wanderlust

If ever you find yourself in a deep hole and feel like you are alone. You feel like everyone important has left you and broke you into pieces. You feel like being abandon by the same person, who you thought would fight for you until the end; remember, there are 7.53 billion people in the world and it can only take one person for you to forget every pain that the rest has left you with. Think positive, help yourself, be tough and wait for that someone cause it will be worth it.

I know that in time you’ll probably find someone new. I’ll try my best to be happy for you, even if it kills me piece by piece.

I don’t know if she’ll be better, she might be. Will she love you more than I love (i still do) you? I doubt it. But I guess she might be someone who can fight for you. I wasn’t that person; I didn’t fight for you. I was too scared and weak. I tried to solve the problem in a way that both of us could handle, at that moment. There are times that I think it was for the best.

Sometimes, I ask myself if everything was just a dream, that you were just a good dream that I happened to woke out of. But no, it was real. You were real.

As for me, I just have to deal with the consequences of my decision. I have to deal with the the fact that I sacrificed my happiness for something bigger.