Yeah I know, my speech totally sucked that day. What was I even saying. Jesus Christ am I ever sorry that you had to listen to that nonsense. This is the much better crafted version that you deserve:
My journey with you began 10 months ago when I was quite literally a miserable human being who was dissatisfied with her career and desperately needed a change. At my lowest, I felt worthless and unaccomplished, which gave me severe anxiety at night as I struggled to find meaning and purpose in my life. Those days seemed to crawl by with no end in sight and they were by no means easy but in a way it motivated me to seek a change. And without a warning, you came into my life. I didn’t know at that very moment when I signed, that you would be the very thing that would turn my life around. That being said, the 10 months that I spent with you was not always sunshine and happiness, it might also have been the longest and most difficult 10 months I have ever experienced. You don’t know this but when you let me in, I was this shy and insecure human being who did not believe she had a single thing to offer the world. I did not have a lot of confidence when I met you and so I desperately wanted to prove myself to you, that you did not make a mistake taking me in, that I was who I said I would be. So I pounced on every single opportunity (no matter how uncomfortable) that flew my way to showcase my strengths and it worked! You liked me, a lot. And I like you too (sometimes). But because I wanted to impress you so much, I continued to put myself out there and the accumulation of these experiences gradually shaped my confidence over time. I was no longer that girl who didn’t believe in herself. You cast a spotlight on me and applauded endlessly, I took a bow and let out a huge sigh of relief. I was finally at ease with myself. You’ll never know now, but I have never felt more valued and appreciated than in the last 10 months with you. I felt like, finally I was doing something right.
As much as I do not want to admit this, I want you to know that you have had a huge impact on me, personally and professionally. You made me feel comfortable with people and I was able to form important connections as a result. You encouraged me to show my personality and sense of humor that I have only really reserved for friends and family. You let me be vulnerable from meeting and subsequently saying goodbye to the people I have met. And while I hated you for constantly throwing me in tough situations, I’m grateful that it has taught me to stand my ground and for myself. You have given me a million reasons to continue on with this journey, but I hope you will forgive me for finding my way and taking the courage to inch toward my goals, and that means leaving you.
While this may seem like the end between you and I, it isn’t, it’s never the end. Life is funny that way. Let’s do each other a favor and continue to work on ourselves and our aspirations.
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