✿ ╱ CHERISH.

tws: mentions of eat!ng d!sorders, sexual!zation of a m!nor ( nothing in detail )

born in busan gyeonggi-do, south korea to an infamous director-actress couple ( adoptive mother a retired actress, now art director … plans to make her return & adoptive father is a notable film director ). ahyeon isn’t aware that she’s been adopted at birth.

a child who has always loved to sing and dance. there’s even a video she has shared from when she was two — she was babbling and dancing to a song playing.

her parents have always been supportive of her dreams, though her mother was wary about her only daughter wanting to enter the industry. took lots of talks before she reluctantly agreed to let ahyeon begin auditioning at the age of ten.

has always been an introverted kid. gentle. tends to be bright ( in the soft warmth of the sun kind of way ) when she’s around those she feels comfortable with — this remains true even now.

shines when she performs !! a girl that was born to be on stage, if you will.

joined infinite at the age of 12 ( 2015 ), first debuted in the group, dreamix ( a mixture of loona and iz*one ) after being a contestant on next! idol ( a survival show that is like if produce and gp 999 were to have a child ). she ranked number one.

EATING DISORDER MENTION. it was around this time ( once joining the show ) that ahyeon developed an eating disorder due to the expectations set on her by the show itself and the public eye of viewers / netizens / fans. END.

a year later the group was quickly halted from all activities due to an investigation of vote manipulation. the group only had three official comebacks before the news broke suddenly of the group’s disbandment.

ahyeon took it pretty hard to the point it had her questioning if she was really meant to do this at all. she also faced a lot of backlash when the scandal originally came out due to her initial ranking of the show. SEXUALIZATION MENTION. the most damaging aspect is when twisted netizens spread the rumor that she performed sexual acts to even get her high ranking. END. infinite tried to make quick work to clear up the accusations, but the damage was already done.

despite becoming a recluse and suffering from everything, ahyeon knew that her heart lied with her dream, and being an idol on stage was her dream.

her notable return trended when she was jooha’s partner for the love yourself: her reel in 2019. it was rumored that she would be one of the members of infinite’s newest upcoming girl group. netizens reactions were cold to lukewarm, though former dreamix fans were excited about her possible return to the stage.

during the era of ring x ring, ahyeon went on hiatus. it was shortly after the end of wa da da’s promotion period. the reason was due to her anxiety had spiraled to the point she couldn’t keep it under wraps as she had around staff, members, and fans. that and also to receive treatment for her eating disorder. yet, she later wound up performing for two comeback stages. again, most netizens weren’t sure how they felt about the unexpected return ( which was due to the company’s pressure ).

gained a positive reaction for her professionalism for almost running into a group member on stage during eleven ( 02:12 - 02:14 ).

netizens gave hate for her crying during the mama 2023 for crying during her speech once estella won the rookie of the year award.

has a love of writing lyrics, playing the piano, studio ghibli, early walks to watch the sunrise, going to art exhibits / museums, sitting in the park, doodling.

big soft spot for her members, old and current. considers most of them to be a few of her closest friends ( though she’d say that with any she’s distant with, too ).

shy nature makes it hard for her to make friends, but once you do, she gives so much love. her heart is too big for her body.

random aesthetics: rosy cheeks, smiles hidden behind hands, disappearing into your room, uncertain paths, not recognizing yourself in the mirror, fairy lights strung all over, putting others over yourself, soft neutrals and pinks with a touch of blue, idyllic dreams crushed like rose petals, being the shoulder for others to cry on, getting up early, only falling apart alone, being the person everyone else wants you to be ( becoming the ideal and losing yourself in the process ), losing track of time, always offering a helping hand, a little bit of sadness behind their eyes, natural makeup ( or none at all ), the smell of freshly baked cookies, a gentle mom-like friend, smell before the rain, handwritten letters, warm as the sun and burning bright as one, constantly saying sorry while repeating the same mistakes, soft sweaters, light academia, ribboned hair, always smelling like honey, sticky notes everywhere, a spring morning.