Live & Love

WRONG. NO ONE is allowed to dislike bucky barnes.

“... both movies are about the loss of identity and denial of reality and what happens when we lie and refuse to accept the truth.”

“Yes”

summary: Bucky needed someone to get him through a particularly hard night. Now, he isn’t sure he can handle being alone again.

warnings: angst!! fluff, a bit of violence, hurt and broken Bucky :(

words: 4.8k

a/n: I don’t know what this is or why I wrote it idk I was going to add smut but maybe part 2 ;;;) listen I just want to hold bucky and make him better

The first time Bucky had a nightmare after you’d moved to his floor, it wasn’t you who went to him, but the other way around.

You’d heard the yell, the quiet sobbing. You were awake but frozen, not sure if Bucky would want you to comfort him when he was like this. You’d seen him snap at Steve before, when he’d tell Bucky that it was normal not to remember something or that no one expected him to be okay all the time.

I don’t want your fucking pity, Steve. From you, or any of you. Why does everyone keep looking at me? Enjoying the show?

It wasn’t his fault, and if it was you, you’d probably feel the same. With all that fear and anger and sudden freedom, came a lot of shame and guilt. You wouldn’t blame him for wanting to push through his nightmares alone, too.

But not long after the cries woke you up, you heard a knock on your door, slowly opening. He heard your heart rate, knew you were awake.

“Can I sleep here?” he asked quietly, voice rough from sleep and so broken that you felt your own heart break. You opened your mouth to speak, but not before he finished with a devastating whisper of “Please? I really can’t be alone right now.”