Lonely Suggestions

the saddest thing is that you told me you all won’t be around forever. You gave me advice. After all this time you talked to me all night for hours and even refused to go to sleep for me. I know you’re right. But I don’t want to leave the ropes I’ve entangled myself in. I’m terrified of making new friends. And you’re the only ones who’ll hold my hand here on the ground. Yet you’re not even really here. You’re all scattered across this country. And I’m just alone in my room.

everyone talks about how gorgeous i am but the truth is that i'm so rotten hearted that anyone who has ever loved me ran the other way eventually. and now i'm really truly alone, and that's when beautiful is meaningless. so what is left? nothing.

Do you ever feel confined in the prison you created?

you only say you love me if i say it first

I’m terrified of losing all of you. I have no one in my life right now. I tried to reconnect with a real life friend I lost two years ago who hurt me. And she never responded. I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid of making new friends. I have no one. Please stay with me longer. I don’t want to remember our old times every day. I want to have them instead.