it doesn't matter.

that you broke

inside of me.

It takes time

and sometimes I cut myself

on the edges -

but I am healing.

Slowly.

You said that I was the only one you put effort in

that I know you will be

just so I can get another hit

I will start anew

and complete my journey

just for a little while

Cause when I shared my happiness before

make me want to trip and fall.

You gave me a blue rose.

An overpriced one

that some vendor sold us

while we waited for dinner.

Just some flower,

but the fact that you did that

with that look in your eyes...

I don't think I can stop myself

Hey, can I fall for you?

You told me you liked me and that you wanted to try...

Can I believe you?

You make me feel so safe and accepted...

Can I trust you not to break me?

that is what I get from you.

I smile

and act like I am fine

but the moment I feel safe

I crumble down

tears streaming down my face

because I had to be so strong

and happy

while you were there

that I just can't pretend

the moment I finally relax

with people

who actually care

She knows.

All the ups and downs,

She knows.

I told her every little thing

but don't worry

I am not as malicious as you once were

even though I told her your flaws,

I talked about your virtues too.

I am not as petty

to ruin your chances

just because you broke me

for some stupid reason

your eyes almost never leaving me

even followed me into the cold water

and used it as an excuse to hold me close

You looked at me

and held me close

whispering you missed me and kissing me sweetly

You looked at me