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[In the dream we were just hanging out with our friends and then I was going with her to some quieter place to sit and talk. I wish I could actually remember what we were talking about but I can’t. However, I remember that sometimes I would lay my head on her shoulder for a minute and I would also feel her slowly getting distant. But then one moment when I layed my head on her shoulder we weren’t talking about anything and my other hand was laying on her side so she slowly grabbed it and then we were holding hands while both of us were feeling really giddy and smiled a lot. The minutes passed and then she thought I fell asleep so she carefully untangled me from her body and left. Then I woke up. ]

Now she has been in my head all day long and it is really hard not to think about her. We aren’t really talking or she stopped talking to me suddenly and it sucked/sucks. Sometimes I have sent her messages asking how she is doing and recently I said happy birthday to her. I never get an answer though. She goes to same school as me and we have some classes together so sometimes we greet each others and sometimes we do nothing. I can’t exactly do anything. I feel my crush on her getting back. Due to this situation this is my song of the day:

She also reminds me of ocean so that’s why the picture is my drawing of ocean. I honestly think that she is as beautiful as the ocean. My comfort episode is euphoria Jules-special episode so being complimented like that by me is a huge thing.

I was in Sweden with my dad! I don’t travel much and this was the first time in years! It was fun! We were there only for a few days but we still had enough time to see many places.

I didn’t find new pants that I hoped I would, but at least I found interesting books that I had been wanting to read for a long time. One of them was The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. I started reading it right away. I have almost finished it now! I like it really much and it kind of reminds me of Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel. 📚

At the trip I mostly listened to Adele. So maybe the song of the trip was some of hers.🤷 I chose two song of hers below! I hope you like those!

ttyl

saw this sunset last night! It looked so pretty!!! After this I got into my bus and on the ride I was thinking about my old girlfriend and how her hand used to fit into my hand so perfectly but soon she found a better fit for her hand and now my hand has been trying to find the person whose hand actually fits perfectly into my hand! I have found couple persons that could be them but it have been just me feeling them and not both ways so I hope luck finds me soon!

song below(?) I don’t know does the song appear below or up or idk where🤷but anyways the song I chose was the song that sounded more awesome than others yesterday so Novacane by Frank Ocean was yesterdays song of the day!

Sincerely,

me

p.s

I wanted to download tumblr back so I can have some place where I have only me and none of the people I know from real life so I just knew tumblr was the perfect place for this!