no angels

cue a small sheepish chuckle leaving his lips as he looks over at the other male, brows raised. nonetheless, his eyes drifted towards the dead body laying on the floor, gulping. of course, he forgot. he forgets sometimes (or maybe he’s fed up with how he gets treated). “sorry, i’ll get that cleaned up,” he goes, automatically apologizing, as he always does.

landon sighs softly, nodding as he hears words coming out from the other’s mouth yet again, chewing on his lower lip as he mentally marks the days. “i understand.” he says, in reply as he wonders what else to say, besides the fact that he’s sorry. “er —- was there anything else?”

jonathan had to stop himself from rolling his eyes. “landon, i was only teasing. if we’re being honest i’m expecting you to keep track of that kind of thing.”

Matt raised his eyebrows as he heard that James had begun the work on his new novel. He had known that there was something in the works, but not any details, so to hear that he had begun work on it was fantastic. “Man, that’s great! You’ll have to keep me posted on its progress. We should be celebrating that right now, rather than talking about my shitty date.” he replied, smiling softly over at the other man. 

“no, no, we can celebrate the book when it’s done. let’s keep talking about your shitty date, please,” james chuckled, running a hand over his face. to be honest, the book was starting to wear him down mentally, and he saw this night as a much needed break spent with his favorite person. he peeked over at matt, gorgeous as ever with his piercing eyes and gentle smile. his hands itched to reach out and touch, but he kept them firmly at his side.

jonathan bit back a groan as he stepped in a puddle of sticky brown blood. it was the third one that day, and it was only 8 o'clock. "found another one," he absently called to his familiar. he was trying to be patient with the kid, really, but the gift of eternal life came with no small fee.

There was a pause from Matt when he heard the comment that James gave, though he brushed his curiosity aside. There wasn’t anything to the words, surely, and so he took another sip of his beer and nodded. “Yeah, you’re probably not, buddy. At least we can be mopey singles together now, huh?” he replied, chuckling softly. “So let’s move on from this talk, what’s been going on with you?”

“Oh, come on, man. Don’t sell yourself short.” Matt replied, not liking to hear that jokingly self-deprecating talk from James. “I’m sure that the right guy is out there somewhere for me… Just ain’t found him yet. Or maybe I have and I’m just blind as a bat.” Truth was, if he had a chance with James, he would jump at it, but this friendship was far too special for him to risk it all. He adored this man, and he wouldn’t want to lose that bond over stupid feelings. “You’re not a dick, I mean… I can be pretty mopey at times. But I appreciate that you don’t judge me for it.”

“yeah, maybe you have,” james said before he could stop himself. he didn’t want to sound bitter, given that there was nothing to be bitter about. matt couldn’t help his lack of feelings any more than james could help the presence of his own, and he hadn’t even made a real attempt to make those feelings known. however, this wasn’t supposed to be about james and his feelings, he was supposed to be here for matt.

"hey, it's not stupid. I know that feeling all too well, actually." the irony of the situation made james want to slam his head into a wall, but he resisted. he was here to help derek through his heartache, not to dwell on his own. running a hand through his hair, he sighed, "I mean, we want what we know we can't have, right? I'm, like, the king of that."

“i missed you.” jr murmurs against jonathan’s lips, his hands firmly planted on the other man’s waist, not pulling away despite his boyfriend’s words. “nobody’s gonna notice if you’re missing for a bit. just say you’re in a meeting.”

"okay - so maybe I do have feelings for you. but, that doesn't change anything. it doesn't mean we have to stop being friends or hanging out," elias sighed, his head hanging down in embarrassment. this kind of confrontation was exactly what he'd been trying to avoid, but he hadn't hidden his feelings well enough and now he was paying the price.