sweet, like honey

Hearing him ask the question as to why she was here, the answer was simple. She had come to the event to get away from her problems, but she had really come here to support Remington. After all, aside from Frankie & Michael, Remington was the only other ranger she knew here in Elisabeth. Things being rocky between them however,. she truly wasn't sure why she was here. "I'm um., I'm here supporting some friends. I usually skip out on these things, or try to steal the alcohol and then go home, but not tonight." Lucy said as she folded her arms across her chest. Taking a deep breath, the shenanigans she and Rem had caused at the last couple of events, it was surprising that they were never caught. "Oh, so it was a women who you threw liquor on?' She questioned, smiling wide and now more curious for this story "What did she do to you?" Lucy probably should just drop it, but this was the most interesting thing she has heard all night. Taking a sip of her alcohol now, the women held onto her cup and then finally sat down on the stool. "Let's hope I'm not the one to cause drama, but with the shit I've been going through lately, I can't promise anything." Lucy scrunched her nose, and then let her hands fall after she placed the drink on the table. Watching the lights go out, the women looked up and then rolled her eyes "Well this is interesting." It was as if someone heard him and did it on q. 

She needed him, she needed him in her life and the thought of loosing him completely scared her. He was her best friend, he was the one who made her laugh, the one to make her smile. The one who made her feel safe. Had Lucy fallen completely in love with him when she wasn't supposed too? Yes. However, the blonde didn't regret it and she didn't regret telling him either. Sure, the women wished he would have said something different, wished he had felt the same but if he truly didn't then the thirty-two year old would just have to get over it. Right now it was hard, of course it was hard, the way he looked at her, the way he was looking at her right now made her stomach flutter and her heart race. This was their bar. They met met here, had their first kiss here and Lucy oh so wished she could just rewind and start things over with him. Looking at him, she took a deep breath and then took a sip of her beer. It was almost empty, and the women truly should stop drowning her feelings, but it was helping. "Well generators always run out.., so if you need..." Stopping herself, the women couldn't go there. Not just yet, she couldn't invite him to come and stay at her place no matter how badly she wanted to. Finally finishing her beer, Lucy sat there and thought about the first time they had met here, the first time they kissed. It feels like a life time ago but it wasn't. The women swallowed hard and then laughed a little "We won't. This is our place Rem.. and if I'm remembering correctly, we had our first kiss a couple stools down." Shaking her head, Lucy continued with “However, I am claiming the food store.” Lucy joked again and then looked at him “I miss you” She whispered under her breath, hoping he wouldn't hear her due to the loud music in the background. 

"That is 100% true." Lucy said smiling at him, all teenagers were lazy and sure the women was lazy but Lucy was also exhausted when she was a teen. Dance lessons non stop, on top of that the thirty-two year old tried to excel at school and everything else, the women back then was a busy bee. It was how she liked it though, and coming from the Baker family that was a way of life. "I am, yes! Brake the rules every once in a while dude." Lucy said smiling again and then took a sip of her water. She folded her arms across her chest and then laughed "I promise you, you won't regret it!" She told him and then watched as he almost begged for a slider and Lucy smiled bigger "See! There you go." Laughing a little, she nodded "That's what people tell me."

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Lucy needed a girls night, the women hasn't had one in what feels like forever. Sure she caught up with almost everyone during the event but for some reason that wasn't enough. Dealing with her own shit, it wasn't easy being alone but the blonde was lucky to have some close friends in town. These past couple of weeks have been mentally and emotionally draining for the thirty-two year old, and she really just wanted to enjoy herself tonight. However, the Chicago native decided to invite Mia over to catch up. Sitting on her couch, and eating some Chinese food the blood heard her door bell rang "Come in, it's open!" She shouted and took a bite of her food. Placing it down on the table, Lucy played with her hair “I bought us Chinese food, figured you'd be hungry.”  @miarockefeller​

Hearing Michael explain to her what the word friend zone actually meant, the blonde looked at him. She knew what it mean, the women just sometimes wished she hadn't put Mick in it. However, putting Mick in the friend zone was the best thing she's ever done. Over the time he's truly become her best friend and she was forever grateful for it. Sure their few dates were grate, but this was better. Getting lost within her thoughts, she laughed a little "Ouch.., I'm kind of sad to know that you weren't sulking about me." Lucy teased and then continued to listen and nodded her head. "True, but I also dumped you because you wouldn't let me change the curtains or give you some decorating tips. That place could've given me the big bucks dude." She joked and then looked at him, dating Mick seemed like a life time ago when it really wasn't. Laying down on the couch still, she took a minute to breathe and collect herself. As he heard her say she didn't run very far, she knew he was talking about him and her but the blonde couldn't help add in another joke "Dude.. I'm from Chicago. I'd like to say I ran pretty far." Raising her eyebrows for a moment, Lucy licked her lips and got comfortable. She figured she'd be with him for a while, talking about what had happened and she hated doing this to him, really. "Mick.." Lucy started and then felt herself get all choked up. Not even realizing he had gotten her a cup of water, Lucy took it and took a sip and then held it tightly in her hands "I told him I was in love with him. It didn't really go that well. I fucked it up again, like I always do. He told me I couldn't be be in love with him and that I shouldn't be. That I deserve better.. but I dont want anyone else Mick. He's.., I'm in love with him. I want everything with him."

This could end right here. All the pain that she caused could end right here, but Lucy was in no mood for crying or yelling tonight. She did enough of that with him over the past weekend. Sure the women wanted things to go back to normal with him, and she was trying to give him the space he needed but it looked like that wasn't happening. It wasn't like she planned this, meeting him here. This is where she would come after a long day at work. She should really start spending those moments at home, away from everyone. She told him she was in love with him, and he told her not to be. Lucy tried to wrap her head around everything they said to one another, and it was killing her. This was killing her. She could do it though, she could pretend like she never said anything. As the bar tender handed her another beer, Lucy thanked him and then took a deep breath. Her heart tightened and Lucy swallowed har, but then played with the wrapping of the bottle again to distract her from her thoughts. Hearing his voice, and now looking at him Lucy formed a small smiled. She didn't know what to say, she was trying to think. "Mmhmm.." Taking a sip of her beer again, Lucy swallowed hard "How are you holding up, without power and everything.." The thirty two year old looked at him, she looked at him and then took one more swing at her alcohol “This is the place where we first met.. of course its big enough for the two of us..” Lucy whispered, she tried to say it like a joke, she would always try to joke in awkward situations

The hangover was going to be a bitch, that's for sure. Lucy knew that if she drank too much she'd be sick the next day. She always regretted drinking. Taking another shot of alcohol, Lucy laughed a little and nodded her head in agreement "I'm kind of mentally drained from crying. I'm over it. Just need this to drown everything out.." Lucy said and took one more shot. "How many shots have you taken already?' She questioned the brunette, curious now.

 "Not sure if I would call myself a life savor, but I'll take the compliment." Lucy said laughing a little and then nodded her head "You're welcome." It was freezing outside, and she watched as his fingers touched the lighter. The smell of smoke used to reek on Lucy's clothes back when she was in college, and whenever she'd return home to Chicago her mother would yell at her for it. The habit had become a bad one and Lucy was glad she was able to quit. Getting lost within her thoughts, the blonde looked up at him "My ex boyfriend cheated on me.." She laughed, but she was being honest. Smoking was something she did in the past. "He was the one who got me into smoking, and he was the one who made me hate smoking." Taking a breath, she let the cold air hit her "It sounds stupid, but every time I think I want a cigarette, I think of him."