. You were still surprised but little by little you started to relax.

“What would happen if I said yes?”

Connie didn’t say anything more, he gave a few more puffs and he put out the joint. He looked at you and you could see that he was red. That gave you hope, what if he liked you too? 

“I… I mean…” he sighed, “you know…” He couldn’t speak. He thought that you didn’t like him at all and that you were starting to despise him, but he was wrong. 

“Connie, spit it out already.”

“I like you, I liked you for a long time now, what first started as a simple friendship grew more… I talked to Sasha about that and I was worried that you hated me for some reason and she, well, she said that it was better to talk because she didn’t think you hated me, and, this…” 

You didn’t recognize this Connie. He left his pride aside and confessed his feelings for you. It was adorable, you really liked him. A little smile was starting to grow on your lips. 

“I do like you… and it started the same way but I could never imagine that the feeling would be reciprocated.” 

At this point he couldn’t contain himself anymore. 

“Can I kiss you?” said Connie with the goofiest smile you saw on him today. You really liked this man. 

You nodded, Connie grabbed your face and kissed you. The kiss wasn’t rushed. You two were savoring each other for the first time and what you hoped not to be the last. His lips molded yours perfectly. You were the first to pressed your tongue against his lips, asking for permission which he gladly accepted. Your hand moved to his neck and the kiss started to deepen and get messier. He stopped for a moment and you two got up, making out on Historia’s (Ymir)  balcony. You couldn’t believe this was happening. 

Connie started to move his hands towards your hips and waist and you deepened the kiss even more. Your bodies were very close you could feel Connie’s dick getting bigger by the moment. You moaned into the kiss and he pulled you closer to him if that was even possible. He smiled a little while kissing you and you melted in that exact moment. He was so precious you wanted to die. You both separated a little. 

“Would you let me make you feel good, baby?”

Oh. my. God. Yes, you really wanted to. 

“Yes, Connie.” and you kissed him again like there’s no tomorrow. But then a thought crossed your mind. 

“This is Ymir’s bedroom, if she finds out she would kill us, literally.”

“Then we must be quiet, yes? If we don’t make noise, the others won’t find out.” 

That made sense at that moment, it was very risky but you two couldn’t wait any more.  

Connie led you in, closed the balcony door and pushed you against the bed. You fell down and Connie started to kiss you again. The kiss was heated like never before and it showed the urgency in your moans and whimpers. Connie got the hint and started to kiss your neck. He didn’t leave a place unexplored. He kissed the spot below your ear and started to suck there. You grabbed his head pushing him closer. His hands were going down your neck until they got below your t-shirt, teasing you. He started to make little circles with his thumbs in your hips and you bucked them onto him, urging him to make more than that. He knew you wanted him to go faster, but he wasn’t going to rush, he should because everyone was downstairs probably waiting for the both of you, but Connie nor you cared. He left a mark and then started to kiss your neck again. His tongue leaving shiny stains in your neck was driving you crazy. He was so close and at the same time so far away from where you wanted him. 

“Please” you were whinny in his ear and he growled at that tone. He wanted to make you scream, but that was for another moment, now he was going to make you feel so, so good. 

“What do you want?” His voice was muffled in your neck and his hands were traveling where your boobs were. He stopped right below your breasts and he looked at you. “Answer me, darling.” He was going to be the death of you. 

“Please, touch me.” 

He was satisfied with this answer but because he wanted to touch you too, he couldn’t wait more. He massaged your boobs, finding out that you didn’t have a bra. He pulled your t-shirt over them and started to pinch your perky nipples. His mouth was attached to one of them while his hand was providing you with more stimulation. You were not going to be left wanting for more. He gently bit your nipple and you left a moan. He changed positions and now he sucked on your other boob. His tongue was flicking your nipple and you were getting more soaked every second. You could be like this forever. After minutes of playing with your nipples, he left your t-shirt above your boobs, and he kissed his way down. He looked at you with his goofy smile and started to unbutton your trousers. You bucked your hips so he could take them easily and tossed them on the floor. His gaze was now fixated on your soaked thong. 

“Fuck, you’re a mess.” His voice dropped and his lust-blown pupils were more noticeable. You were looking at him in awe and with lust, you were going to explode. 

Connie caressed your lips above your thong feeling how wet you were. A wet spot could be seen in the center of it. He latched his lips above your underwear and licked a long stripe, from your entrance to your clit. You let out a whimper and he was determined to hear more. He made out with your clothed pussy and you grabbed his head and pushed him further onto you. You were letting the sweetest moans and he was going to cum in his pants just from smelling your scent and hearing you. 

“Fuck.” He was touching himself above his pants. He was leaking pre-cum at this point and his dick was harder than ever. 

He stopped making out with your clothed pussy and tossed your thong together with your trousers. The scent filled his nostrils and he almost went feral. You smelled so sweet he couldn’t wait to taste you properly. 

His tongue licked a long stripe, but this time it was at your bare pussy, from your entrance to your clit. Your taste heavy on his tongue, tangy and sweet. He moaned at the sensation and taste. 

“Aah, fuck, aaah.” You were so horny you were going to cum like this. Your pussy was fluttering from time to time, you wanted to be stuffed by his cock so bad you were going to cry. You needed to feel full. Your slick was going down your pretty thighs and he was not letting that go to waste, he licked them clean. He moved to your clit, giving wet kisses before sucking at it. Your hand was on your mouth because you couldn’t make any more noise or you were going to be discovered. Connie was dying to hear you but he knew he couldn’t risk it either. 

“Fill me up, please.” you moaned while saying it and he obliged. He took his middle and ring finger and started to circle your entrance. You were so wet he could’ve pushed his fingers without making any effort, but he wanted to tease you. While flicking your clit with his tongue, he pushed the two fingers inside you and you choked at the sensation. “Oh fuck, fuck.” That’s the only thing you could say, you were feeling so full just with his pretty long fingers. “You’re so fucking tight, I wish I could stuff you full of my dick.” 

Your eyes rolled to the back of your head and your mouth was agape. You were going to cum in his mouth and you couldn’t stop it. Connie was trying to get friction with his pants. He was rubbing his hips in the bed for more pleasure while whining in your pussy, and the vibrations went directly into your pussy. 

“I’m going to cum!” 

Connie kept the same speed with his fingers, doing the come here motion, flicking and occasionally sucking on your clit. Your high was fast approaching and you bucked your hips signaling how close you were. 

“Come on my mouth, now.” His voice horny and demanding, made you explode. The knot in your stomach was finally snapping and you came in a muffled cry. Your eyes shutted at the intense pleasure you were experiencing. His fingers were going slower and his licks were softer, he wanted to help you ride your orgasm. 

When he was sure you rode your orgasm, he took the fingers from inside you, gaining a hiss from your part, you felt so empty. He licked his fingers and moaned at the taste. He couldn’t get enough of you. You were looking so fucked up and he loved every second of it. He hovered over you and kissed you, deeply. You could taste yourself and you moaned in his mouth. His tongue was playing with yours and you both were getting horny again. 

“Fuck, how was it? Are you okay?” Said Connie. 

“I couldn't be better.” You said with a smile on your face. 

He kissed your forehead and went to the toilet to clean you. You couldn’t be happier, that’s true. You wanted to be with him. He came back and cleaned you with the only thing he could find. He dressed you back again and helped you out of the bed. You two stared at each other for a moment and then decided to go back, knowing that they might sense something going on between you two and Sasha was probably there already, which would be the start of a million questions.

Finally, the hour came faster than you thought and you dropped on the spot. Instructor Shadis was getting closer to you but you couldn't move. “I thought you would be better at this. It’s pathetic. However, I’ll let you go now. If tomorrow you’re still this useless soldier, good luck.” 

Oh god, everyone here was insufferable. Instructor Shadis was right though, you should be better at this, but now you couldn’t think about how to improve, you wanted to go to your room and eat everything in the kitchen. Now you did understand Sasha, this poor girl had to run HOURS until she almost dropped dead on her first day and then she went feral (more than usual) with food. 

You started to walk towards the kitchen, trying to sneak in. If you had bad luck and got lost in there before finding the kitchen, you were going to die, literally collapse there and die. But, you only had to follow the scent of food, and there you were, but the cooks were there too, and you didn’t know how to steal something there. Looking into a corner you saw that you could crawl there and take a look at the cabinet they had there and see if there was bread or something consistent. Crawling slowly, you got to where you needed the most, opened the cabinet and crawled back with one hand and with your mouth and other hand full of food. 

Standing outside, you sighed, the door was closed now and no one saw you there, that was the greatest victory of all time. Grabbing the food with both of your hands you were prepared to go to your room and eat all of this like the starved person you were, but of course, not everything was going to be great. And there stood Captain Levi, in all of his glory, with a raised brow looking directly at you. You sighed but you started to walk in your direction, and you didn’t know why, but he didn’t say anything. Your heart was beating faster than normal and you really didn’t want to piss off the Captain even more, you had enough with yesterday. 

The walk to your room was worse than you imagined. It seemed like everyone was inside doing nothing and just trying to catch you. Hange was just joking and talking with everyone, and all the veterans were there, in every corner, and if they saw you with all this food you were going to get in trouble. 

Finally, you arrived at your room, closed the door and slipped into the floor. You were too tired to get up, and decided that it was best to eat there and then, whatever you were going to do. This morning training was not the only one you had to endure for the day, because later you had to be with Hange for practice with the ODM gear, and you needed to be full (not too full though, or you would throw up). 

—

“YES! LIKE THIS!” Hange was so supportive and happy that you were grateful to be with them, doing this or whatever they wanted. You knew how to use the ODM gear, of course, but you only had killed one titan at a time and you were always in the wall, you didn’t try to swing in combat, to move around yes, but in combat was a different story. 

You were only swinging from tree to tree like a monkey, but it felt so good, so free… You liked this, you really liked this. Somewhere in your brain you were hoping to feel free of everything. Giving your life to save humanity wasn’t in your plans, but it was killing as many titans as you could, and studying them, something they never did, except for Hange. You were going to ask them if you could join their studying session, you didn’t know much but maybe you could help. 

You got this already, at least it feels like that. The next mission outside the walls didn’t have a date yet, but you suspected it was sooner than later. Maybe you could join them, you wanted to. This led you to their first expedition and how they died. They died following their friend on a mission, because they loved him, and now he was alone in a world where no one understood him like they did. And why should you care about him? You didn’t. Right? You did but just because you wanted to be with them, all of them. Right? 

Your string of thoughts was a little chaotic, you started to jump from memory to memory. 

—

It was night already, your day was very busy, intense and you hope to repeat it again, at least to do something. You wanted to talk with Commander Erwin to explain how you wanted to join Hange, they were enthusiastic to hear that someone wanted to join their study, but the Commander had to be aware of it. You decided to find him in his office and tell him. Opening the door of your room, you wandered a little bit in the corridors before finding the stairs that led to their offices. You heard footsteps but it wasn’t like you were doing anything wrong, so you ignored them. You started to walk in the corridor and saw Captain Levi himself walking towards you. He had a teacup in his hand and a raised brow, like usual. 

“What are you doing here?” He asked, sipping his tea, that he held in a very weird way. 

“I’m going to see Commander Erwin Smith.” you said, trying to sound polite. He shouldn’t care, and probably he didn’t but wanted to give you a hard time. 

“He’s not there. Whatever you want to comment on with him, you can do it with me too.”

Sure. 

“I just wanted to let him know what his position would be in me studying the titans with Section Commander Hange.” 

He raised the eyebrow even more, if that was possible. “What? Did four-eyes convince you or what?”

“What? No, I’m the one who asked them.”

You two were in silence for a couple of seconds before he decided to talk again. “Well, that’s new.” And then he sipped for his cup.

“Do you think the commander would approve of it?”

“I cannot give you the answer, because no one asks that.”

“You said I could ask you anything. And surely that means giving me an answer.”

He stood there, just looking at you, and from time to time he was sipping from his cup. “I would give you my permission depending on what you two are pretending to do.”

“Just follow Hange and do whatever they say.”

He scoffed. “Sure, you want yourself killed? They have more experience than you, and even with that we have to save their ass from time to time.”

“I think we are here to learn as much as we can about titans, and having only Section Commander Hange to do all the job doesn’t seem fair. In fact, are we here to save humanity right? Then let me contribute to it, Captain.” 

His stoic face was back again. He looked you dead in the eyes and told you “do whatever you want, but I warned you.” With a little scoff he left and you followed him, because there was no point in waiting for the Commander. 

He walked so fast, you always said that, but it was true, how could a short person like him walk this fast? The underground may have had something to do with it. At the bottom of the stairs, he went left and you went right, not knowing where you were going but it would be weird if you were still following him. 

“Where are you going?” Captain Levi asked with no passion in his pretty deep voice. PRETTY? Stop. Intrusive thoughts. 

“To my room.”

“That’s not the way.” He said it and he left again. Well, now you had to follow him again. 

You actually needed to go to have dinner, so you headed towards the dining room, at least you were not going to wander for a lot more. 

Arriving at the diner hall you saw that Jean and Eren were looking at one another with rage. Probably they were fighting before Captain Levi walked into there. Mikasa was eating in peace, talking with Armin, the little blond boy. Sasha and Connie were fighting for the food, because Sasha wanted all of his food, and he wouldn’t let her. They were so fun to be around, always lighting up the mood. You watched them tenderly and decided to eat with them and see if you were welcome. 

“Hi, can I sit here?” You said it with a little smile on your face and trying to seem friendly enough. 

Jean and Eren weren’t paying you attention, Mikasa only looked at you and nodded a little bit, and Sasha, Connie and Armin welcomed you. 

“Why were you with Captain Levi?” said Sasha with food on her mouth. 

The question didn’t faze you, but it started something inside you. And you didn’t know why. 

“I wasn’t, we just crossed paths.” You said, trying to downplay the issue. Would you want to be associated with the Captain? 

“He’s scary but I like him.” Connie said it with affection in his voice, as much affection as he could. And that didn’t surprise you, he was a respectable Captain and everyone could count on him. However, people respected him too much, he had a scary aura. 

“He is kind of scary, but he always gets the job done, I mean he is the captain after all and the commander trusts him, so we should too.” Said Armin with a shy voice and smile. He was so sweet you were wondering why he had chosen to be in the Survey Corps, or in the military in general. But you didn’t ask. 

The dinner was very pleasant, you were talking and sometimes even Mikasa joined. Eren and Jean were snapping at each other from time to time but they were part of the conversation too. You missed times like this, you never had too many friends but you had to admit that this was nice. 

After dinner, you went to your room, deciding if you wanted to go to the roof or not. You stood in your bed quite some time before deciding that you wanted to go. Fresh air was always a good thing. Doing what you already did, you opened the window and climbed up the pipes. Carefully you walked on the roof, going to the same place. You sit down, with both legs straight into the floor, and leaning with your arms. The sky was clear and all the stars could be seen. Sometimes you liked to imagine that they were shining just for you. You loved to observe the tiny little circles that brighten the sky and imagine what would it be out there, outside the walls and outside the sky. It made you tear up, knowing that maybe you’ll never know it, that you might die before that could happen. But you couldn’t allow that, you were going to discover it before it was too late, before you were dust and bones, before everything faded away, you were going to discover the world hidden outside those walls. And you were going to see it for them and for you, for your “friends”. Sadly they were just friends in your mind, but that didn’t make it less real, it hurt the same and you were going to give them the justice they deserved. You were going to go outside for them…

“I see.” 

You turned around to see Captain Levi in all its glory, looking at you from above. 

“Hello, Captain, couldn’t wait to join me?” you said without expression in your voice. 

He stood there, looking at the views the castle gave both of you. The views were amazing, you couldn’t stop looking at them altering them with the sky above you. It was just so big…

Captain Levi sat down beside you in silence, just admiring the night sky. For minutes you two didn’t speak a word, just enjoying the company, you supposed. You wanted to go to the nearest wall and observe the titans, but you were waiting for him to go. 

“I can feel the tension from here.” Said Captain Levi. 

“What tension?”

“The one you’re creating. Stop it.”

You tried to calm down but something inside you wanted to go to the wall right now, and you didn’t know how, because Captain Levi would put you in the dungeons. You should be there just by being on the roof at night and not being in your bedroom, you couldn’t rush anything. You looked at him sideways and he looked at you with a furrow between his thin brows. 

“What.”

“Nothing.” 

“Spit it out, you’re making me angry.”

“I didn’t do anything!” You protested, because it was true, you weren’t doing anything at all. 

“What the hell do you want?”

“For fucks sake…” You said it mumbling. “I just want to observe the titans, that’s all.” You said the last part aloud, you wanted him to finally let you be. 

“Tsk. Sure.”

You froze, what does he mean by “sure”? Was he implying that you could go or was he being ironic? 

“What do you mean?”

“If you want to go, let’s go.”

Both of you? He should’ve seen the confusion in your face so he continued. “Yes, both of us, I don’t trust you.”

That made sense, but he could’ve said no, and he would be in his room doing whatever that insomniac did. 

“Let’s go, then, I don’t know if this would be better for your curiosity or actually worse.”

You were over the moon, you were going to watch the titans again. It was just a few days since you enrolled in the Corps, but it felt like months. The sleeping titans would be probably below the wall, until sunrise when they would be awake again and ready to eat as many humans as they could before puking them in a gigantic ball of their limbs. Studying them with Hange would bring you so much joy. Yes, you wanted to kill them all, but in the meantime, why not dedicate your time to them? Hange is the one that understands you, two days with them and you knew you were going to be good friends, or at least that’s what you wanted. 

You both walked side to side until you could use the ODM gear, you were nervous because you wanted to give him a good impression. Yes, he did see you use the gear, but now that you were here, you didn’t want him to think that you were useless. How things change in a few days… At first you didn’t want to join and now you wanted to impress the Captain, and only in two days… 

You didn’t talk and he didn’t make the effort, it was comfortable. He was looking at you sideways from time to time and you did too. When you arrived at the wall, he climbed first and you followed him. It was noisy but there was no one to be seen. And what could they say? You were in the military, now you could do it without being questioned (even though no one did that to you before).

At the top of the wall, you two walked until you saw 3 titans below, sleeping in a seated position. Your eyes sparkled and Levi was looking at you a little bit surprised, because he had only seen that look in Hange. You looked at him asking for permission to stay there and sit down, he nodded and followed you. Your legs were hanging and you wiggled them from time to time, just watching, observing and having fun in your own way. 

“Ivy, huh?”

Levi’s voice was very deep and almost a whisper, but it startled you. It was obvious that maybe this little trip was for him, to know more about the new recruit. 

“Sounds good, doesn’t it?”

“Why, Ivy?”

You knew he wasn’t asking you about the name, but rather about why you were in the underground, what and why you were doing there. You didn’t answer right away. 

“Observing, I suppose.”

He was silent and you didn’t want to explain everything to him because maybe it was a stupid reason, but it was done and you were not going to regret anything you did. 

“I don’t know why you care.”

“Isabel knew you, right?”

Your heart skipped a beat again. Isabel. She was the only one that acknowledged you and was nice to you, even with just a smile. You missed her and you were starting to feel how your eyes were filling with tears. You scoffed and looked away for a few seconds before looking at him. He was looking at the front, not bothering to look at your direction. 

“Not exactly… she smiled at me, she recognized me but we never talked.” That hurt. You two never talked. She didn’t know you and you did know more about her and her life. 

“I see.” He didn’t say anything more, but this time he looked at you. He had sadness in his eyes for a second, before changing his expression into a neutral one again. You both looked at each other’s eyes. He was more handsome than normal below the moonlight. His pale skin was glowing, his grey eyes were shining and you wanted to kiss him. He never looked away, and you had to because your cheeks were red at this point. He was still looking at your side profile, and he didn’t look away this time either. Finally, after a minute or two, he looked back at the titans. 

“Why are you so interested in them?” 

“I don’t know, I’ve always liked them in a way. They’re so mysterious, no one knows anything but how to kill them and the history behind them is going to be the biggest discovery in the world.” You said with a glint of happiness and expectation in your voice. Captain Levi catched that tone and smiled in his interior. You were committed to their study and he admired that, he thought you were weird but intelligent. That could be considered a huge compliment for his part, but of course he would never say that to you or to anyone. 

“I have the feeling that I’ve known you for a long time.”

That wasn’t something that you expected to hear, but it was something that warmed up your heart. You had this feeling because you stalked him in a way, but he didn’t, right? Were you missing something or was it just a feeling that he had? 

“Were you stalking me?” 

“I didn’t say that, brat.” He said with a scoff. He loved doing that, didn’t he?

“I’ve known you for a long time, more or less.”

“You were not sneaky.”

“Well, most of the time I was.”

“Not with me.”

Not with me. No one ever saw you if you didn’t want to be seen, and if someone saw you, why remember you? You were just another “citizen” in the underground. 

“Why do you know my name?” you asked him, finally. 

“Isabel told me, she told me everything, and I told you, you were not sneaky, Ivy.”

You liked how your fake name sounded in his lips. You wanted to hear it again and again. Okay, you needed to stop now. You couldn’t have a crush on him, maybe you had before, but the feeling was gone, right? That’s what you wanted to think. You did know that he doesn't have crushes, he doesn’t fall in love, he’s Humanity’s Strongest Soldier after all. But you couldn’t deny your admiration for this little angry man. 

Your eyes met and you felt the time stop for a second. He was so beautiful, he almost looked angelical. His black hair was moving a little because of the breeze and you swore you had never seen something so beautiful. You sighed. 

“I think it’s time to go back.”

“Sure, Captain Levi.”

“When I’m not on duty, just call me Levi.”

“Sure, Levi.” You said with a little smile on your face. After all, he wasn’t that grumpy. You liked him a little more.

You both looked at each other for the last time tonight, and headed towards the headquarters again.

You started to think about Levi, your roommate… He was so hot you thought you couldn’t take it anymore. His penetrating gaze was too much to handle. Just thinking about him made you extremely horny. And what were you supposed to do? You grabbed the vibrator and the dildo you kept in the drawer in your nightstand. Just turning it on made you open your legs instinctively. Pavlov’s conditioning.

You started to undress yourself, getting rid of your comfy pyjamas to get completely naked in your bed. Your mind was starting to wander and you were no longer there in your room by yourself. Your hands started to stroke through your body, caressing yourself. You played with your hard nipples, and soon soft whimpers started to resonate through the room. You were pinching them harder this time and your legs opened like they had mind of their own. Soon, your hands started to go down on your body, finally arriving where you needed the most. With your index finger you started to circle your clit while still playing with your nipples. Your pussy clenched a couple of times signaling how ready you were. You grabbed your vibrator beside you and placed it in your clit. 

“Ah, fuck.” This and moans were the only sound that could be heard. You were so wet, ready to use your dildo. After circling your clit some more time, you grabbed the dildo and placed it between your legs, your leaking pussy clenching in anticipation. You kept the dildo at your entrance, edging yourself a little bit. With your arousal, it entered smoothly, but you were still too tight to bottom out yourself. Your moans were loud now, you were alone in your apartment, your dear Levi was nowhere to be seen. Your pussy started to clench while you fucked yourself with it and with the vibrator in your clit. Your head was thrown back, your eyes closed, mouth agape and your legs shaking. You were close.

 “Fuck! Levi, please more, more!” You were moaning loudly and without remorse, using your roommates name to get yourself off. You couldn’t imagine how fuck up you could get if it was Levi’s cock, and not a dildo. 

You didn’t notice, but at the other side of your door, Levi was listening to everything. Your moans and whimpers got him hard. Yes, he had learned to live with you and had started to have feelings towards you, and it was not the first time he heard you. However, this time it was different, you were moaning his name, and his name only. He felt bad for listening while you were in such a vulnerable state, but he started to palm himself through his clothes, he was very hard. He couldn’t stop imagining fucking you until you cried. 

“Oh fuck Levi, I’m going to cum, please!.”

That was it. He couldn’t stay at your door anymore. He opened the door and saw you spread out and with your head thrown back in a blissful state. You didn’t notice he was there until he spoke. “Dear, you could have told me to fuck you properly.” You opened your eyes and he saw the lustful state you were in. Levi grabbed the dildo and took it out of you while also taking your vibrator out of your hand. You whined at the emptiness and the lack of stimulation.

“Would you let me fuck you?” 

“Yes, Levi, please I can’t” you said with a high pitched voice. Levi couldn't say no to you. 

“If you need to stop, say it to me.”

You nodded and he started to kiss you. His mouth fitted perfectly against yours. First the kiss was kind of timid, you were savoring each other. You both needed to feel your mouths. Levi pressed his tongue on your lips, asking for your permission. You obliged. Your tongues were playing with each other and you couldn’t even think straight. The kiss started to get heated, you bucked your hips trying to get some friction. He was painfully hard. Levi separated himself from the kiss and started to kiss your neck, leaving love bits all across it. You moaned in his ear and he groaned, leaving a hickey. “Fuck, I waited so much for this moment you don’t have an idea how much you turn me on.” You moaned again at his words and he stuck two of his fingers in your mouth. You sucked at Levi’s fingers while grabbing his wrist as if you were sucking is dick, looking at him with innocent eyes and circling your tongue around them. He was looking at you in awe. While you were sucking his fingers off, Levi attached his mouth to your nipple. You moaned with his fingers in your mouth and he took them deeper until you were gagging. He started to circle your right nipple with his tongue, leaving bites occasionally. You started to pinch your left nipple, imitating what he did to the other. Your pussy was gushing with your arousal. He took the fingers out of you and started to kiss your body, going down. You couldn’t wait more, you were so horny you were going to explode.

“Levi, please” you said with a needy voice. “I know, you just have to wait a little bit more.” His tenderness made your pussy clench. Finally, he took one of his fingers and started to circle your needy clit while leaping at your juices with his tongue. Your moanings were music to his ears. He couldn’t get enough of you. Your hands were in his hair now, needing something to hold on into. You bucked your hips, but he pinned you down with one hand. He started to suck on your clit , harder each time. “Ah, mmmm!” 

“Say my name,” said he, demanding. “Levi, please, I wanna cum” your climax was approaching faster and faster. You almost came before him, and now that he was going down on you you were sure you couldn't hold it anymore. 

Levi continued licking your pussy like a starved man, not leaving a single drop of your fluids. With his ring and middle finger, he started to finger you while circling your clit with his tongue. “Oh god” it was too much, you were going to cum in his mouth. Levi started to make “come here” motions inside of your pussy while now sucking on your clit. 

“Now, come for me.” Levi said with his deep voice. And with this, you came hard on his mouth. He continued licking your clit taking you down from your orgasm, his fingers were still inside of you, feeling you clenching against them and wondering what he would feel if you did this on his cock. 

Separating himself from your pussy, he took his trousers and underwear off. His cock sprung free, hard and proud against his skin. You looked at his dick, it was long and big. A prominent vein ran across it and his tip was dark pink. You didn’t know if it would fit inside of you. 

“I’ll be gentle, I promise,” said Levi, reading your expression. He was on top of you, with one hand beside your head, and the other pumping with dick. He placed his dick at your entrance and looked at you. 

“Are you sure?” Levi’s voice was needy too. 

“Yes, Levi, please fuck me.”

And that was what took him to start to penetrate you. He was so big it was a little painful at first, but you loved the burning sensation of stretching your pussy. You both moaned at the same time. He stilled a couple of seconds inside you, getting used to the sensation of being inside his pretty roommate. You moved yourself trying to get it deeper and he obliged. He bottomed you out and you let out a loud moan. He started to move inside of you, and you were meeting his thrusts midway. He grabbed your legs and placed them in his hips. In this position he had one hand in your hip and the other in your throat.

“Mmm, fuck fuck, harder.” 

“Harder what?”

“Both, please.” Your eyes were at the back of your head and your mouth was agape, with your tongue out. 

“Keep your tongue like that, baby”

You did what he said and he spat in your mouth. “Swallow.” You did, again, what he told you and swallowed. “That’s my good girl.”

He never stopped pounding hard into you while choking you. You were in heaven. “Will you touch yourself for me?” Levi said, and you started to touch your clit, being closer and closer to your orgasm. 

“I’m gonna cum!” He started going faster, he too was approaching his orgasm. He placed both hands on your hips and fucked you even deeper. The sound of skin slapping was getting louder. His mouth was agape and his head was thrown back. Levi’s hair was sticking to his forehead, and he was even more gorgeous, if that was possible. You reached your mind blowing orgasm and started to spasm in his dick. Levi, in feeling how more wet and tight you had become he spilled his seed inside if you. He moaned and hissed from overstimulation. 

You both were panting looking into each other. He kissed you slowly this time, savoring every second he could, not letting you go until you were both out of air.

“Are you okay?” 

“Yes, are you?

“I couldn’t be better.”

He took his dick out of you and you hissed, you felt empty. Levi lay at your side and he hugged you closer to him. You both stayed there for a long time, getting used to being like this with each other. You had your head in his toned chest and you almost fell asleep listening to his heart. “Let me run a bath for the both of us, yes?” Levi said kissing your forehead and stroking your hair. You couldn't be happier. 

You were running, if you stopped you were going to get killed by whoever that was. The air couldn’t get in your lungs, it was painful, and you were about to pass out, but you couldn’t stop. Your lungs were burning. Scanning rapidly your surroundings you saw an alley and you got into it. You kept running until you faced a very tall wall. There was no escape. You were trapped and he was going to kill you. You always knew what could happen if you kept going to the underground, someday you were going to be discovered or you would get into trouble god knows when. You needed to think fast. Quickly, you turned around and found out that it was too late. He was walking slowly towards you with a knife in his hand and a nasty smile on his face. You were disgusted, enraged and very frightened. You were going to die. You were prepared for it. No, you were not going to die. You were not going to die like this. Searching in one of your pockets, you grabbed the knife you carried with you at all times. It was small but it could get the job done. 

“I’m going to fucking kill you, bitch.” Said the disgusting man with rage. He was scary but you couldn’t back up. You couldn’t go anywhere. With disposition you started to walk towards him, with a stoic face and attitude. You were fucking scared, you had never done that before, and it could be the last time. However, if you showed how terrified you were, you were going to lose. 

Grabbing the knife you started to run towards the man, screaming like mad. Your face and scream were filled with rage. You were determined to kill him. It was him or you. 

That man grabbed you by the throat and tried to stab you in the heart. However, by pure luck or because of destiny, you kicked him somewhere in the body and he let you go. You seized the knife with so much force you thought it was going to break, and stabbed his arm. He didn’t scream as much as you thought. He was looking at you with soulless eyes, but you didn’t back up. You stabbed him again, and this time you nailed the weapon in his neck. He stood still for a few seconds before he looked at you with panic in his eyes. You stared back at him with no emotion in your face, you were shocked. Again, you went to grab the knife and stabbed him again in the neck, he was going to die right there. The blood splashed a little to your clothes, you were lucky though because the blood was coming out of his body like you have never seen before. 

That fucker was dying in a pool of his own blood. You looked at him with more detail now that he was breathing his last breath. He was kind of old, fifty something sixty you thought. He had a long beard, rotten teeth and his face was covered in wrinkles. He was wearing a torn black hat and his clothes were dirty. You didn't know who he was, what you knew is that he would never abuse or kill women ever again. One fucker less in this world. 

The night sky was still dark but maybe it was time you drifted to bed. Tomorrow you wouldn’t have training yet, but you needed to rest. You stood up and as slowly and quietly as you could, you went down the pipes to your room. You didn’t keep the lights on and the room was very dark. 

You used to daydream with real memories. Maybe it was an obsession, who knows. The only two facts you knew is that you regretted not talking to them and that regretting something that cannot be changed is useless. Unless you do something to change that in the future, then you could learn something from that feeling. 

That memory of your first kill was not as overwhelming as you thought it would be. You made sure he was dead before leaving. And no, you didn’t regret killing him, because if you did you were failing all the women he abused and killed. You observed him for weeks after finally daring to do something about it. 

You sighed, and started to take off your clothes. The pyjamas they gave you were in your bed, clean and new, ready to use. Putting them on you noticed that they were very comfy and warm. You will thank them tomorrow. 

Now, in your bed, you were thinking about your day, or principally about your night. All the way from here, the Commander, the Section Commander and that little fucker, Captain Levi Ackerman. You laughed at the nickname but you knew what he was capable of, and he was scary.

—

The sun wasn’t even shining when someone knocked at your door. “Hello! It’s time to wake up. I will come here again in thirty minutes. Be sure to be ready!” You knew it was Hange, they were very energetic. You knew that well. Laying in your bed for two more minutes, you groaned and got up. 

You were alone in your bedroom but the showers and toilets were communal, so you grabbed your uniform and got to the showers to get a quick one. You preferred to shower at night. However, you couldn’t do it yesterday, so here you are, at whatever time it was getting your first shower being a soldier. 

Time passed by and you were already going to the dining room with Hange. They were very talkative at seven in the morning. “And then I flew through the air!” You laughed with them but you didn’t understand why they were laughing, they were crazy and didn’t see the risk anywhere, which made them dangerous. They were unique and you were thankful that they were talking to you as if they knew you forever. Nevertheless, you knew you had to gain everybody’s trust, you were new and didn’t have to go through the intense training they endured. 

Everyone was already there, they were eating and talking to each other. You knew some of them, your stalking abilities sometimes surprised you too. You knew who they were and how they acted. The names were the only thing you weren’t good at. Nothing without a solution. 

Section Commander Hange left you to get your food and you tried to find a quiet place to eat. A table was reserved to Commander Erwin Smith, Captain Levi Ackerman and Section Commander Hange. The others were filled with younger soldiers. You were sure you were the older of them all.

All the hall was looking at you, but they were trying not to get noticed. They failed miserably. You supposed they knew nothing about a new person joining the scouts. Ignoring the glances you sat down in the farest table you could. But before you could start to eat, a girl and a boy sat down with you. You looked at them and saw how young they were. 

“Hello, we didn’t know that there was a new Scout! My name’s Sasha Blouse.” She said it with a smile on her face while eating. She seemed nice. She had long brownish hair in a ponytail. At her side there was a boy with very short hair with a grin on his face. “My name’s Connie Springer. Nice to have you here.” You smiled at both of them “my name’s y/n. Nice to meet you, too.” 

The conversation was cut short when a taller guy approached all of you with another grin on his face. His name was Jean, and they were very close to each other. You looked at the three of them and remembered the other trio. Melancholy washed all over you but you didn’t want to seem disrespectful and continued talking to them. 

Finally, breakfast came to an end and all of you stood up. You had to stay in the dining room until all of them left, that was what Commander Erwin Smith told you yesterday. While you were waiting you grabbed your plates and left them on another table, as slowly as you could, gaining time. 

“Oi, come here.” Captain Levi’s voice resonated through the dining room. Commander Erwin and Section Commander Hange were there too. You approached the table looking at them while they were getting up. The Commander started to say “we don’t have enough time today to discuss your future here, but I’ll let Captain Levi talk to you for today. We will see each other again at night time.” And then the four of you went in different directions, you with Captain Levi and the Commander with the Section Commander.  

Captain Levi was walking in front of you not bothering to turn his head and see if you were following, like yesterday. You didn’t care, you were looking at your surroundings and trying to remember the way to their offices. The castle was so big you knew you were going to be lost a few times. The offices were somewhere on the last floor. Captain Levi’s room and office was at the end of the big corridor. With a key, he opened the door and invited you to enter his place. 

There was a big table in front of a large window, but the chair was not facing the window but at the door. You supposed it was because it was easier to see who enters, even though the views were astonishing. 

“Take a seat, Ivy.” 

Your heart skipped a beat. What? What did he say? Did you hear correctly? “Excuse me, Captain?”

“Don’t you use this innocent voice of yours.”

You didn’t know how to proceed, but you needed to say something. But how did he know that nickname? And were you getting horny? Oh no. That was not the time. 

“Take a seat, please.” He repeated the first sentence again. 

You obliged because what the fuck. Seated in front of him you felt small, he was not much bigger than you, but his gaze was imposing. After all, he was Captain Levi Ackerman, Humanity’s Strongest, and that title was there for a reason. 

“Are you going to tell me everything? Or do I have to coax it out of you?”

You stared at him with no expression, you couldn’t just say what you were doing years ago, right? What about the consequences? 

“Well, I see that you prefer me to tell Erwin everything I know about you.”

What? He was an asshole, that’s for sure, is he going to give you away? 

“No. Just…” You didn’t know what to say, that was not the plan. You were here because you killed titans and you were going to help them, not because you wanted to be interrogated. He was looking at you with one eyebrow raised, expecting you to say something. But you were not sure what he wanted to know.

“I don’t know what you want to know, Captain Levi.”

He was still with a stoic face, but he sighed and averted your eyes for a second “Tonight, at midnight, better be where you were yesterday. Don’t make me wait.” 

“Excuse me?”

“Are you going to be surprised by every word that I say?”

What the fuck. That was going to be harder than you thought. Years observing the survey corps and Captain Levi personally didn’t prepare you for a conversation with this man. To be fair, you knew how he was, but a conversation alone with him was a little bit scary. Everyone feared him, but you didn’t want that to define who he was. You wanted to know him better, observing him in the past was not enough. But, did he know about everything? 

“How did you know that name?” You asked him, avoiding the other question he asked you previously. 

“If you are going to ask stupid questions, maybe you’re not that intelligent.”

“As far as I know, that’s not a stupid question at all.”

“You may be sneaky with others, but you’re not sneaky with me. Did you really think I never saw you observing us? In the survey corps and in the underground? You better talk tonight if you don’t want me to tell Erwin everything I know about you. Now, you are going to meet with Hange at 3pm today, they will explain everything about titans to you. You’re dismissed.” 

You were still for a few seconds and then you walked towards the door and closed it behind you. Wow, what the fuck was that? Why did he change the subject as if it was not important? You didn’t understand anything. 

—

You were in your room again after the conversation with Captain Levi. Laying in the bed, you looked at the ceiling thinking about what would you tell him, were you going to explain everything to him? To which extent did he know everything about you? Probably, he didn’t know much. However, he was intelligent and was always on guard, but could you lie to him? You weren’t sure of it. 

You could afford staying in your bed for a few hours, but you decided it would be more useful if you got up and got to observe the training you had to endure tomorrow, supposedly. You went to the common bathrooms and splashed your face with water. You cleaned after the mess because god knows what could happen if the Captain saw it. You saw your reflection in the mirror and started to think what could be Captain Levi’s reaction tonight. You knew that he had blood on his hands, he should understand you. Yes, you needed to convince yourself that it was going to be okay. Everything would be understandable, right? In the worst case you could go to your old life, or could you? What if he turned yourself in? You forced yourself to stop, you should be fine. You shouldn't overthink this. 

Sighing deeply you turned around and started to walk towards the training site. The headquarters were so big you were praying to get used to them. Once you were outside you looked up at the sky, you loved the brightness today.  It was very peaceful, the headquarters were somewhat far from the villages and the scenery was bucolic. You knew well you were going to be there in your free time, just wondering the surrounding area. 

You didn’t need to know exactly where they were training, the ODM gear was reverberating in the surroundings. Following that sound you arrived at a cluster of trees and you saw the scouts, it seemed like they were flying from tree to tree at an inhuman velocity. They were amazing. You had the ODM gear and you knew how to use it, but you needed to work on it. 

Time was passing while you were watching them, you wanted to join but also knew that it would be hard to train, and if Captain Levi or Commander Erwin were there, the pressure would be too much. However, you were there to train and to sweat until you couldn’t anymore, and you were mentally prepared. After the risks in the underground, you were prepared for any kind of physical pressure. 

You didn’t want to disturb them, therefore you left before they could spot you watching them. The meeting with Hange would start soon and before that you should eat something, because if you knew something was that the meeting would last hours and hours. They were very passionate about titans and would never shut up. Luckily for you, you were very curious and were used to observing and listening for hours. Nothing you couldn’t handle, or that’s what you were telling yourself. 

—

After eating in the dining hall and talking with your new colleagues, Sasha and Connie, you prepared yourself for a very long reunion with Section Commander Hange. You stayed in your room for less that ten minutes when Hange themself knocked at your door. You opened the door and left with them to an empty room. Hange looked at you with crazy eyes before grabbing a chair and sitting right to your side. “You know, I appreciate that you wanted to know about my dear titans” they said with an enormous grin. “I joined the Scouts with rage filling my whole body about these creatures, and I thought I never wanted to do anything more than kill them, but when I kicked a titan’s head it was light as a feather…” They started telling you first their life story, and you were staring at them in awe, you didn’t know that they hated them before. No one could ever imagine that, because they loved them so much now that Commander Erwin Smith had to give them permission to study them. Humanity doesn’t know anything about titans and how they keep emerging, and you knew that Hange was giving their everything to understand them. And you were angry at the other military branches and even some of the Scouts, because they don’t give credit to their work, calling them “lunatic” and “insane.” 

The sun was setting outside and they were talking non-stop, eventually they asked you some questions like “what do you think about that” or “what do you think should be done in this case”, you appreciated being part of the conversation because you knew what happened to Eren the first time he and Hange spoke. Hange didn’t stop talking until the first hour in the morning and Eren hadn’t spoken at all. 

After hours of talking, someone knocked at the door. “Come in”, Hange said enthusiastically. Captain Levi was at the other side of the door and he entered.

 “Oi, four eyes, stop talking, you know what happened to Eren the first time, he wanted to die after the talk.”

“Oh, come on Levi, he had so much fun! As she is doing now, right?” Hange said, looking at you. 

“Of course, you really know about titans and if I have to fight them, at least I should study them. In fact, everyone should study them.” You said looking directly at Captain Levi’s eyes. And know that you look closely, they were a very light and beautiful shade of grey, nothing like you haven't seen before. You have observed him from so far away that you didn’t have the chance to just look at him. He was gorgeous. 

“Ts, it’s time to eat. Come on.” He got out of the room and closed the door. 

“You know”, Hange said thoughtfully, “maybe everybody should study them in depth, I will talk to Erwin and see what he thinks about this!” 

You didn’t know if you fuck it up or if it was a good idea, but they were very enthusiastic about this, maybe it would be good for all of Scouts to understand them and not only study the titans to kill them. It was just an idea that Hange loved too much. 

“Should we be going to eat, Section Commander Hange?” 

“Just call me Hange and yes I’m very hungry, talking ‘bout them makes me wanna eat everything I see.” 

Okay, maybe she was a little bit out of their rocket, but who were you to judge? You were spying some underground criminals for part of your life, and you didn’t even know why. Life choices, they said.

You two got up and went to eat dinner with the rest of the Scouts. You needed to be ready for midnight, but guessing the time it was probably too early to be worrying about that. When you arrived there, everyone was eating, you saw Sasha engulfing two pieces of bread at once while Connie was desperately trying to take one out of her mouth. And yes, that was Jean trying to fight with Eren. Mikasa was looking at them with a stoic face. You did know her name though, she was very beautiful, with jet black hair and a red scarf around her neck, and always by Eren’s side. Was she going to do something to protect him? 

The doors opened and everyone went quiet for a couple of seconds, while Captain Levi Ackerman walked towards his table. The shouting and talking restarted when he was seated down. And yes, Jean and Eren stopped fighting and Mikasa didn't have to do anything. 

You were sitting alone this time, you wanted to think about what to tell Captain Levi tonight. You were going to tell him everything he wanted to know, but he didn't have to know everything. You were quite nervous but nothing that wasn’t manageable. 

—

It was five to twelve and you were climbing up the pipes to be at the same place you were yesterday. Once you got up there, you walked slowly, you didn’t want to get caught. You sighed, and prepared yourself for the interrogation that would come up in any minute now. You sat down at the place you were yesterday, almost at the edge of the roof. You hugged your legs to your chest like last time, and then a voice appeared. 

“Can I sit down?”

“Sure.” You didn’t look at him, he didn’t deserve it. He didn’t give you any other option. And you never asked about his past life, why should he? 

You sat there in silence for some time, until he spoke again. “Are you going to tell me everything?” 

“I don’t think Commander Erwin Smith asked you about your life.” You said with irritation in your voice. 

Captain Levi didn’t respond immediately, he kept his eyes on the front. “Don’t you forget that I’m your Captain. I’m asking you nicely. You’re in the Scouts, or will be if we like you, stop acting like a brat and start talking.” He said it with determination and earnestness. 

It was not fair, not the way he got you here and not the manipulation he was using. What could you do? You resigned, just a little bit. 

“Ask away, I don’t know what to tell you.”You might be resigned to tell him some things, but you were not happy about it. 

“How did you get to the underground?”

“How do you know I’m not from there?”

“There’s no chance you are from there, believe me, you just know” said he with a scoff. Well, now that he knows you’re not from the underground, you needed to explain how you got there. 

“There was a staircase the first time that was not guarded, and I just got in there.” 

“Impossible.” Everyone knew that that was not possible, the mafia didn’t let that happen. He didn’t need to say anything else, that was absurd. 

“It’s true. I know you won’t believe me, but that is how I entered.”

“How many times?” You knew he didn’t believe you. 

“I don’t know, I entered when I needed to.”

“When I needed to? What were you there for, brat?” another scoff. 

What were you there for? That was a good question and you didn’t know how to answer. Were you there for a reason? Were you there because you wanted to die? To feel adrenaline? Maybe you had an answer to that, but you were not going to say it out loud. And you were not going to let him imagine the answer. 

“I was tired of being in my town.” What a stupid answer. 

“What a stupid reason.” Captain Levi didn't believe a word you said and you knew that, but you were grateful that he didn’t push further. 

“Yes, it is. Sometimes you don’t need to rationalise everything.”

“No one ever goes to the underground for pleasure. Why the fuck were you there? He asked again, and you were not going to answer. 

You looked at him and he looked at you, no one said anything. You looked at your front again, and you wish he could read your mind right now, because that was going to remain unanswered. You don’t know if he understood what you were saying without words, but he didn’t say anything else. 

“Tomorrow you’ll start the training. After having breakfast, instructor Shadis will be with you.” With that said, he stood up and left, leaving you alone in the night breeze.

You were scared, almost shitting your pants. You didn’t expect this place to be like this. Homeless people in every corner, people limping, fights and filth. You’ve never seen such a dirty place. 

Slowly but never stopping, you walked through the streets, never looking at anyone with your hoodie on. You were hundred per cent aware of your surroundings, otherwise you could probably die right there. 

“Stop!”

You didn’t stop. A man was running towards you, you moved aside and he passed by you, not even looking at your direction. After that man, another 2 passed by you running like hell. Again, you didn’t care. You had a mission and that was staying alive for at least 30 more minutes. Time was running by and you could get discovered by whoever lived there. Luckily for you, you didn’t look that good. 

Looking at your front you saw a staircase leading to a group of houses. They didn’t look that bad, you thought. Everyone warned the others that this place was a shittyhole filled with rats and with people that shouldn’t have any rights. That was too harsh, the people who lived there didn’t deserve this treatment. They didn’t choose to live there and have this life. However, most of the time there were, indeed, scum. You tried to set aside those thoughts and climbed the stairs. 

It seemed like nobody lived there. If they were inside they didn’t make any noise. At your left there was a door with a little window further away from you. At your right there was another door, you assumed it was another house. You knew you couldn’t stay there any longer because it wasn’t safe. With your hoodie still on, you climbed onto the wall next to you trying to reach higher. When you got there, you sighed. You had a vision of the whole city, almost at least. It was dark but some parts were illuminated with a warm light. People living there surely didn’t give a fuck if it was daytime or nighttime you supposed. The air was trapped there, it was stuffy and warm. You didn’t think you could get used to it. A little voice took you out of your thoughts. It was sweet but cheeky, in a good way. 

“I can’t believe we got him, aniki!”

Your lips curved into a little smile. That was sweet. 

“Ah, Isabel don’t make a fuss here, you know it.” Said a tall blonde guy with a happy voice. At least he looked tall in comparison. 

“Brat.” Said another guy. The word came out as harsh but with affection. He was way smaller than the other guy, that’s for sure. Short, dark hair with a handkerchief cleaning a little knife. You hid a little more and observed them. They climbed up the stairs and headed to their house, you supposed, the left one. 

You left the picture in your bed and headed towards your closet. You picked a jacket, your ODM gear and went to the little forest. 

It was better when you climbed up the wall, if they saw you (you thought it was impossible) it was as if they were looking at someone in the Garrison Regiment, sometimes they also wandered the walls at night. 

At the top of Wall Rose, you started to walk in the direction you were supposed to be heading tonight. The question that Captain Levi asked you yesterday resonated in your mind just a little bit. Were you supposed to say no? This little freak will come get you, you were sure of it. Probably the same as Commander Erwin Smith did with him. Ts, what a weird guy he was. 

The moon was shining and you could see the titans wandering on the other side, the side they stole from all of you. They looked brainless and funny. You didn’t know if it was good or not, but you didn’t fear them. 

“Ah, shit.” You tripped with the railways, luckily enough no one saw you and you didn’t fall. Lucky girl you were. Leaving this little incident aside, you drilled the grapples at the wall and started to descend. When you were on the ground, you walked for less than 5 minutes until you saw your little space again. You needed to admire it, because you would need to say goodbye to it for a while. The trees were tall and the lake seemed even more appealing than other nights. You sighed and again, someone interrupted you, like yesterday. 

“You didn’t leave much of a choice, did you?”

He kept still without taking his eyes off you. Not a single muscle moved. “You could choose not to join us.” And with this brilliant sentence he approached a little. 

“Well, not much of a choice.” You said without emotion in your voice. You didn’t want to stay your whole life inside the walls like a caged bird, therefore what other choice could have you made when he took your freedom like it was nothing? Did he feel this way when he joined the Scouts? You didn’t care that much. 

“I cannot say you made the right choice.”

“I know, no one can, can we?” You turned around to face him. Your face was emotionless, and if someone needed to make a say in it, maybe they could see a little bit of pain and anger.

Captain Levi was emotionless as well, as always. This was another mission he needed to complete. You stared at each other for a minute until he finally broke the silence. “Let’s go, then. Now, don’t regret the choice you’ve made.” You laughed a little, not because it was fun, but because who did he think he was? You let it slide because saying whatever was in your mind would make the matter worse. You resigned and started to follow him. 

—

The headquarters you guessed could be near Wall Maria for an easy escape. Luckily for you, they were. However, you needed to climb up the wall again to enter Karanes District. Wait, was it really Karanes? Whatever it was, you didn’t pay attention to it because it was not important. The old headquarters were in Wall Maria, but for obvious reasons they were compelled to move them. This one also was an old one, a big castle that was in the middle of another forest with nothing around, just trees. 

Captain Levi was ahead of you, guiding. He didn’t look back to see if you were following him, you stared at his back with a grim face, but you kept following him until you arrived at the entrance. 

The castle was kind of massive actually, ancient but it had its charm. You couldn’t complain. You could pretend you were a princess trapped in there, or a Victorian person that died there and wanted to avenge their death by hunting the castle at night. 

“Before entering, there are strict rules here.” Said Captain Levi with, again, no emotion. “Everything must be clean. Make time in your day for deep cleaning.”

What the fuck is this? So is he still a clean freak? This was going to be worse than expected. 

“Timetables are followed very strictly.” Great, jail it is. “For now, clean your shoes and then enter.”

You stared at him again with a grim face and then did what he told you. This was your decision after all, you needed to be obedient, you didn’t like it but… if it weren’t the consequences to your actions… After cleaning your shoes, you entered the castle, or the headquarters, and stayed in the entrance. Captain Levi was walking rather fast, you followed him like before. Actually, it was all pretty clean, and you assumed they didn’t hire cleaning staff, so… yeah, you would need to clean every day for the rest of your stay. It could be worse, right? 

If it wasn’t for the moon, it would be pitched black outside. Inside, they were torches in the wall, if they weren’t there it would be really scary, that’s for sure. The corridor was long and you didn’t know where you were heading. Could it be with Commander Erwin Smith? 

Captain Levi stopped in front of a big wooden door. He knocked twice and before entering he looked at you and said “stay here.” You did what you were told and observed how Captain Levi entered. Before he could close the door, you could peek a little inside. The room was considerable, to say an adjective. It was not an office, you thought. In the middle it was a huge table with chairs around it. Two people were talking and then you couldn’t see anymore because he closed the door. 

You stared at the door for a moment before looking around again. It was built on bricks but they were not an ugly colour. The torches really light up the place. The sound of the opening door scared you a little.

The door opened and you heard Levi’s voice telling you to enter. You obliged and entered the room. The room was well illuminated actually, better than the hallway. Commander Erwin Smith and Section Commander Hange Zoë. You had observed them from very close, fortunately without them knowing. As always, Section Commander had a smile in their face and Commander Erwin looked neutral. 

“Hello, y/n. Please, take a seat.” He was always so formal. You approached the table and sat in the nearest chair, in front of Commander Erwin. Section Commander Hange was on his side doing something, you didn’t know what it was. Captain Levi was behind the Commander, leaning against the wall with one leg against the wall and his arms crossed. He was looking at the ground. 

“I hope your way here was pleasant enough.” Erwin said with a smile on his face. You pursued your lips, because it was not bad at all but it wasn’t by all means pleasant. The Commander continued with his speech. “I want you to understand why we had to make this decision…” He continued telling you all about the government, everything Levi said but with much more kindness and with more detail. You did understand, however that was not your problem, but Captain Levi was crazy, you didn’t want to end up with mutilated hands or something like that. 

"What do you know about titans?" Section Commander Hange asked you, interrupting whatever Commander Erwin Smith was telling you. 

"Hange, don't start." Levi said with a little annoyance in his voice. "We don't have time for that." 

"Actually, I would love it if you could tell me everything you know about them." you said ignoring what Captain Levi just told them. 

Section Commander Hange’s face lit up in a way you thought was impossible. “Will you let me tell you everything I know about them? We’re going to have so much fun!” They said very loudly. 

“Next time, you should just shut up.” Said Captain Levi, “you don’t know what you have done.”

“Aw common Levi, she’s going to learn so much!” Section Commander Hange said in general with a gleam in their eyes. 

“Hange, please. I’ll let you explain everything to her in a minute.” Commander Erwin Smith said to Section Commander Hange, and after that he continued with his monologue. 

—

The moon was shining through your window. You have seen the moon shine uncountable times, but this time it seemed different, you didn’t know why though. This was a good time to reminisce, but you wanted to get out of your room, you were alone now but you always preferred to be outside. So, opening the window you took your head out of it and looked up. Maybe you could get out and climb with the pipes to the roof. Very carefully, without making any noise you put your right leg in the window sill and jumped, catching yourself before you fell. Now, standing in the sill, you climbed up the pipes towards the roof. 

Once up there you were trying to be very still, because you didn't want the others to hear you, and you obviously didn’t want Captain Levi to catch you. You saw a spot that wasn’t illuminated by the moon and sat down admiring the night sky. The breeze was not that cold, that was good. Something about doing that was calming, you could stay like this all night, just observing the calmness of the moment. You appreciated that because in the past, that was unconceivable, you observed but you had to be wary of your surroundings at every second if you didn’t want someone to stab you or kill you directly. The underground was a dark place… 

You heard footsteps and you immediately got your guard up again.

No one knew you were there, except for Them. More specifically, one of Them. She always smiled at your direction, but nothing more. You knew all about Them, however no one knew nothing about you. It was dangerous for you, you didn't belong there, and if someone found out, you will be in deep trouble.

—

You loved heights. Sitting at the edge of the wall you observed the vast landscape that was in front of you. The moon was shining too much, but it was almost impossible for someone to spot you up there.

At your feet there was a little forest, with tall trees and sleeping titans in the ground. You decided that was time to go down and observe them.

You jumped and with the ODM gear that you got, you aimed the grapple hooks at the wall. Slowly, you steadied yourself while looking in all directions, in case someone saw you. Luckily, no one was there, as always. Looking down, you spotted the 2 titans, they were sitting with their back on the trees and their heads looking up. Looking at them you jumped with your ODM gear at a tree. Should you kill them right now or should you observe? Curiosity got the best of you. Going down you put your feet into the titan's forehead. A smile creap to your lips as you started to humm in a low voice, sometimes you started to fantasize about them eating you while you less imagine, opening their smelly mouth and swallowing you whole. What would they have in their interior? Having the question in mind, you sliced the titan's nape as fast as you could and went to the other one, killing them both instantly.

Being as still as you could, you reached for some noise, but nothing came. Satisfied with your actions, you nailed the grapple hooks down into the tree and began to descend. If you were slow, the titan would evaporate and you would have risked your life for adrenaline and nothing more.

With the blades you had used moments before, you sliced the titan's belly open, but the steam made you jump into the wall again. It was too hot for you to stay there.

"Fuck. Not again."

Disappointed, you stayed on the wall for a few minutes. Sometimes it seemed like you were a little dense, of course steam would be dense and hot. The titans were evaporating and the Scouts or the Garrison Regiment will be there soon. It seems like they have nothing more to do. You were helping them in a way and they were not happy about it.

Taking your sweet time, you started your escape towards the inside of wall Rose.

You felt safe surrounded by these trees. You knew them for years now and you felt like they protected you, not from titans, but from people.

Inside wall Rose there were a handful of little forests, but this caught your eye. It was isolated with a beautiful little lake and green grass with flowers surrounding it. You need to go deep into it to see where you were. No one wanted to go to the depths of it, therefore you were safe there.

Before the fall of wall Maria, you had found your little own forest too, sadly it seems like you could never go back. Times when you used to climb up the wall and stare down to the titans like they were the most fascinating of things. Always at night thought, you couldn’t let yourself be caught. Sometimes you even went outside the walls, clinging to the trees below the wall and kill some titans at day time, when no one looked. Or that’s what you thought. Of course Humanity’s Strongest would catch you doing whatever you were doing. But he never said anything… yet.

You took your clothes off, folded them and put them near the shore. Stepping into the water, you saw the moonlight reflecting in the water. It always made you feel quiet and at peace.

Minutes passed by while you were swimming, diving and relaxing. You deserved it, after all, killing made you tired. A lot of physical energy was put into it.

Looking at the moon you felt mixed emotions. It was beautiful, however it exuded sadness as well. You couldn’t help but think about Them. You knew they were dead, not all of them, but still. This was not fair at all. What would have happened if you were part of Them too? Would you be happy? Would you be dead? Who knows… There is no point in thinking about that, they were gone and you were alone.

Time was passing by and you were drowning in your own feelings, they were so deep in you that it was too much to handle. However, you didn’t give them the credit they deserved, always trying to discard them, be brave, when you know you couldn’t do it anymore. A part of you was laughing at you and why? Because you never had a conversation with Them, and yet you yearned for Them with all your heart.

Time was running by and you decided it was about time to stop doing nothing and went home. Luckily, you lived alone, no one would notice that you went missing for some hours. But, of course, you had your shitty work and needed to be there if you wanted to keep your tiny house. Anyway, you dried yourself, put on your clothes and inserted the ODM gear inside a bag, not without taking one sword with you.

You stopped abruptly. You heard something and no animals were there. You grabbed your sword tightly and slowly you turned around as calmly as you could pretend. Turning around and looked directly at your front.

“Oi.”

What the fuck. You remained calm but you couldn't deny that you were shocked, why was he in front of you?

You stared at him for a long time and he looked pissed. Well, he always looked pissed to be honest.

“What’s your name?”

“y/n.”

Levi looked puzzled for less than a second and then stared at you with his usual stare. It was so minimal that you thought you had imagined it. You keep staring back at him with an interrogative expression because you didn’t know what all of this was about.

“Am I doing something wrong? I thought you would appreciate my work.” You said it with a little smile on your face, and Levi didn’t find this whole situation amusing. You were just killing titans, that was a good thing, right?

“I’m going to be very clear about that. You either stop or join us, you don’t have any more options.”

“Pardon me?”

“You heard me.”

“But why?” This was absurd.

“This is not a joke. You may be an aired brain girl, but in the real world that we live in, you are putting this job in danger. If the government discovers that there is a person doing their own thing, I don’t know what could happen. Choose, join us or I will take justice by my own hands.”

Aired brain girl and justice by his own hands? “What are you going to do?” You wish you didn’t sound scared, because that would give him even more power.

“I’ll take you to the Survey Corps and we will decide what to do with you.”

You stayed silent for a long time without even thinking. You didn’t have any more options? You were not ready to join them, not because you were afraid but because you didn’t want to die saving humanity, they didn’t deserve to be saved, not after what you saw. “After seeing everything humans can do, you still want to sacrifice yourself to save them?”

Levi looked at you without batting an eye. “I am doing what I need to do.”

“They don’t deserve to be saved.”

“Why are you doing it, then?”

You thought about it so many times, you had your reason but not because you wanted to save humanity. Yes, you wanted to save some people but nevertheless you were doing it for fun and because you wanted to prove yourself, you had nothing to lose. You were not making a difference by killing some titans and you knew it, but… would this answer be enough for Captain Levi?

“I like it, kind of.”

He didn’t look amused, you didn’t blame him though. “I will give you 24 hours. Tomorrow I want an answer. We will meet here. If you don’t appear I will find you, and it will be worse.”

And with this, he left, leaving you puzzled and with a decision to make.