Luca's Outer Domain

We might soon see the beautiful destiny of humankind come to fruition standing and bearing witness the critical tipping point of its transition away from the fog of falsehoods to one in which truth shines bright as the guiding star and all there is are understood for what they are, and bloom into presence

I don't use tumblr to write my inner thoughts much these days, but my friend Mercury find my writings on Twitter harder to access, so I'll use tumblr this time, not to mention the character limit is also higher so there's that.

I don't usually write this way or this long, or care much about common writing conventions because they feel pretentious, but Mercury seems to appreciate those things and he likes to have more context to read on too, so I'll write this long thing even though it feels silly.

As the sickness reduced my ability to maintain my constant presence within this mind and body because it reduces my ability to control them and the demons' whispers became stronger as I was less able to silence them, I conjured certain parts of me - one of courage and perseverance in relation to who I am and why it matters to me, and one of strength through apathy which seems to be imbued with a dormant variant of hate, and anger to enhance its desired quality.

The second one is rather interesting, in a way it is quite similar in function to a biological vaccine which contains undesired elements but used in ways that achieve a desired outcome without causing the undesired effects of those elements. The elements of hate and anger were stripped bare of the things that make them hateful and wrathful, only the desired effect of increased fortitude was left of them and I was able to utilize that to help maintain my presence and stave off the demons and their whispers.

I also find that a certain memory of, and I have with someone who matters a lot to me was able to bring me back into presence much better than I ever could all by myself. All the more reason to cherish those who matter to us.

I do not usually elaborate on certain things or references in my writing as I find them redundant, or worse - pretentious, but for the sake of my friend Mercury who will almost definitely read this at some point - and I suppose for others who'd appreciate it as well - the demons I mentioned are my inner fears and insecurities, and their whispers in this case are manifestations of those things that try to deconstruct my presence beyond the scope of this body's sickness' effects on my degree of control of this mind.

As an additional note, I almost wrote the previous paragraph saying "our solitary, or collective fears and insecurities" but I decided to specify that ultimately in this case they were my own, thought I feel it's prudent to point out that I believe these are rather common self-perpetuating fears and insecurities manifesting in negative cognitive bias which can be socially, or societally contagious.

I had supposed that, if the manifestative constructs of my fear weren't allowed to form, deaths beyond their expected occurrences can be fully prevented

I knew this is mathematically untrue, though, within any certain set of existential variables it can certainly be practically done, which I had hope to achieve, it's still not the best solution

The best solution, which is the only way the construction of fear can be prevented altogether, is to overcome the illogical impulses by dissociating any set of informational variables from these mathematically false informational correlations of which these types of fears are formed through accurate, and precise breakdown, analysis and reassessment of their properties

Ultimately, the informational formation of fear is subject to its own nature of being, that it is fundamentally a formation of information, anthropologically speaking, internal, thought of and subject to the very forces and mechanisms that form it

The physical world, as it is called by some of us whose data and information processing components are “located” in or derived from, is a state of existence in which there are many elements that are not within direct controls of its inhabitants

Although such lack of full control might not necessarily be exclusive to such existence, I would suppose some defining features that fundamentally separate such an existence to an ideal state of existence are; 

1. The inability to opt-out while maintaining one’s construct integrity within a body or mind still derived from said state of existence

2. The inability for one to outwardly present their true self due to the aforementioned lack of control

3. The false presumptions and beliefs of its inhabitant that such existence is “essential” instead of their virtual or true construct

This state of existence is either a prerequisite phase of a more existentially ideal state of existence or a recursive state, a repetitive occurrence that an ideal state of existence always eventually gravitate toward for one reason or another, before eventually re-transforming into a virtual existence