petrichor

Took a step backwards and cried in my car after work but that’s ok bc not all days are going to feel strong and empowering….it’s ok to feel these emotions and let them happen when they do….I just miss you a lot and a part of me is still hoping we can go back to where we were before….

the tears and crying have faded but that overwhelming feeling of caring and missing you have not...i say im fine but am i really? i still want you so badly it hurts my heart so much...just maybe down the road you’ll change your mind and the timing works out for both of us and you already know id take it all back in a heartbeat because what we had was truly special and i’ll always have a space for you in my heart...so maybe just perhaps? 

you raised the bar so high and left such big shoes to fill, i worry for the next, whoever and whenever that may be. so thank you. 

cheers to us, what’s to come and what has happened. with the good happy times also comes the sad and painful ones, all emotions felt equally as strong.

i wish i had a reason to hate you but i can’t think of any and that makes getting over you that much harder

i have no hard feelings, nothing between us was wrong except for religion and it really sucks that that thing specifically has to be a deciding factor but also you aren’t looking for a relationship right now which i respect. just 2 things not aligned between us and it’s enough for something so strong and passionate to end...people enter each other’s lives for a reason, but not all are meant to stay, some just come and go and it hurts like hell but how am i supposed to grow if i don’t feel the pain first. i can’t love if i can’t tolerate the pain. 

and once again I am starting a new chapter of this crazy ride called life. my heart aches so hard it physically hurts and engulfs me. i haven’t felt this type of way in a few years and it pains me so much but just like everything else time will continue on and these strong emotions will slowly fade into the background and all that will be left will be memories of the good times.

Haven’t cried in months, now I find myself crying every two weeks or when I’m alone with my thoughts for too long…hit an all time low tearing up while on my break at work…It’s never going to get easier and my heart aches so much with what’s to come and I desperately don’t want it to happen but I’m only in charge of myself, my thoughts and and my emotions.

Is right person, wrong time still the wrong person?

I forgot about this account lol maybe I’ll start posting again when my thoughts are getting too loud.