louie

Now, however, I'm finally at a point of the year where I get a bit of a break from things for a bit. It has definitely been a bit stressful, though this type of stress almost feels small in comparison to some of my other experiences. I'm incredibly happy to be doing what I'm doing, but at the same time, everything has felt a bit too still, as if I haven't been doing enough even if I am technically working hard.

Part of me wants to argue that it's just that I was used to how my life was before. I still keep up hours with the freight, though the number has dropped quite a bit, and as a result I haven't been off planet nearly as much, which has helped me have a lot more time with my family, sure, but...

Life has been predictable. It's been normal. I should be happy for that, grateful even, but I'm not sure that's the case.