Watashi o mitsukete

Ever since i can remember, I've always loved celebrating my birthday. Even though i dont really like the attention focusing on me but deep down i always loved receiving and reading birthday greetings from my family and friends. But I guess my birthday this year is gonna be different. Its the first time im worried and the first time i really dont want to have a birthday. Cause here at home, there's like an elephant in the room and i feel like my birthday is just going to be another burden. No plans are made and if ever there is, it feels like we will just celebrate just because. And then even though its almost 2 am now while I am typing this, my inbox is so quiet. I usually get greetings on the first few minutes after midnight but only just one greeted me today. Someone who really waited for midnight to come so she can greet me before going to bed.

the month just shifted to august, and the first thing i did was cry...