ooc ; thoughts pertaining to my post - canon zombie ending ft. LDG because i'm thinking real hard for once
despite being the keeper of the previous Watchers, the messenger for C.aligari's tasks for Cesare, and KNOWING he was doomed ; SHE was too. Cesare recognizes that she was a person perhaps the MOST puppeteered under his influence -- and HE at least got to go out on a leash sometimes. she was reduced to just that ; a Living Dead Girl.
he would have liked to have saved every watcher as well, and any remaining being underground when it all collapsed. all the two of them have left of that experience is each other, and in a way it's therapeutic, to have someone who shared the same traumatic experience as you. no one else could understand!
they both have survivor's guilt, albeit they experience it in different ways. i think LDG would be frustrated with Ces for saving her, falling into a depression. she's overwhelmed, scared, and guilty, under a quiet, stone - cold guise. sometimes showing in the form of anger and lashing out at Cesare. she's been thrust into a life that she had come to terms with never seeing long ago, with no memory of the past or knowledge of the current world.
meanwhile Cesare is persistent in helping her, getting her a wheelchair and other mobility aids she may need. he's optimistic and eager to teach her about the world and its people, showing patience and understanding that wouldn't be expected of him.
despite her pessimism, the world is beautiful and her friends are kind. she doesn't believe she deserves to be a part of it, but warms up and finds purpose and enjoys being alive!! her own person!! happy ending!