Lost Is Alive.

I started classes again. It’s SO much science. This nutrition (RDN) program is no joke. It’s dense. It’s tough. So here’s some potatoes. Potatoes are simple. We need to balance the intensities of life with the simplicities. I love potatoes. Okay, bye 😁 🥔. https://www.instagram.com/p/BtMR8gzh-CS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=62dp3bilqvvd

Just eat ya greens. Eat em. Do it for your blood. Do it for your liver. Do it whatever way works for you. Do it in a smoothie, do it in a salad, do it sautéed or steamed. Don’t think too much about it. Just eat ya greens. Thank you for listening to my psa. https://www.instagram.com/p/BsgZ6nSAi2X/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1jo9njug5rcp0

I was recently talking to a friend, @just_eat_nature about the ‘spiritual ego’. To sum it up, the part of us that forces spirituality to maybe elevate us above the population. Included in this is situations like forcing meditation or yoga on a daily basis b/c not doing so would lead to guilt on the self. For example, if before I go to bed I tell myself I will do yoga tomorrow and meditate for at least 5 minutes but then wake up the next day and cant bring myself to the mat. What I start telling myself from that point on are very negative things about myself and guilt sets in that I’m 1. Not taking care of myself. 2. A fake. 3. Not ‘strong willed’. It felt very relieving to talk to someone about this cause I’ve never related to anyone about it before. We have both, with the new year energy, realized this is hindering growth so much and accomplishing the complete opposite as to what healing habits are capable of. Forcing these things as well as many other aspects of life is just plain unnecessary and creates a negative karmic cycle that feels good for no one. However, with the release of that control and settling of this ego..it comes so much more naturally. It lets our heart decide what we want to do and creates a beautiful harmony. Flowing, not forcing. https://www.instagram.com/p/BsTb2IiAIdg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=u1b83gx9qd1j

*rare photo of account holder* (at Bearfort Mountain) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsKKa8sgbFF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=tabj10tbkzn1

WORKIN ON IT 😁!! Anyone else? https://www.instagram.com/p/BsJQMxxAa3g/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1mm4q4ssbw621

I like to pack lunch. I also like to pack lunch and then choose take-out instead anyway. No one is perfect but I try. This is my favorite harissa lentils (which is on my feed way to many times) carrots, hummus and veggie chips. Simple. Covers all the bases. I do prefer celery tho versus carrots (wow I’m a bunny 🐰). https://www.instagram.com/p/Br9regjgj8s/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1o9pgp7u8mkmy

Maybe it’s that simple ⭐️. https://www.instagram.com/p/Br9qaegA8gI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ift9wgyzb7ym

Wish I took a better pic but I only had a few seconds before @oh.boja, @sweetpotanana and I annihilated this box of vegan donuts from @dunwelldoughnuts. ‘‘Twas a great way to end the semester. Oh and p.s they are all delicious but pistachio is god, always ⭐️. (at Dun-Well Doughnuts) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrmXh7ugodr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=170v7gf1daar0

These past 2 weeks have been absolutely one of the most stressful emotionally. I’ve got to admit that I’ve fallen off with my mindfulness practices like yoga and meditation and my herbs that help keep my anxiety in check. More importantly I stopped being grateful. And BOY is it showing up rn. December always feels like a shit show but I see the pattern and I want to break it. Everything culminates in December. Whether we like it or not the last month of the year is a time of heightened emotion, colder weather and darker days. I had my last final yesterday. I failed both tbh and I’m okay with it. I still did well in my classes overall 🙏🏻. My first semester back @ 25 yrs old has been one that has taught me a lot of life lessons. Schooling is the equivalent of your brain having a full time job with overtime every week. Now if you’re like me, where my brain is already on hyper-speed with my emotions, then it’s a perfect recipe to lose your damn mind if you don’t balance your life out. I almost lost my mind..almost. Expect a blog post on how I survived, before Xmas. I miss writing. Oh and stay grateful friends, for the love in your life, the trees outside, the animals and the luxuries we all have if you are cabals of reading this. Happy holidays 🌞. https://www.instagram.com/p/BrmO_hAgAVc/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=khumq7hargpo

I love this color. The color of hibiscus 🌺 is so beautiful. I made this mask by pulverizing dried hibiscus and mixing that with ginger powder and bentonite clay. Also, if you haven’t used a paint brush 🎨 to put your face mask on you MUST. It feels a lot more bougie but gentle af. https://www.instagram.com/p/BrOOxz4g1Lk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vc5uqhs5xati

I’m dealing with being back in school as a 25 year old and investing in myself, while dealing with the conflict in my mind of sometimes wanting to only live in the present, do yoga, smoke weed and live in the forest forever. Is it a conflict though? Where is the happy medium? I’m trying my best to find it. When we see the atrocities that happen on a daily basis in our world it’s hard to find the importance of investing in ourselves. Why eat healthy if sugary fried foods give you joy in the moment? Why invest your time studying for a test when you could be creating art? Why look at the future when it’s not promised? I know I certainly don’t know the answers but I do know that on every other side of ‘you can die tomorrow so fuck it’ is ‘you can live another 60 years and you’ll be grateful you cared’. It’s finding the magic of enjoying the investing. It’s about investing just enough care but not too much so you can still feel alive day to day. Maybe it’s about mixing equal parts freedom and self discipline but making sure not to neglect either. Finding the beauty and synchronicities that happen when you take care of yourself, others and the world no matter what path you decide to flow in is what I personally believe helps create the magic. How do you find the balance between investing for the ‘future’ while staying sane in the present? https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq5zSTKAdNj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=qud5mpdnrv9e

Repost/Throwback to when I made this bomb hummus. Recipe on my website, link in zee bio 🐯. _____________________________________________ 🤜🏻🤛🏻 Killed it on the hummus game last night. Not only is this hummus filled with anti-inflammatory turmeric and helpful ginger for digestion it is also...wait for it...wait for it... drum 🥁 roll... PROBIOTIC whaaat?! You heard me. This hummus contains chickpea miso, adding a fermented component to this yellow ray of sunshine ☀️adds some luvin to the gut flora, oh yeah 😎. But seriously, you need to make this. I feel like it can go with a variety of dishes from Asian to Mediterranean. https://www.instagram.com/p/BquC9NogoYx/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1b5y3kzrykqib

Just because someone else can juggle 10 things at once doesn’t mean you have to! That person you might admire who can do this might be slowly burning out, extremely unhappy or simply fine, but that doesn’t mean YOU must be able to do it all at once. We are brainwashed (ESPECIALLY as New Yorkers) that we must do it all! Go to work, go to school, workout, cook, clean, socialize, start a business, spend time with family, travel, take care of the kids (if they exist) and THEN take care of yourself all at the same time. It’s a recipe for disaster and adrenal fatigue. Take your time. Go slow. Enjoy the journey. Take care of yourself. Take time for yourself. Make sure you still get to do the things that feed your personal joy. https://www.instagram.com/p/BqM2JCWgjgk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1wo1lu0bx1p1v

2 of the best in the game 🧞‍♀️. https://www.instagram.com/p/BqMGfSbgIDP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7mhpadx432sg

It took me a long time to feel at home in my body. I still struggle (thank you mass media images and expectations being thrown at us since birth 🙂) but I’ve come a long way. I’ll never be tall, I’ll never be very thin...unless I wear 6in heels everyday and never enjoy food again 😐. It’s possible to shape yourself into what you’ve been brainwashed to think is beautiful...but is it worth it? What about finding peace and comfort in the beautiful vessel you have now and just taking care of it, nourishing it, letting it be your own. I believe our bodies are just our earth vessels and nothing really more than that. Respecting it enough to nurture it is important and a huge form of self love but hating it because it’s not ‘doing what you want it to do’ is just a miserable way of living. Feeding your body that kind of negative energy SUCKS. It’s doing exactly what it’s meant to be doing...keeping you alive!When I finally become an RDN I am excited to create a business that isn’t focused on skinny people wanting to lose more weight or find the exact precise diet to do so. I want to create a business that is focused on NURTURING and LEARNING your unique beautiful body and letting it BE without a toxic relationship with food ♥️. https://www.instagram.com/p/BqDlU56AtlW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s13mqnbozvlk

Pomegranate is such a good source of anti-oxidants. The combination of pomegranate and cacao nibs on oats is one of my favorites. However, my all time favorite way to consume pomegranate...Brussels Sprouts. What’s your favorite way to eat pomegranate ? https://www.instagram.com/p/BqAngLBgSZ7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ufz8ig4e3fz1

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