Far Away From Home

i want to be loved like the women i read about. like i’m the person they would do anything for. the person they look for in everyone else and everywhere they go because they can’t get her out of their heads. the person their entire being burns for. the person they are patient with, even when she’s rambling, being emotional or sick. the person they go out of their way for, over and over again, because it’s her. the person they love. the person they… love and keep loving.

i want to be loved like the women i read about. like i’m the person they would do anything for. the person they look for in everyone else and everywhere they go because they can’t get her out of their heads. the person their entire being burns for. the person they are patient with, even when she’s rambling, being emotional or sick. the person they go out of their way for, over and over again, because it’s her. the person they love. the person they… love and keep loving.

oh how sweet it must be to have someone want you, love you, cherish you ?!! simply because you exist

and one day, if i’m lucky enough. i will find someone who will actually enjoy my presence and the person i am enough, to choose me. over and over again. just like i will choose them and love them. one day

have you ever looked at someone and hope they stay in your life forever

the love is still there btw. it's morphed into something beyond my understanding but it's still there. i still love you

“i always wanna see you” type of energy.

This generation makes you feel like being alone is the best decision for you.

As someone with anxiety, I cannot do inconsistency. Don’t introduce me to energy and a vibe you don’t plan on maintaining. One minute, you’re sweet; the next minute, you’re mean and cold. One minute, you’re present; the next minute, you’re distant. Absolutely not. Those are emotional mind games, and for my own sanity and peace, I will not tolerate it. Ever. Just leave me alone.