Retired Loverboy

I always ask myself why I hate surprises then I realize I always plan my own birthday or special occasion for myself. I don’t expect people to do it for me, not anymore. I don’t expect gifts because it makes me realize that person knows nothing about me from the gift they chosen. My parents always say “ I gave you the money, go buy whatever you want” it wasn’t large amounts and I wasn’t expecting for more. Sometimes I just want a small simple gift. That would be a lot more meaningful. I finally found someone who makes my day with little. She didn’t love me with her money but she love me with her time. Yet I let that go

Everyday, I find more reasons to hate myself

I’m no better than most people who I judged

My gm just sold me out just to kiss my boss ass

She kisses me to stop me from snoring at night 🌻

Oh god one of these days those bitches gonna catch my punch. Bitch you lucky my anger issues is not acting up

Have you ever wanted something so badly and keep chasing it your entire life? just to realize I’m happier alone