itsmelouella

itsmelouella turned 13 today!

I don't know why I always feel confused. If this person can give me a better future. I know he has responsibilities for their family but what will happen if he gets married? He will financially support both his own family and his parents?

What if your partner cannot satisfy you? Is is a big factor or not?

Why some people have the guts to ask other people for some gifts? But the thought that they cannot give you a gift on your birthday.

Until now, I’m still looking for the answers.

I’m getting bored with my life. I want to travel, do the things I love to do and many more. But the problem is I don’t have money.

#5Feb2021

I don’t know why I can’t still move on to the guy who just left me without explanation. I tried to ask him why but he just told me nothing. If there’s no problem why he acted like that. Of course, there’s a problem but he cannot tell me. I just keep on thinking maybe the problem is me. But can he tell me straight to my face rather than telling me there’s no problem at all.

I can tell here whatever I want including my hatred to other people. What I feel and what’s inside my heart and mind.

When we are still young. My sister and I cried at night because we are afraid if we can pass the entrance exam in a private school. Both of us studied in a public school since we are in elementary. And we thought if we can survive to go to private school because we think all are so smart that we can’t surpass in the entrance examination. Thank God! We are abled to study from HS to College in a private school.

I still want to have my own kids and a husband too.

Hope someday, I will be a strong woman who will not cry for some petty things or cry over someone.

Can’t even talk to my own sisters.😢😢😢

10. Accepting his/her apology even it hurts.

Scared that they will tell me things which will hurt me more.