i have 15 years’ worth of outstanding library fines in three separate cities and it’s my hope that eventually a bounty hunter librarian will come to collect and we’ll get in a bar fight and fall in love
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Oops I painted another picture of Hyde..... for real, this started as just a side project to use up this giant cheap canvas I’ve had in my office forever while the other painting was drying... so of course it ended up being my favorite, haha.
Quarantine has made it difficult to be creative, but one of the upsides has been rediscovering my favorite musician from my teenage years, Hyde. It seemed fitting to paint him, given it was his music that made me want to paint again.
This one was much more difficult than I expected it to be, mostly because it’s WEIRD and melodramatic. The music video always makes me laugh because it’s just so over the top. Why does Hyde’s hair look so greasy?? What is Ken even wearing??
I’m thinking about moving these to a side blog so I don’t keep flooding my poor followers with songs, haha. Until I get around to that, here’s Milky Way, circa 1998.
The night is raining stars, and I want to see you
So without waiting for dawn, I slip out into the streets
You’re under the moonlight… even now
(Days) Those days when we walked happily together
(Maze) Seemed to go on forever
Why are you wandering lost, deep in your eyes?
Look, if you open the door to your heart, I can meet you
Back in that place, I promised you, I wouldn’t give up
This overflowing emotion wouldn’t be swept away by the wind
Beneath the downpour of stars, we embraced…. The two of us
(Lies) I don’t understand how those days became lies
(Eyes) I just close my eyes and escape into my memories, but…
But even here, I wouldn’t change a single thing
Really, the thing I loved wasn’t the past, but the shining future
I hesitated a little, and the wind began
To sweep away this overflowing emotion
This time, I won’t lose my way
The night is raining stars, and I want to see you
So without waiting for dawn, I slip out into the streets
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I wonder if they realized, when they released this song back in 1994, that they would end up playing it at nearly every show they did for the rest of their lives? At least, it certainly seems this way. I still love it after hearing it ten thousand times, and hopefully they’re not sick of playing it. Also, gotta say, 1994 Hyde is SO my aesthetic.
(Why is this video subbed in Spanish?? Because this is the only one I could find easily.)
Wrapped in a distant wind
I can’t put together words that will reach you, but
You’re still gazing somewhere out the window
I keep having this foreboding feeling
If only those days hadn’t …
Like a caged bird, your vacant eyes
Are moved by the afternoon sun
As if the light is calling you outside
I keep having this foreboding feeling
If only those days hadn’t clouded over
As time goes around
Our promises seem to be stolen away
Even though I reach out to you with both hands
Your heart drifts…
(Why do you stare at the sky with your blurry eyes?)
As time goes around
Our promises seem to be stolen away
Even though I reach out to you with both hands
Your heart drifts…
As time goes around
My dear, you just…
You look back at me with a little sigh in your eyes
This one gave me a headache and I still don’t think I got all of it quite right, but I did my best. Any kind of punctuation would have helped. That said, there’s a line in the song, 「信じる道へ」, that I THINK is maybe what the title is meant to be haha. It’s kind of a weird phrase because what kind of sentence just ends on へ like that, but I’ve translated it as “on the path of my beliefs,” so at least it looks as awkward in English as it does in Japanese.
((And a note- again, my Japanese is still VERY poor, and Japanese grammar is confusing, so be gentle))
To break it down, it’s composed of [ 信じる] + [道] + [ へ], or [shinjiru] + [michi] + [e]. “Shinjiru” means, literally, “to believe,” but in -ru form up against a noun, it acts more like an adjective. “Michi” is path/way/road (literal or figurative, like in english), and “e” is kind of like “to” or “towards” but vaguer and comes after whatever the destination word. So... “towards the believing-road,” or “on the path of my beliefs.”
Now, why do I think that’s what the title of the song was meant to be? Because if you translate it directly to English with no regard for grammar- and he may have done that before*... it COULD be “believing my way” and I don’t think it’s a leap to think he might have somehow gotten from “believing/believing in” to “good luck.” BUT! Who knows! He could have genuinely meant it as an imperative- “wish me good luck on my way!” The world may never know.
*Referring to a line in “I Wish” where he wrote “Ring bell through the window.” That, too, sounds like a weird command- “open that window and ring that bell dammit!!” But, if you wrote "ring bell” word for word in Japanese... it’s 鳴る鐘, which is more like “the bells are ringing” (again, “[to] ring” describes the bell[s] here, it isn’t a command). And in Japanese, word order is pretty flexible as long as the particles are correct- if he wanted to say “you can hear the bells ringing through your window”- especially if he wanted to emphasize that he was talking about the bells and not the window- that could easily be something like 鳴る鐘は窓から. Ringing bells from the window. Ring bell through the window. This ALSO makes more sense in the context of the song, where he describes the listener as being alone in their room listening to the ringing bells and music at midnight of the new year.
ANYWAY HERE’S THE ACTUAL TRANSLATION I DIDN’T MEAN TO WRITE A BOOK ABOUT IT
Don’t wake me from this dream, not yet, not yet
There’s something down this road, isn’t there?
The answer is surely, surely here
So I won’t give up, I won’t stop
But it’s like being dragged by my hair after even a little ways
I want to stay beside that gentle smile, but…
I take off running, and the clear blue sky is radiant
The wind pushes me on, and I start a new journey
So that I can see you again, I’ll head towards tomorrow without looking back
[Good luck my way] On the path of my beliefs
If I visit here and there without rushing, it seems,
I won’t break through, I won’t find the answer
Surely, surely I have no regrets
To see you laugh again, I’ll keep moving forward
Look, there’s nothing to fear, no matter what happens tomorrow,
I can overcome it. Even if I fall, I’ve made it this far.
I was happy to see you in a corner of this changing world,
But I couldn’t put this overflowing feeling into words
When we meet again, will I be able to tell you?
[Good luck my way] Smile at me
I take off running, and the clear blue sky is radiant
The wind pushes me on, and I start a new journey
So that I can see you again, I’ll head towards tomorrow without looking back
[Good luck my way smile at me]
I was happy to see you in a corner of this changing world,
But I couldn’t put this overflowing feeling into words
Not L’Arc, but L’Arc adjacent. This one was kind of awkward to translate because he uses so many commands and I just couldn’t make it sound natural in English haha, oh well. Translation under the cut!!
WARNING: there are some strobe light effects in the video!!
I woke up after a dream
Welcome to the end of a world of lies
I look up at the heavens, burning down slowly but surely
Let’s be revived in the grasping radiance
This longing is gaining speed. My prayers, lead me
Fly away, my prayers, to the other side of the sun
That promised smile
I took the long way to the room where you were waiting
Like just barely being embraced by the grim reaper
My burned out soul is also out of chances, but
This longing is gaining speed. My prayers, lead me
Keep flying, my prayers, to the other side of the sun
Believe me, it’s almost over
I’m going to your side
I woke up
[Won’t trust no one again]
I woke up
[Lead me to your side]
This longing is gaining speed. My prayers, lead me
Fly away, my prayers, to the other side of the sun
This is another classic from 1998! I don’t have much else to say about it, other than that the PV has peak levels of Hyde cuteness. Sadly the PV isn’t on youtube, but you can watch it here. Translation under the cut!!
“Spread your wings now.”
Someone whispered
“Let’s fly from the borderline at your feet.”
Back to back with freedom
“Because these rusted chains
Couldn’t hold us from the start”
In my heart, in my heart, I’m getting closer to the sky
I want to dive into that deep blue color
Wearing the endless night sky wherever we go,
Let’s search for a new world
I want to see you and I can’t see you and I’m wavering uncertainly, but
These wings, now awoken, won’t be erased
There is no right answer
God only knows what lies down this branching path
Accelerating to an unstoppable speed
I’ll remember that this pulse is beating loudly
Everything is falling away, but
You, at least, please don’t grow up
Led by a nostalgic light
You gently wave your hand
Even the future we knew breaks away
Let’s imagine shattering the illusions
Let’s cut our predetermined fate to pieces
And slip away into the sky
Even now, even now, I’m remembering
Watching the sunrise as a child
Wearing the endless night sky wherever we go,
Let’s search for a new world
I want to see you and I can’t see you and I’m wavering uncertainly, but
This is another favorite of mine, and comparatively new, as it was released on their album Kiss back in 2007. Truthfully I’ve tried to translate this song before but found the sentence structure to be far too difficult. I think I had much better luck this time, which is exciting!
Translation under the cut!!
In this moment where nothing changes, it’s good if time passes, isn’t it?
I don’t notice. I try everything, even freedom.
It probably comes for everything.
Even if I abandon myself to the maze
The nearly vanished landscape has already taught me
It’s all connected, right?
[Make or break, make amends, and then it’s all gone]
The answer that fell from the sky was an hourglass. Miracles don’t happen, but…
As the suffering comes to an end, I just look away.
I just wish for happiness, but I’m inviting tragedy
A smile exchanged for grief
My stolen peace is just a fake paradise
Like a hypocrite
[Hold your breath, hold your peace, it’s time to make or break]
To protect my loved one, I’m hurting someone else
I made a mistake. If no one notices, will it all be forgiven?
Until god’s judgement, the answer is the hourglass pouring into my palms
From the beginning, if I had understood my bottomless lust for everything I touched,
I would not have lost it all to this unending cycle of sorrow.
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I would describe L’Arc’s hallmark as “super happy sounding songs with depressing lyrics,” and this song epitomizes that perfectly. Apparently a friend of the band’s died in an accident right before this show, so that’s what Hyde is talking about before the song starts. (I am VERY bad at understanding spoken Japanese so I’m going off other people’s comments there). Honestly I can’t imagine trying to perform this song right after the death of a friend...
Translation under the cut.
We met for the first time by the park, do you remember?
The morning sun looked brilliant, and you were out for a walk
My breath stopped as the moment passed… I raised my voice
It was pointless to try, the ghost was already gone
Truthfully (don’t cry), I was thinking that I wanted to stay by your side (don’t cry) a little longer
Color spilled over the path, painting over it…. it was completely magic, wasn’t it?
I didn’t like the humidity, but it didn’t matter
You made a face, but it turned out well, didn’t it?
Look, (don’t cry) a new world is waiting for you (don’t cry), so don’t hang your head
Your smile (don’t cry) is more wonderful than anyone’s (don’t cry), so don’t forget that, okay?
I give a little wave at your back and softly say goodbye
It’s frightening to be apart, isn’t it? But you know,
Everyone will surely fall in love with your magic
You walked forward (don’t cry) and that brilliant season (don’t cry) surrounded you
Truthfully (don’t cry), I was thinking that I wanted to stay by your side (don’t cry) a little longer
I give a little wave at your back and softly say goodbye
So that you don’t look back, in a quiet voice, I say good
Kaze no Yukue [Where the Wind Goes] - L’Arc~en~Ciel (English)
Today’s song translation is an OLD one, but again, it’s one of my faves. It was released in 1994, but they still play it every once in a great while. Here’s a performance from 2012, which might honestly be better than the original album version. =) Truthfully, the lyrics are simplistic and a bit cliche, but Hyde’s voice carries so much emotion that it’s easy to overlook that.
Translation under the cut!!
Invited by the bright sky,
I opened the window a little on my day off.
The wind reached me as I rested my chin in my hands.
I wonder who it will visit next?
Every day rushes past busily.
Today is just a little bit slower.
I picked up a book in boredom, and what fell out
Was a smile that has long since stopped
A vivid memory of you is revived.
I will wait by the windowsill for the next breeze.
Don’t leave me. I want to stay by your side.
Your trembling voice resounds through my body,
And I can’t breathe.
Will those tears ever end?
A vivid memory of you is revived.
At the end of that long summer, you looked at me,
Crying like a lost child, and I...
It hurts, and I want to hold you close.
What is this feeling?
I won’t bother you anymore, so don’t leave from this room.
The obvious follow up to translating Wild Flower was to translate one of my all-time favorite songs, Flower. This one is an oldie (1996!!) but a goodie!
Translation under the cut!!
So, I realized in the afternoon light, I am still sleeping.
I don’t understand why the scene never goes the way I want.
Because I can’t see you again today, I’ll close my eyes in my bed,
And I’ll be fascinated by the you in my dreams until the morning after next.
Your smile always makes me tremble,
And I want to bloom as intensely as the sun.
My heart hurts and hurts like it’s about to break,
So if this feeling is unrequited, at least let it wither away!
I can’t laugh anymore. Even in my dreams, you say the same thing, don’t you?
Beyond my window, I wonder what the real you is doing right now.
Back in the distant yesterday, I was walking around, carrying an empty birdcage.
I was surely looking for you, wasn’t I?
Even though I’m invited outside by a brilliant wind,
I keep chasing after you in my dream.
The sky even now, even now, is engulfing me in blue
Like a downpour as I looked up.
Like a flower
(Flowers bloom in the sunlight and I live close to you)
Many seeds float up over the hills,
And I spread beautiful flowers.
Quickly, find me, find me, because I am here
Even though I’m waiting to be woken up.
Your smile always makes me tremble,
And I want to bloom as intensely as the sun.
My heart hurts and hurts like it’s about to break,
So if this feeling is unrequited, at least let it wither away!
Sooo I really love this song, but I’ve noticed it’s kind of hard to find a translation of it, and the ones I’ve seen are... not uh. Super accurate. So I took a stab at it myself. [English words] are in brackets, and they really did not make this song easier to translate haha.
Translation under the cut!!
[Blooming] as if gently waking up
In a [wasteland] as far as the eye can see
The ground is barren where the flowers once bloomed
I am a lone [wildflower]
The piercing sunlight is [blazing]
But if the sun goes down it will [change to cold]
I’ll hug my knees, [freezing]
Another day is dawning, [woah, welcome a new day]
I’m [always] shaken by your scent on the distant wind
In the wasteland, a lone flower vividly blooms, [I will bloom]
The stars watch me, [laughing]
I [kick] at the shimmering sky and [cry]
[Loneliness] is my friend
I fight to welcome another day [woah, welcome a new day]
The distant wind blows and I’m lost in thoughts of you, [always]
Why would I [wanna bloom], a lone flower in the wasteland?
[Notice that someone is watching you]
The wavering sun pours over the distant horizon, [always]
Tomorrow, so that I don’t blow away, I will take root and [I will bloom]
Even though I cannot see the distant horizon, I can feel it, and [I will bloom]
Tomorrow you will wake up, [blooming]
Spilling morning dew like [teardrops]
The ground is barren where the flowers once bloomed
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