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Behind the scenes of “Besos En Cualquier Horario” 

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To be happy... To be happy when all that’s in the way is you. How many times did you try to get rid of you? How many times did you fail? • These past 2 years I truly forgot what it meant to be happy. It didn’t seem like an option and it definitely stopped being a priority. Ignoring momentarily the huge problem that it’s been a fad not to be happy for a while now. I too had renounced happiness and chosen to drown it in my vices (which i mistakenly called ‘coping mechanisms’ in order to feel better about myself). Ending up on trains, boats and airplanes that each took me further from myself. My grasp on my academic career slipped, my grasp on my artistic career began to slip and I woke up months later, in an home I didnt recognize, looking at people I didnt know, and all i felt was sorry. Sorry for whatever I might have done and sorry for those suddenly in my life who I imagine hated me as much I hated me. Each day that the fog would fade, I became anxious about retrieving my essence. Nothing grows in the dark , or at least I sure didn't. I crumbled... cussing and sticking my tongue out at everything, I had the audacity to believe the world had cheated me. Can you believe that? healthy, with a roof over my head, warm food, family and friends.. I had the balls to feel unfortunate. HA! I didnt think iId come back to school, I didn't think I’d create anymore... not music , not images, not film and not writing. I thought it was all over because it was. I turned my back on everything. Today I look back proudly. It’s taken me months to teach myself how to live again. I'm full of gratitude for all who offered a hand and a shoulder unconditional love and support is more gift than i know what to do with. This smile is all of you. Let’s fucking go. Midterms this week and new york I'll see you this weekend ! Excited to stop hiding all these projects but I won’t keep getting your hopes up till I'm literally about to share. I'm sorry, I HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY PLS DON'T HATE ME! 📸: claytoncubitt

Ph. by Mat Abad

Ph. by Mat Abad

Ph. by Mat Abad

Ph. by Mat Abad

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