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pairing: joel miller (no outbreak) x f!reader
summary: To escape your abusive ex-boyfriend, you enlist in the Army and eventually deploy as a medic. What begins as a pen-pal program you join at your bunkmateâs urging. leads you to Joel Miller, a single father in Texas. Through months of letters, the two of you become each otherâs source of comfort and strength, and before long, simple sign-offs like âwarm regardsâ grow into âwith all my love.â
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pairing: reed richards (no sue) x f!reader
series summary: After taking two of Reedâs classes at the university, you enroll in his physics course and learn that the school is pressuring him to take on a student aide. To your surprise, he chooses you for the position.
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pairing: joelmiller!rodeocowboy (no outbreak) x f!reader
series summary: While visiting your family back home, you attend the county fair to watch your younger brother compete in the annual rodeo. What you donât expect is to catch the attention of Joel Miller, a rugged bull rider determined to win your attention.
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pairing: harry castillo(the materialists) x f!reader
series summary: After a long day, you meet Harry for a sushi date, but the lingering tension from your last night together hangs between you. When he invites you back to his place to keep the evening going, you find yourself unable to say no.
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pairing: harry castillo (materialists) x f!reader
series summary: After meeting Harry Castillo at your sisterâs wedding, he changes the way you see loveâshowing you not only what it means to be in love, but what it feels like to be truly loved in return.
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A one-shot, each day, for the month of October 2025! Some will lead to stories in the future, or some might just be little ideas I've had brewing in my drafts!
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pairing: jackson!joel miller (tlou) x f!reader
this was the winner of the poll with the troupe of: Enemies to lovers, but only one of them thinks they're enemies. The other has been entirely obsessed since the beginning and has the hardest way of showing it.
series summary: He lost his daughter. You lost your family. Survival hardened you both, but in Jackson, youâre asked to be more than survivors. You and Joel clash at every turnâuntil the possibility of losing each other forces feelings neither of you can ignore into the open.
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pairing: younger!harry castillo (materialists) x f!reader
series summary: Harry Castillo has spent years building a life in the city, where everything comes at a cost. When his motherâs memory begins to fade, he returns home and hides the truth about who he is, longing for something real. At a familiar diner, he meets youâa resilient single mother raising a son with quiet strengthâand finds himself drawn to the life he never knew he wanted. What starts as quiet companionship over cheeseburgers and milkshakes turns into something deeperâHarry faces a choice: reveal the truth and risk losing the only person who sees him for who he truly isâor keep hiding behind the simplicity of being âjust Harry.â
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pairing: harry castillo (materialists) x f!reader
series summary: After being left at the altar, you decide to take your would-be honeymoon aloneâan escape to Scotland for Christmas and a much-needed reset. But when a snowstorm and a booking error leave you sharing a suite with Harry Castilloâa wealthy, handsome businessman also seeking solitude after a recent break-upâyour quiet getaway turns into something unexpected. Between crackling fires, shared meals, the Christmas spirit, and soft laughter, two strangers learn that sometimes love finds you when everything else falls apart.
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pairing: jackson!joel miller (tlou) x f!reader
series summary: It starts with a basket delivery to Seth and a familiar voice that Joel thought heâd never hear again. Years after the world ended, the two of you find each other in Jacksonâolder, changed, but still tethered by the ghost of what almost was back in Texas.
After all this time, it feels like nothing's changedâincluding your feelings for each other.
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pairing: jackson!joelmiller x f!reader
series summary: You were supposed to be just patrol partners. No one knows about the late-night visits, the quiet breakfasts, or the way he looks at you like you're the last good thing left in this world.
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joel miller!knight x f!reader (princess)
joel miller!neighbor x f!reader (snow shoveling neighbor fluff)
Be Mine (Valentine's Day) joelmiller x f!reader
Second Chances jackson!joel x f!reader (PPCU writing challange)
Between the Beats (Valentine's Day) early jackon!joel miller x f!reader
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pairing: agent jack whiskey x f!reader
word count: 18k
warnings: angst, yearning, flashbacks, violence/fighting, guns, blood, fluff, without giving spoilers: SMUT (18+ MDNI).
a/n: this was a commission through my kofi from @pedritosgirl2000 !! here is her ask: 5k word SMUT where agent whiskey x female agent (different agency) assigned to the same mission (idk say theyâre supposed to assassinate some bad guy) and forced to work together even if he pisses her off. Maybe theyâve had a run in before and know each other prior? Or maybe this is our reader's first big mission?
i'm not going to lie, this took me so much longer than i have would liked - however it's because i wrote way more than 5k (story of my life) because i fell in love with these two. so with that, i hope you all enjoy! if you'd like to request a commission, my kofi is open for 2 slots at a time, and I have one slot taken. it is also open for donations if you like my work <33
âHey, sorry to barge in, Brandy, but the boss needs to see you in his office,â Richie said as he leaned into your officeâs doorway to take a peek. He had a stack of field reports in his arms as he found you sitting at your desk. âCarol said itâs urgentâŚâÂ
âYeah, yeahâone sec.â You muttered distracted, only paying attention to what you were reading on your computer screenânot in any rush like you should have been.Â
Richie took another step into your office, curiosity pulling him closer as he noticed something familiar shining your blue light glasses.
His brow furrowed as he pressed. âIs that the Ramsey case file?âÂ
That grabbed your attention. You quickly glanced up, over your screen, to see him snooping. You removed your glasses and tossed them in front of you.
âSorry, what did you say? Champagne needs me?â You asked as your glasses rattled across your desk while you pressed the lock button on your keyboard.Â
Richie straightened, realizing he had crossed a line by the way you reacted. He nodded as he pulled the stack in his arms closer to his chest. âUhm, yes, maâam.âÂ
You closed the case file next to you as you rolled your chair back. You stood as you pressed for further detailsâattempting to change the subject away from what you were looking into. âDid Carol say what it's about?â
He shook his head and shrugged, racking his brain for something useful to report.
He stumbled at first but then advised, âUh, no but⌠I did overhear them talking earlier about something happening down south? How they were going to send you and Agent Gin to meet up with another agent down thereâŚâÂ
You reached back and grabbed your suit jacket from the back of your chair before walking out of your officeâputting it on as you headed down the narrow hallway, Richie trailing close behind.Â
âDid they mention the name of the agent weâd meet up with?â You asked as you glanced over your shoulder for a moment before picking up the pace.Â
He shook his head and shrugged. âI thought i heard them mention someone named⌠Tequila?âÂ
You glanced forward as you buttoned your jacket, turning down the main hall and sighing, âAs long as itâs not a WhiskeyâIâm all for an field assignment.âÂ
After a very vague and short debrief with Champagne, claiming âdetails need to stay at a minimum until your arrivalââyou were on a plane to New Orleans, Louisiana.
The only solid piece of information you were told was that Gin would meet you in a few days time. Of course after you gathered intel and made a game plan with the agent youâd be meeting you there.Â
When you asked who you were meeting with on locationâwho to look for, a name, anythingâChampagne advised that he was only advised by headquarters that they agent would meet you at the hotel bar after you landed.Â
That certainly didnât settle the pit in your stomach you had as you got on the planeânot in the slightest.Â
After a long flight, that was much longer than you expectedâyou landed not only a lot later than you wanted, but you got off to yet another surprise: in an already buzzing cityâyou were also landing two nights before Mardi Gras began.
This added a new level of complexity that you were too tired to consider.
After checking in and sending your bags up to your room, meeting your new and somewhat secret partner where thereâd be alcohol didnât seem so much like a chore.
Fuck, after the last few hours? You needed a fucking drink.Â
You sat down at the bar and knocked twice on the hardwood to get the bartender's attention.Â
âCan I get a whiskey sour?â You asked sweetly when he turned to look your way, giving the young gentleman a warm, soft smile.Â
Just as the bartender nodded your way, you heard a southern drawl call your name from behind you. One that made your heart rate pick up andâagainst your wishesâgave something deep in your belly a small flutter.Â
âNo longer drinkinâ martinis, Agent?â The voice asked, a slight tease in his voice.Â
You took a deep breath in before turning in your seat to greet him with a forced yet polite smile. âAh, so the mission isnât as vague as I was advised.â You scanned him up and down from where he stood before biting back, âI mean, knowing you, specific details were⌠purposely withheld from me, yes?âÂ
He grinned and put his hand over his chest. âYou wound me with such⌠false accusations.âÂ
You raised your eyebrow, a small warning, and pursed your lips tighter. A look he knew all too well. All you wanted was the truth. No bullshit.Â
He exhaled and bowed his head before raising his hands in mock surrender. âAlright, alright. You caught me.â He said as he began stepping closer, his arms slowly coming down to his sides.Â
âShouldâve knownâŚâ You shook your head and rolled your eyesâclearly annoyed. âEspecially with how little Champagne was giving up.âÂ
Jack shrugged as he casually stood next to you at the bar. âI uh, may have told the old cowboy to hold out on some of the details, ya know?â Jack grinned a little too proudly as he moved to lean his elbow against the bar. He couldnât help as his gaze took you in, in a way that was no longer appreciated by youânevertheless, still made your pulse skip a beat.Â
His voice dropped an octave and slowed as he murmured, âPlus, we wanted to surprise yaâŚâ
âOf course you did.â You accused as you shook your head, swinging back around to rub your temple. You couldnât help but think over all the ways the next few days were going to be miserable.Â
Jack watched and held up his pointer finger to signal the bartender for a drink, just as he placed yours in front of you.
He took a second before his voice softened and something changed in the way he held himself. âLook, I know youâre not happy about this. Especially given our last time⌠working together.âÂ
Except it wasnât working together. It was far more than thatâdeeper.
You hummed and took a sip of your drink. Instead of your voice changing for the better, yours became colder, more flat. âAh, so now you call the last time we saw each other⌠just working?âÂ
Jack paused before he looked down at his finger, picking at the seam of the bar before he muttered, slightly falling over his words. âWell, no. I donâtâbut I thought we were... God, I donât know. I know if we call it anything more than what you wantedââÂ
âMhm, right. What I wanted...â You snapped, cutting him off. You nodded more to yourself than to what he was sayingâtrying to keep yourself from showing that maybe a part of you still cared for what you left behind.Â
âSorry, I just thought thatâŚâ Jack tried to recover, hearing the hurt you were trying to hide.
You quickly swallowed down the lump that had crept up with each word he had mutteredâwounds from the past clawing their way to the surface. âNo itâs ok. Itâs ok⌠Iâm gladâIâm glad weâre finally on the same page.âÂ
Jackâs gaze moved back to you and it all came flooding back.
He stood there wanting to say all the things heâd held back, the words he regretted not telling you beforeâthe ones that kept him up most nights since.
Without knowing, his face and body language softened as he moved just a fraction closer.
But before anything further could be said or done, you stood from your stool and put a twenty-dollar bill on the counter. You downed your drink in one go. The burn you felt run down your throat made you softly cough and your eyes slightly water.
You inhaled a sharp breath before adding, adding a fake small smile. âThank God we can skip all that meet-and-greet fuss, yeah?â
You grabbed your jacket and pushed in your stool before you began to walk away towards the lobby, saying loud enough for Jack to hear. âIâll uh, meet you back here in the morning to⌠establish a game plan.â
You barely made it two steps out of the bar before you heard Jackâs voice from behind you, his voice still soft but somewhat hopeful. âGood night, Y/NâŚâÂ
You stopped, only for a few seconds. Something deep down ached that you hadnât felt since the last time you saw him.
But then you let go of a breath you seemed to be holding in and replied, âAnd to you.. Agent.âÂ
Jack stood there, watching you walk away, and couldnât help but smile to himselfâeven after that cold and closed off interaction. Â
Because for him, it was good to see you. Heâd missed you, even if you didnât miss him.Â
He missed the way you made him feel. How you made him feel lighter, brighter⌠happier. He missed the challenge you brought him. The way you pushed him to think faster, deeper, to feel more than just the surface level. You brought out the good in him.Â
And yeah, being called âAgentâ stungâlike you meant it to. But he knew that just meant you cared⌠even if you didnât want to admit it.Â
You still cared.
âFuckfuckfuckââ You whispered to yourself as the elevator doors shut. Your heart had been hammering in your chest since you left the bar and that stupid fucking lump crawling back up the moment you heard him say goodnight.
âGod damn it...â You inhaled a shaky breathâeven as you tried to hold it all back. Â
Once the bell dinged to begin your ascent, you pinched the bridge of your noseâholding onto the railing bring yourself back in.
But no matter how tightly you closed your eyes or how many deep breaths you tookâall you could think of was the last night you saw him.Â
You stormed into the motel roomâthe door slamming against the wall as you entered.Â
Jack was on your heels, as always, and caught the door before it could close behind you. âWhoa, hey, easy now.âÂ
His knuckles were bruised, and his arm was bloodied from a bullet graze. The dried blood on his sleeve showed an obviousâand painful reminder of his recklessness that day.
âBaby, whatâwhatâs wrong? I donât understand whatââÂ
âYou couldâve gotten killed!â You cut him off, your voice rising with each word. âGod, what were you thinking, Jack?â
He stuttered, the words he needed failing him at how mad and scared you looked. For once, he was unsure of what to say, how to make it all better. For once, he wanted to be careful with how he responded. For once, he cared what came out of his mouth in a fight.Â
Instead, his silence just fueled your anger and you began throwing clothes from around the room into the duffel bag that now sat open on the bed. âI knew it. I knew getting close was a mistake.â You muttered under your breath, voice shaky.Â
His gaze snapped from the duffel to you, and he took a step closer. âA mistake? What we have⌠wait, what we areââ Â
âNoâno. There⌠There is no âweâ, Jack.â You quickly correctedâmore so to bring yourself comfort with what you were about to do. âThere isnât. There canât be.â
He stood there and let the silence settle; convinced it would do its work. He wanted to believe that you didnât mean any of it. Not when this morning was so much different. Not when that last few weeks youâd spent falling in love. No, you couldnât mean it. He told himself that you were just scared after what happened to him. Right?
He watched closely to see continue to packing up the duffel before your hands slow their movements. He waited patiently until you realized how ridiculous you sounded before he softly muttered. âAnd who said we canât be something more, hm?âÂ
You hated how that made you pause mid-motion and clench the shirt you had in your hand.Â
He took the opportunity and stepped once more forward. He took off his Stetson, and combed his fingers through his hairâa nervous tick he hadâbefore setting it next to the duffel. He sat in front of you before reaching out for your hand. He gently kissed your knuckles before gently pressing further. âDonât we deserve to be happy after all weâve sacrificed?âÂ
Did you deserve happiness? You wanted to believe you didâespecially with all that youâve done, both good and bad.Â
But, with happiness came pain⌠then came liability, and not far behind that came a deep sense of vulnerability that you just couldnât afford.
Another thing happiness brought was that anyone could use it against you. Anyone could manipulate and use it to hurt you. And with this job? There wasnât a chance that you could allow that to be a possibility. This was all you hadâall you had known.
But then he sat there in front of you, looking up at you like youâd hung the moon and stars. And something inside you hesitated to believe that you couldnât have it all.
The elevator, softly jolting as it came to your floorâsnapping you out of your thoughts. You heard a soft ding from above, only to look up and see the number 12 shining above.Â
The shiny golden doors opened to an older couple, arm in arm, chuckling amongst themselves.
You pushed off the railing and nodded a silent âgood eveningâ to themâbefore slinking past to lock yourself in your room for the rest of the night.Â
The last couple of days settled into something neither of you wanted to acknowledge.
Youâd wake before sunrise to get coffee from whatever corner shop opened first. Then it was hours of surveillance and reading over reports together.
There was even a day when it was the two of you weaving through the crowded streets of New Orleans for hoursâall while Mardi Gras celebrations grew louder and crazier by the minute.
It should've been miserableâbut god damn it, it was annoyingly easy.
Not because the assignment itself was after gathering intel, but if anything, working with Jack again, being with himâit came back to you like muscle memory.
"...Two exits," you murmured beneath your breath as you watched a warehouse from the roof across the street.
Jack lowered the binoculars without looking away from the building. "West side will be cleaner to go in from."
"Mm." You hummed as you looked down, tapping information into the tablet lying in your lap.Â
"Theyâre usinâ the front door as bait," Jack noted, putting his binoculars back up.
"Youâre just seeing that?" You jabbed as you glanced over at him for a moment.
A grin tugged at the corner of his mouth. "Mm, let me guess: itâs in your little daily logbook already?"
You rolled your eyes as you held up your binoculars again to peer through them. "You mean the logbook that you never seem to read?"
âHey now, I read âem, justâŚâ His grin slowly grew as he peeked over at you. "...mustâve missed that part."
You kept your gaze on the warehouse, your tone slightly sarcastic as you muttered. âSure you did...â
He chuckled quietly beside you before looking back through his binoculars.
It wasn't until the fourth night that everything went sideways and something started to crack open between the both of you.
The lead you received was supposed to be a simple small mission:
1. Meet the informant
2. Exchange the payment
3. Leave
However, the second you stepped inside the abandoned repair garage, every instinct in your body screamed something was wrong. It was too quietâall too easy.Â
Jack mustâve felt it too as his hand brushed against the small of your back for less than a second. Something that happened purely out of instinct, as it had always been his way of giving you a silent warning.Â
Nevertheless, it sent heat to your cheeks and another small flutter deep in your belly.
Both clouding your thoughts, slowing your movementsâtaking you out of your element.
You blinked gave him a slight nod of acknowledgment, pushing all that aside. Â
He moved just a fraction in front of you before reaching behind to rest on his gun, holstered on his belt.Â
âStay behind me.â He whispered, scanning the area.
"Itâs a setup." You murmured, eyes scanning everything around you, watching for the smallest movement. âYou got any ideas on a way out of here?âÂ
Jack glanced over his shoulder towards the way you both came in, gambling on a simple retreat. âThoughts on backtracking?âÂ
You followed his gaze behind you and went to reply, only for the lights to cut out.
âShit.â You both muttered in unison, turning back to look at what was in front of you. It wasnât to your complete surprise when you saw silhouettes of three large figures coming from the darknessâclosing in from all sides.
The first swarmed you from the side before you could draw your sidearm. You ducked beneath his swing and drove your fist into his ribs. You quickly grabbed his wrist and threw him over your shoulderâknocking the air clear out of him.
The second lunged from behind you, but before you could react, Jack caught him.
Jack was known to hit hard. You heard the second his fist landed a blow to the manâs jawâit was defining and solid. You turned your head just slightly to check and saw the moment just before his knee connected to the assailant's stomach. The man folded, grunting in pain before yelling something in another language before repositioning himself to take another swing toward Jack out of frustration.
"Behind you!" Jack barked as he ducked, grabbing the manâs arm with one hand and his shirt collar with the other, shoving him backwards towards a pile of wooden pallets.Â
You never questioned him, never looked to double-checkâyou simply dropped to your knees just as a fist sailed through the space where your head had been a second earlier.
You glanced up to counter attackâonly to see Jack's boot connect with the attacker's chest. hard enough to send him crashing into a stack of old tires.
You were already moving towards the assailant that Jack sent stumbling into a pile of pallets.
He swung at you faster than you expectedâhitting hard across the cheekbone.
Despite the sting and immediate painâyou recovered faster than he could block. You landed three quick strikesâtwo to his jaw and one to the coreâplus a final jab to his throat.
The man made a wet and high pitched noise as he grabbed his neck, breath stolen from him before he fell to his knees. You took it a step further and kicked him hard in the ribsâmaking him collapse against the concrete with a deafening thud and a gasping wheeze as he curled into the fetal position, struggling to breathe.Â
You turned around just as the first attacker that went towards you got up and rushed for Jackâ now that his back was turned and clearly distracted.
Without thinking, you grabbed a rusted wrench from the nearby workbench and hurled it as hard as you could toward your target.
It spun through the air to land squarely across the base of the manâs skullâmaking him cry out and stumble forward as it knocked him off balance.
âJack!â You shouted.
Jack didnât need anything further; he just knew when it came to you.
He immediately spun aroundâinstantly moving to tackle the man to the ground. He pinned him down by straddling him, knees trapping his arms downâmaking the man yelp out in pain.
Without skipping a beat, he pulled out his gun and pointed it at the man struggling to get up from the pile of tires.
âFreeze!â He warned, glaring at the man who was clearly thinking about lunging again. His chest was heaving and fists were balled upâlooking like a raging bull.Â
You pulled your sidearm and pointed at the man below you on the concrete, laying dazed and bloodied before firing a stun bullet to his abdomenâjolting him with a high electric shockâbefore knocking him unconscious.Â
Jack did the same when the man took a step forwardânot taking a chance for another round. He firing a single shot before standing and shooting at the young man beneath his feetâknocking both out as well.
Silence settled over the garage before both of your heavy breathing filled the room. For several long seconds, neither of you spoke as you gathered yourselves on what just happened.Â
Then Jack finally looked over to find you before asking. "You alright?"
You nodded, focused on the man lying unconscious at your feet. "...I'm fine."
Jack saw something in the small amount of light that seeped through one of the windows that made his stomach sink.
He wasted no time before he began stepping closerâgently saying your name to pull your attention towards him.Â
You blinked at the sound of your name falling off his tongueânot hearing it in that way for years. The softness made you turn to face himâonly to see him for his hand to reach toward your cheek.Â
You instinctively caught his wrist before he could touch you, your guard going back up.
His eyes flicked between your hand and your face.
"You're bleedinâ..." He tried to reason, nodding toward your cheek that had some blood running down it.Â
âShitâŚâ Your stomach dropped slightly, not knowing youâd possibly been hurt.
You reached up to wipe it away with the back of your hand before muttering. "...I said Iâm fine, Jack. Iâm fine."
He sighed, his face dropping as you stepped away from what he could only assume was you feeling embarrassed.
His hand fell back down to his sideâhis fingers rubbed together anxiously, like heâd been robbed of an excuse to touch you, to care for you again.Â
And of course you noticed. You could still read him like a book with those big brown eyes.
"You worry too much about me." You murmured quietly.Â
âWhat, you expect me not to?â His expression hardened slightly, but his voice remained soft. "You're⌠my partner."
"Yeah, but Iâm only your partner for this mission.â You said as you moved past him, shoulders barely grazing the others.
You walked over to the other body to begin gathering information about the group of menâimmediately getting back to business. âPlus, I can handle myself."
"I know you can."
"Do you?" You pressed, glancing back at him as you crouched by the man who know laid unconscious by the tires.Â
"Of course I do," he said, quieter than before, "but just because you can handle yourself doesnât mean that I canât have your back too. You know that you need me just as much as I need you." He paused before adding, âEspecially in situations like these.âÂ
You huffed a chuckle as you dug into the manâs pockets. "I didn't need saving for anyone, Jack. I would have had it ifâ"
"I never said you did.â Jack cautiously interrupted, walking towards you before crouching on the other side of the body, his gaze settling on you. âDespite what you think, I do know you enough to understand youâre capable of handling things yourself...âÂ
Despite yourself, your cheeks bloomed a soft pink as you glanced up at him through your eyelashes.
You caught his gaze for a split second before quickly looking back down, your cheeks instantly deepening in color.Â
Jack smiled to himself, noting the change before he softly cleared his throat and turned around to search the other bodyâleaving the conversation on that note.
Later that night
Jack balanced two paper bags against his hip as he nudged the hotel room door open with his shoulder.
You gripped your pistol on the table next to you, somewhat still on edge from earlier.Â
Jack heard the faintest click as you cocked the hammer with your thumb. "Hey now, donât shoot the delivery man," he grinned, trying to lighten the mood as he shut the door behind him with his foot.
Without looking up from the mess of photographs scattered in front of you, you countered. "Delivery man forgot to knock."
Jack strolled over, grin still lightly pulling on his lips as he teased. "Plus if ya shot meâyou wouldnât get the coffee you begged me to go out forâŚâ
You put the safety back on and rolled your eyes, âFor the record, I didnât beg. I⌠I mightâve mentioned needinâ a pick me upâneeding something to keep me awake for at least the next few hours...â You said with a soft sigh as you gently tossed a photograph onto the table, clearly frustrated by what was in front of you before you folded your arms over your chest. âBut I didnât beg.â
Jack just chuckled, only for you to look up just in time to watch him set two coffees and a pair of burgers in front of you.
God it was a beautiful sight.
The room that had smelled faintly of old carpet, cigarettes and rain drifting in from Bourbon Streetânow smelled of the two best things in the world.
The aroma of the caramelized onions and strong black coffee both made your stomach growl and instantly put you at ease.Â
Jack pulled one wrapped burger from the bag and slid it across the table toward you.
"No lettuce or tomato⌠and extra sauce for you."
You frowned slightly and looked up at him for a moment before looking down at the silver wrapper the burger was neatly wrapped in.
"...How'd you know thatâs how I liked my burger?"
He blinked as he took off his hat, placing it on the end of the bed behind him."You've ordered the same order since Tennessee."
A beat passed as he took off his lightly damp jacket to neatly hang it on the back the chair, before adding. "⌠And you always said you hated how watery the lettuce made a burger. Plus ya hate tomatoes on anythinâ, so..."
You stared at the wrapper for a second longer than you meant to. âHe remembered. God, of course he did⌠he was always so good about that kind of stuff. He always made you feel seen.â
Jack seemed to realize what he'd admitted a second too late and busied himself unwrapping his own burgerâsitting down and opening a case file, scanning over details to appear busy and distracted.
Neither of you spoke for a few minutes after that. Both trying to ignore the shift that kept making its way of creeping up between you.
You hesitated only for a moment before you picked up the burger and unwrapped it. No lettuce. No tomatoes. And a ridiculous amount of barbecue sauce that you always insisted made it better.
As you stared at it, you hated that he remembered the small detailsâbut you hated even more that was that a small part of you was glad he did.
"So," you said after a few minutes, deliberately changing the subject as you opened a folder that you had sitting nearby, "thoughts on our three new friends?"
Jack swallowed his bite, shrugging. "Didn't tell us much that we didnât already know..."
"They told us enough." You murmured as you spread a few photographs you took of their belongings across the table.
But after an hour of combing through it all again and running through every single detailâall you had was three men, one warehouse, four shell companies, and two names that they gave you that meant nothing.
"Our original plan doesn't work anymore." You murmured as you tossed the file folder onto the table to stand.
You turned to look at the wall that now had photos and notes hanging with scribbles your writing to show a path of evidence.Â
Jack came up behind you, his eyes scanning over the same thing. He stood close enough that you could feel the warmth rolling off him.
"Youâre right. It doesnât." His voice low and focused.Â
You chewed on the side of your thumb as your eyes skimmed over the details before pointing towards it. "If what they told us was true, they said they already moved the shipment⌠which puts us 12 hours behind schedule."
"Looks that way," Jack murmured, his gaze slowly making its way to the back of your head, realizing how close he was standing.Â
You sighed and pinched the bridge of your nose, grumbling. "And Gin gets here tomorrow. God the timing..."
"Mhm."Â
"We're supposed to brief him with a⌠a plan or⌠somewhat of plan of this damn operation!â You pointed to the wall that showed nothing close to a plan.Â
Jack shrugged and exhaled a slow, controlled breath. "Weâll come up with something."
You let out an aggravated breath and shook your head. "Yeah with that? We nothing to come up withâŚ" You murmured as you turned and sat on the edge of the table and began rubbing your temples.
Jack chewed the inside of his cheek, studying the wall for a moment before he decided you both needed a break.
He reached for the coffee you'd barely touched and nudged it toward you. "Take a break⌠drink some of this."
"I'm not tired." You sighed, nudging it back as you stood back up and turn again toward the wall.Â
"Didnât say you were⌠but you've been rubbin' your head like you do when youâre getting one of those headaches you tend to get when working late."
"I'mâthatâs not⌠Iâm thinking." You stuttered through your lie, removing your fingers from your temple.
"Well sorry to say, but you think better caffeinated." He protested, nudging it back toward you.
He waited a moment before moving to sit on the edge of the table, next to where you were standing.Â
You narrowed your eyes at him for a second, infuriated how right he wasâhow well he still knew you.
You sighed before mumbling as you took a few sips. "Yâknow, I hate how smug you get when you're right."
"I know." He smirked as he reached around for a case file heâd been combing through beforehand.Â
And there it was.Â
That smile. That stupid, crooked, soft, and kind smile that he seemed to only have for you.
It hadn't changed after all this time. Even after all the pain you knew you caused himâit hadnât changed. It was still patient and safe. It was something that managed to soften the sharp edges he gave everyone else. It was just for you.Â
You looked away for a moment before leaning on the table next to him. You looked over his shoulder at the file and read over a few details before setting your cup down behind you.
"Let's assume they were lyingâŚ" You began.
"Mm, they were." Jack assured as he flipped up a page, studying one of the shipping manifests.Â
"Whaâabout all of it?" You questioned, shocked by how quickly and confident he sounded.
"Not exactly." He began as he closed the folder and set it next to him. âI think they left out a few details to try and throw us off.â He continued as he started unbuttoning his cuffsârolling them up his forearm.Â
You caught a glance at the veins bulging on his tan skin. How big his hand looked compared to the buttons he was working at.
You felt your heart start to race and a rush of heat rush to your core.
So before he could catch you practically drooling, you glanced over your shoulder at the wall before asking, your voice cracking on the first syllable. "You believe what they said about the warehouse?"
Jack hesitated and peered up at you, noticing your cheeks blooming.
He only needed a second before calculating what brought on that reaction before he bit his lip to hold back a shit eating grin.
"I do." He replied, trying to keep his voice even.
"And the dock?" You questioned after composing yourself, turning back to face him. Â
Jake pursed his lips and shrugged. "Might be real⌠but Iâm not going to lieâsomethinâ feels off about it."
You sighed and lingered on that thought before continuing. "Well then, what about the buyer?"Â
Jack shook his head and let out a chuckled, nodding toward the folder next to him. "Mm, now thatâs fake."
You raised your eyebrow and tilted your head, not sure how he was seeing this, and you werenât.
You always saw through the smoke and lies. You could always picked up the pieces and put them together. Why werenât you able to with this?
"What makes you so sure?"
"They answered too fast when we pushed them about it... like they were kids trying to lie about who broke their momâs vintage crystal set." He said, leaning back slightly on his handsâmaking those damn veins pop even moreâbut like it was the most obvious observation.Â
Not only that but you hated how cocky that made him look.
But you also couldnât deny now that you thought about it moreâhe was right.
They were way too anxious and quick about that one question when they were all separately interrogated.
"Alright fine. You might be right." You muttered before taking another long sip, eyes fixated on the bed in front of you as you thought about everything more with that assumption.
"Well, I usually am." He teased as he grinned wider.
It caught you off guard, the ease and tease in his voice. Youâd be lying if it didnât take you back to how things were before.
Enough for a quiet snort, followed by a small, quick chuckle escapedâbefore you had time to swallow it.Â
Jack looked to you immediately, and if you couldâve seenâthe man somehow melted.
Because there it was. That laugh. That laugh that made his days brighter and his heart fuller years ago. That laugh that he still heard echo in his dreams.
Jack took a moment before he leaned a bit forward. "You still have that cute little snort before you laugh."
You cleared your throat and turned away as your cheeks flooded with a warmth that seemed almost like a betrayal.
âYou uhm, you were saying the buyer was fakeââ You started as you quickly got off the table to put distance between you. However smooth you were trying to be, in the process of getting up, you knocked a thick folder offâsending papers and photos scattered all over the floor.Â
âShit.â You muttered, immediately kneeling to pick everything up quickly.
âHere, let me help,â Jack said softly as he quickly slid off the table and down onto the floor with you.Â
You sighed and began picking papers up faster. âItâs fine, Jack. I got itâŚâ Â
But when you both reached for the same photograph, and your fingers brushedâsomething shifted.
Not dramatically, but just enough that the room suddenly felt smaller, the air slightly thicker. The music that had been carrying through the open crack in the windowâthe trumpets and laughter weaving togetherâsounded further away.
It was a touch, nothing moreâyet neither of you pulled away immediately.
It was when you felt his thumb shift the smallest fraction against the side of your hand, that you blinked and heâd realized what he was doing.
He withdrew his hand, his voice small and soft as he muttered. "...Sorry."
"It's fine." You muttered back, eyes darting down to gather the photographs before shoving them into the folder, the pile messy and spilling out.
Neither of you moved, just stayed there with cheeks warm, hearts pounding, and eyes avoidant of what just happened.
Jack racked his mind, trying to think of what to do or say. But before he could make a decision, you stood abruptly, tucking your hair shyly behind your ears.
Your voice came out small and quietâalmost shy. "I uhm, I need some air..."
Jack watched you cross the room before the door openedâthe smell of rain and smoke from the shop down below wafted inside. Lightning struck before thunder boomed as the streets cheered in celebration.
But then you pulled it softly to close behind you.
Jack sat there and couldnât help but question how to move forwardâespecially after that obvious electric moment after the years spent apart.
What could he say? What could he do to make it better?Â
It was obvious there was a loose end between the two of you. How, after all that had been said and doneâall the hurt and painâthere was still something of a chance to mend it.Â
He knew that you also felt that shiftâthat same electric warmth in just the small touch of your fingers.
He knew if he could just make you see itâif you would just stop for a moment to give him a chanceâyou both could be so much happier.Â
You leaned your forearms against the cool metal balcony. You watched the rain pour off of the roof in front of you and then saw the hundreds of people move beneath the glowing lights of the city below.
You listened to the music, the cheers, the soft thunder as it continuedâthe clapping of thousands as they continued to flood the streets in celebration.
All that listening and watching only to be distracted by the lingering feeling on the side of your handâfrom where his thumb just was.Â
You traced your finger over the skin, back and forth, slowly. You couldnât help the way your mind drifted back to the last time you remember your hand in his.Â
It was the morning you left.Â
Jack would always hold you close from behind as you sleptâhis arm beneath your pillow, the other around your torso. You would always find his hand and interlock them together in your sleep.
It was something he found endearing and sweet. That whether you consciously meant to or notâhe always found your hand in his when heâd wake.
You loved how every morning, heâd pull your hand to his lips and kiss your knucklesâthen being the flirt he was, heâd move all the way up your arm before finally finding his way to your lips where heâd take his time settling there.
It was your little morning routine. It was habit.
But the morning you left? There was a reason it was before he woke.
Because if the routine had been honored, you would have never left.Â
You hated how much your heart still ached for him. How that small touch sent your heart racing, your cheeks on fire.
How it reignited that fire that you thought youâd doused the second you walked out that door.Â
But it had never leftâit just dimmed until the time was just right.Â
You heard the door open and close from behind you after a few minutes.
It wasnât until you felt his warmth coming off his shoulder that you knew he was to your side.Â
There were a few moments of silence as you both stood there, listening to the music below. The rain continued to pour above you, creating somewhat of a peaceful, yet soulful ambiance considering what you were in the middle of.Â
Jack glanced to the crowd below and hummed to himself.
When he finally spoke, his voice came out softer than you hopedâa small smile pulling at the corner of his lips. âHave you ever been to something like this before?âÂ
You kept your gaze on your hand for a moment longer before blinking and glancing down below. âWhat? Something this loud?âÂ
Jack chuckled and waved his hand as he shruggedâhis lips pursing. âSure, you could say that.âÂ
You couldnât help the small smile that pulled at your lips as you thought of a memories. âLoudest party Iâve ever been to is a tie between my cousin Vinnieâs bar mitzvah or my old partnerâs daughterâs quinceaĂąeraâŚ"Â
Jack leaned a bit more onto the bars but turned his head to glance at you as he smiled. âIâve been to several quinces and can agree⌠they can be on the same level as Madi Gras.âÂ
You smiled and nodded as you watched him for a moment before looking awayâback down to the crowd below.Â
Jackâs gaze stayed on you and saw you were looking for a way to avoid talking about what just happened. And he wasnât a person to make you talk about it, let alone make you feel uncomfortable.
So he gently nudged your elbow with his and sighed. âSo⌠whatâs our plan? What are we going to tell Gin when he gets here?âÂ
You were shocked but not surprised he avoided talking about it. He was always respectful about things like thatânot wanting to push you.
Although you canât say you werenât a little disappointed.
So you shrugged and pushed off the rail, turning around to lean your ass against it. You crossed your arms over your chest as you pondered about all the options before suggesting, âI think we should delay our plans until we have more information. Something more solid.â
Jack stood upright as he held onto the railing next to you, rocking back and forth slowly as he looked deep in thought, eyes fixated below. âYou think itâs too risky to just⌠wing it?âÂ
You took a deep breath before turning your head to look at him for a moment.
Without knowing at first, your gaze softened, and for a second, he saw flashes of something run across before you looked down and swallowedâpushing it all back down.Â
A second more, you finally said. âI canâtâuhmâŚwe canât have what happened last time we were in a situation like this⌠happen again by just âwinging itâ.âÂ
Jack knew instantly what you were referring to. His rocking stopped, and his stance straightened before he turned on his side to face you more head-on.Â
His voice changed to something remorseful yet still gentle as he assured, âHey⌠I wonât let anythinâ like that ever happen againâŚâÂ
You kept your gaze away from his as tears started to well upâthe emotion of that day boiling up. The thoughts and feelings of that day barreling back.
Just thinking about the moment you thought you lost himâeven after all this time, it was still raw.Â
You put your hands on the rail behind you and pushed off, clearing your throat gently. âYeah, well⌠you canât make those types of guarantees, Whiskey.âÂ
He pinched his brows together at that nameâhow wrong that felt, even for you.
He studied you, and after a moment, could tell just by the way you refused to look at him there was something there.
He could see that there was some part of you that regretted leavingâthat never forgave yourself for walking away. He could see the pain that you still carried, the fear you still held onto. He could read you like a bookâlike he always had.Â
His heart was pounding, and he felt dizzyâbut he saw a chance to change everything.
So before he could talk himself out of it, or come up with some stupid reason to walk awayâhe took a gamble.Â
He moved a fraction closer and placed his hand over yours before muttering. âThatâs my name⌠and thatâs certainly not what youâve ever called me.âÂ
His warmth enveloped you the moment he stepped closer, and it was almost bewitching how quickly every defense you'd spent years building began to crumble.
How the familiar scent of his cologneâpine softened by bright citrusâwrapped around you, soothing your frayed nerves as it filled every corner of your senses. Fighting it felt pointless. Not when every carefully guarded thought, every ounce of resolve, every atom that made up your beingâsurrendered to him until there was nothing left between you but him.
You couldn't tear your eyes away from him, even as tears blurred his features. The moment you blinked, they spilled over, sliding silently down your cheeks. Embarrassed, your hand darted up beneath his, determined to brush them away before he could see. But his free hand was already there, cradling your cheek with a tenderness that stole the breath from your lungs.
âJackâŚâ you whispered.
His heart was pounding so hard he was certain you could hear it.
His thumb gently swept beneath your eye, brushing away the tear that had escaped. He lingered against your skin for just a moment longer than necessaryâas if he couldn't bear to let go now that he had you this way.
He carefully and almost cautiouslyâclosed the remaining distance between you, his eyes never leaving yours, as he searched your face for the smallest sign that he should stop, that you'd changed your mind or put your walls back up.
But you didn'tâyour gaze stayed locked on his.Â
Encouraged by that, he slowly gathered your hand that had stayed beneath his on the rail and guided them until they rested between your chestsâwhere he could feel your heartbeat nearly matching his own.
You watched as his eyes briefly fell to your joined hands.
You felt his thumb absentmindedly begin to trace slow, comforting arcs across your knucklesâgrounding both of you in the quiet that settled between your breaths.
Even with the city outside still pulsing with music and celebration below, with the thunderstorm creating chaos aboveâright here, it all seemed to disappear.Â
"I made a reckless mistake that day..." he murmured, his voice rough with regret. He swallowed hard before finishing, "...one that cost me everythin'."
Your brows pinched together as you searched his face, trying to understand the weight behind his words before you askedâalmost afraid of the answer. "Everything?"
Jack lifted his eyes to yours, hearing the uncertainty in your voice. How you carried the disbelief that you could possibly mean that much to him. It made his chest ache. Because, Godâif only you knew the way he still ached for you next to him, how his heart still raced when he saw someone who even resembled you on the street?
He yearned for a second chanceâand this was it.
A tender smile found its way onto his face despite the tears threatening to blur his vision.
"You've always been my everythin'," he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper as his eyes danced across your soft features. "From the moment you walked into my life." He shook his head ever so slightly, his smile turning bittersweet. "That's never stopped. Not for a single day."
The words stole the air from your lungs and words from your tongue. Enough that the only thing you could do was let your forehead slowly fall against hisâyour eyes slipping shut as you gave the smallest nod, trying to steady the storm raging inside your chest.
For a long moment, neither of you spoke. You simply stood there, breathing the same air, listening to the rain fall around youâletting years of distance quietly unravel between you.
"I need you to know that..." you whispered as your other hand slid from the cold metal railing to rest over his heart, feeling it race beneath your palm. The steady rhythm only quickened your own pulse and left you feeling an overwhelming flood of emotion.
You drew in a shaky breath before continuing, "...I didn't leave that day because..." But the words got caught in your throatâyour mind was racing as memories crashed over you all at once. The gunshots. The way you heard his body collapse to the ground. The motel room. The argument. The night you spent wrapped in his arms. The fear you woke with the same conclusion you walked into that motel room with. The feeling you had as you walked away from him. The painful feeling of every instinct begging you to turn back. The regret you held onto until it turned you cold and numb.Â
But now he was hereâclose enough to touch. Close enough that it almost felt like the years between never even happened.
Jack gently shook his head, his hand slipping behind your neck to cradle it with an impossible tenderness as he drew you just a fraction closer.
"Shh..." he whispered, brushing his forehead against yours. "You don't have to explain anything to me."
"But I do." You argued, nodding your head against his.Â
"You don't." He insisted as his eyes searched yours, full of nothing but patience. "I don't wanna hear any of that," he murmured. "Whatever happened... it's over now. I don't care about the years we lost. I don't care about who was right or wrong. I justâ"
"No, Jack, I..." Your voice trembled as you squeezed his hand, stopping him before he could finish.Â
You needed to say what youâd held back. He deserved that at the very least. You pulled back just enough to meet his eyes, needing him to see every ounce of truth written across your face.
"I left that day..." Your lip quivered as fresh tears blurred your vision. "...because I couldn't stand the thought of ever losing you."
Jack's breath caught and his brows pinched together, trying to process everything you were saying.
"I couldn't watch this job take you away from me." Your fingers tightened around his shirt as you pulled him slightly closer. "I⌠I woke up that morning and couldn't cope with the thought of you one day never coming back⌠of me being left alone in a world without you."
Another tear slipped free as your voice broke. "So I convinced myself that leaving first would hurt less." A broken laugh escaped you, shaking your head through the tears. "But it didn't. It hurt so much worse."
His own eyes glistened nowâhis thumb gently began to rub that soft spot of your jawline as he listened.
"I couldn't lose you..." you whispered, your voice breaking beneath the weight of everything you'd buried for years. "...because I love you, Jack."
The confession that you'd both waited years to hear out loud settled between you in the quiet, fragile, and undeniable moment.
All Jack could do was simply stare at you.
He couldnât believe that every hope he'd forced himself to bury, every word he never thought heâd hearâwas now right in front of him.
"You love me..." he repeated softly.
You nodded through your tears as you leaned into his gentle hold. "I never stopped."
His breath caught somewhere in his chest, his thumb stilling against your cheek. His eyes searched yours, looking for hesitationâfor doubt, for regret, for anything that would tell him he'd imagined what he just heard.
He found none.Â
A smile, soft and almost boyish, tugged at the corner of his mouth before he let out a shaky breath. His forehead falling against yours once more. "Iâm sorry, Iâm justâŚ"
Your lips quivered into the faintest smile through your tears as you teased. âWhat? For once youâve got nothing to say?âÂ
Jack let out a quiet, breathless chuckle. âWhat is this? Youâve confessed your love for me, and now you're teasing me for being speechless?"
âAbsolutely.â You smiled, really smiled, for what felt like the first time in years. God, you'd missed himâmissed thisâmissed the way he could make you feel when everything felt impossible.
Your eyes drifted to his lips before you could stop yourself.
Jack noticed as his own gaze lingered on yours, his expression softening as every ounce of his bravado melted away.
"I have a confession now," he murmured.Â
âPour your heart out, Agent.âÂ
His smile grew wider at the playfulness before his voice dropped slightly. "Iâve been talkin' myself out kissinâ you every damn day weâve been here."
Your pulse skipped as you swallowed, your cheeks slowly turning a rosy shade of pink.Â
"Well, thatâs a shame⌠I seem to remember you always had terrible self-control." You purred, feeling his hand move from your neck to pinch your chin. A grin slowly formed as you knew what was coming.Â
He huffed a laugh as he started to lean in, his gaze flicking back up to yours as he asked. âSo does that mean you don't want me to stop?âÂ
You reached up and gently cupped his jaw. Your thumb brushed over the light amount of stubble there before giving his hand another small squeeze as you whispered. "I think we've spent too many years telling ourselves to stop."
You felt his heart pound faster as you closed the last inch between you, your lips barely touching as you whispered. "...so please, Jack... donât stop."
Jack didn't waste another second as he pulled your chin up and closer before his lips were on yours, kissing you softly. It was slow and slightly nervous, like he was scared to lose you. It wasn't rushed or desperate to make up for lost time, but slow and lingering.
You melted into him almost instantly as your hand slid from his jaw to the back of his neck.
Just as he did the same, both of his hands found the small of your back, drawing you impossibly closer. Every familiar piece of him fit exactly where you rememberedâas if no time had passed at all.
His lips moved against yours in slow, gentle passes, each kiss lingering just a heartbeat longer than the last before they gradually deepened.
It felt tentative at first, as though the two of you were still asking permission after all this time.
But the nerves and hesitation didn't last too long. Not when he started deepening the kiss, and you met him just as eagerlyâchasing every kiss with one of your own.
Your hands eventually slipped from around his shoulders to thread through the soft curls at the back of his hair, gently tugging him closer.
A quiet, satisfied groan rumbled in the back of his throat at that feeling.
The sound sent warmth blooming through your chest, and before you knew it, his own hands had settled firmly against your waist. His fingers spread across your sides as he kept you closeâmaking sure that what little space remained was nonexistent between your bodies.
A soft gasp escaped your lips, and then goosebumps erupted across your skin as memories of your life before rushed straight to your core with the way he held you.
You forgot how intoxicating he was.
Against every promise you'd made yourself swear over and over that first night, you found yourself leaning into him even moreâdeepening the kiss until your lips slowly parted against his.
He answered almost instantly, his own breath hitching before he met you halfway, kissing you with years of longing and need for more.
Eventually, your arms slid farther around his neck as he carefully guided the two of you backward until your ass met the patio railing. The cold, rain-slick metal pressed through your jeans, pulling a quiet moan from the sensation between kisses.
"There's that sweet sound..." he murmured, smirking against your lips.
His mouth drifted from yours, brushing a trail of featherlight kisses along your cheek before following the familiar line of your jaw. He lingered there, unhurried, as though reacquainting himself with every part of you he'd spent years yearning to get back to.
When his lips reached the sensitive spot just below your ear, you felt his lips smile again.
"Mm..." he murmured against your skin, his voice low and warm. "You still wear that perfume I got ya..."
The words alone were enough to make your heart stumble and your knees weak.
Your hand reached behind you to grip the slick metal railing for balance while the other disappeared into the soft curls at the back of his neckâyour fingers instinctively combing through them to hold him where he was.
You meant to answer himâyou really did, but all that you could manage was the smallest nod followed by a breathless sound that barely resembled a response.
After all, how could he expect you to possibly think straight? Not when his lips were on you like that. Not when his voice sounded that low, and it felt this good to be back in his arms. Not when you heard your name whispered in your ear with that familiar southern drawl.
You began to lose track of time itself as the moment stretched effortlessly between your neck and his lipsâthat was until a loud bang exploded somewhere below, causing you both to jolt.
Even after years of training, basic instinct took over before either of you could think.
You broke the kiss first, instinctively planting a firm hand against Jack's chest as you pushed him back just enough to create space to react if needed. Your eyes immediately scanned the surrounding area while his hand instinctively moved toward the holster at his side.
For one tense heartbeat, neither of you breathed.
But then came the cheering, the laughter, the music, and another loud crack that sounded suspiciously like a firecracker.
You both looked over the railing at the same time, hearts hammering in your chests to see the crowd had gathered in the streets below, pointing up toward you.
Several people wolf-whistled and cheered, others erupted into applause. Someone shouted something completely unintelligible to your ears but from below, was immediately followed by another chorus of cheers.
You blinked once before letting out an embarrassed laugh at what they mustâve been watching beforehand. "Oh my God..."
Jack looked down at the crowd before slowly turning back to you, his lips swollen from your kisses, his hair adorably disheveled from your fingers.
He looked completely dazed but utterly happy with that crooked grin spread across his face.
"Seems we were givin' 'em quite the show," he teased.
Heat rushed into your cheeks and all you could do was reach your cold hands up to cover your face. "I think they're enjoying it more than we may have been."
"Mm, thatâs doubtful. I was enjoyinâ it very much." He smirked as he stepped closer again, moving slowly this time, giving you every opportunity to stop him if it was too public or fast.
Instead, you stayed exactly where you at and hummed before murmuring. âMe too.â
His lips brushed your temple then your cheek, before his fingers gently pinched your chin, coaxing your gaze back up toward his.
"Now, where was I?" he whispered.
Before you could think of something witty to say, he kissed you again. His lips moving softly and patiently against yoursâlike he had all the time in the world.
You smiled into the kiss almost immediately, melting against him as naturally as it felt to breathe.
It began with the same tenderness as before, but neither of you could ignore the pull between you for long as the kiss gradually deepened once more, every lingering touch carrying years of unspoken yearning and longing for the other.
Your hands wandered everywhere they could reachâaround his neck, through his hair, against the steady rise and fall of his chest, at his waist and bicep to pull him closerâsimply needing him as close to you as possible.
Jack was the same only one hand settled at your hip while the other traced gently up your back before cradling your cheek or the back of your neck againâas though he couldn't decide where he wanted to hold you most.
âIâve missed you,â He smiled against your lips as he pulled away only for a moment to whisper. "So much, baby."
The admission stole what little composure you had left and it probably looked ridiculous from below.
You could only imagine it: the sight of two secret government agents, standing on a hotel balcony, in the middle of Mardi Gras, like teenagers stealing kisses behind the school bleachers.
But the more you thought about it, the less you couldn't have cared.
Just as Jackâs lips kissed yours again, lightning flashed across the skyâfollowed by a thunderous boom that rolled through the city a second later. It vibrated the city beneath your feet and startling you enough to pull away.
Jack's lips chased yours instinctively before he laughed under his breath. âMm, waitâŚâ
You giggled at him, your forehead resting briefly against his as you breathed. "Maybe we..."
He managed to steal one more slow, lingering kiss before you nudged your nose against his and bit your bottom lip to hold yourself back from leaning in again.
"...Maybe we should head back inside if the storm's heading this way." you murmured, sliding your hands down his chest to land at his sides.
His thumbs began tracing slow, absentminded circles against your hips while he admired you with a look you'd almost forgottenâone filled with nothing but quiet adoration.
He nudged your nose back before taking a careful step toward the hotel door, bringing you with himâcareful not to let you go.
"So..." he murmured, smiling. "Does this mean we're pullin' a late night?"
You bit your lower lip, unable to hide your smile as you leaned back into himâwhispering against his lips, "This means..." You kissed him once. "...I'd like you..." Another kiss, this one slower. "...to spend the night."
Jack let out a quiet groan the moment your lips met his again. "Baby," he breathed with a grin, "you don't gotta ask me twice."
Without breaking from your lips, he reached behind himself until his hand found the door knob. He twisted it open, and the two of you stumbled inside together, tangled in one another's arms and laughing softly between stolen kisses.
You were quick to reach behind and kick the door shut just as your backs bumped into the table the two of you had been working at only moments before.
The file folder that Jack had just cleaned upâfilled with maps, photographs, and case notes threatened to slide toward the edge.
Jack's hand shot back on instinct, catching the nearest stack before anything could fall off the table again.
"Canât be makinâ another mess now, can we?" he muttered with a chuckle as he felt your hands slide slowly up his chest.
You laughed against his lips as you slowed down your kissâgently nipping his bottom lip as you hummed, âMm-mmâÂ
He groaned and slipped both hands around your waist, effortlessly lifting you onto the edge of the table before stepping between your kneesânot once did his lips leave yours.Â
You continued to kiss him, your fingers messing through his hair, his hands wrapping possessively around your waist or occasionally around your thighs to pull you closer to his waist.
He began to get a little eager and passionate with his kisses. You instinctively leaned back on your hand to hold you up, matching the energyâonly for it to land on a file folder and slipâsending the folder to the ground, papers and photos scattering across the floor.Â
Jack pulled back just enough to mumble, glancing at the nearby floor, quietly chuckling at the mess just made. âDamn itâŚâ
You felt him move back just slightly, like he was about to leave you to clean up the mess. You knew he knew how you were about case files being taken care of and preserved.Â
It shocked him when you quickly leaned back in and tugged at his shirt, wanting his focus back on you.Â
âMm, no⌠leave it.â You purred, moving your hand slowly up his chest to thread your fingers back in his hair, pulling him back to your lips. âI want you right where you areâŚâÂ
He stopped his motion and noddedâthat boyish grin coming back for a moment before he crashed back onto your lips.
His voice was husky and low as he cooed as kisses started to build back up. âTell me where else you want me...âÂ
âWhy donât you wing it, Agent WhiskeyâŚâ You purred between kisses, ââŚwhere do you think I want you?â
Jack had a small growl escape his lips and before either of you knew itâyou were back to tongues tangling and heated breathing as you devoured each other.
Jackâs hands at one point climbed slowly up your thighs and then tightly gripped them to pull your core closer to hisâand that small motion was all it took for your flood gates to open.Â
You moaned feeling the growing member pressing up against his jeans, feeling him begin to rock himself against you as he dragged his lips down to your neckâbeginning to suck hard enough to leave love marks.Â
You couldnât help the sounds that came out of you as you panted with your eyes fluttering shutâunable to mutter a single word with how entranced you felt under his spell.Â
âMm, I missed those sweet moans...â He murmured before kissing slowly up to your earlobeâor in other words, your weakness.Â
You couldnât help the small, helpless moan when he pulled it between his lips and went to softly suck on it.
You giggled as you instantly blushed madly and your hand shot down to his shoulder to push him back. You rolled your head to look at him, cheeks bright red and pupils just as blown as his.Â
âYou know thatâs off limits.â You warned, your voice shy.
He barely listened, as he could only watch your lips more than anything. His tongue slid between his lips before his grip on your thigh tightened, his gaze darkening as he felt your hand slowly move from his shoulderâfurther down his body.Â
âIs there⌠anything else off limits tonight?â He drawled as his hands moved to your waist, already preparing for your answer.Â
Your fingers danced lightly against his belt buckle as you held onto your answer for a moment longer than necessaryâteasing him in any way you possibly could.Â
You thoughtfully hummed as you gazed between your bodies before your finger slid beneath his waistbandâmaking his stomach suck in just a tad and a low growl erupt from his chest.Â
âBabyâŚâ He warned, his grip tightening around your waist, holding himself back until you gave him the okay.
And boy did you know that.
You knew how respectable he was. How he always needed consentâeven after being with each other for as long as you had beenâhe never made a move if there was any hesitation from you.Â
You grinned as you leaned forward to peck his jawline before laying heavier kisses as you moved down to his neck, then to his pulse point.Â
His breath became slightly faster and erratic, and now he was the one to have his eyes flutter shut as your lips and tongue made their mark on his skin.Â
âFuckâŚâ He whined, a little needier than he would have liked to sound.
However, for you, that little sound fueled you even more as your hand slowly began undoing his buckle as you continued marking his neck.Â
The moment his belt was undone, you murmured as you grinned against his skin. âYou know my limits...âÂ
Jack groaned as he pulled back to gently nudge your jaw to the side with the bridge of his nose.
He began gently kissing your jaw and neck as he asked, his voice filled with need. âAre you sure? You donât wanna take things slow?âÂ
Your breathing picked up again as you grinned to yourself. You bit your bottom lip to hold back a moan as he started to glide his tongue over your pulse point.
You felt his arm wrap around your lower back and the other start to slide beneath your assâsomething he did when he was about to lift you. Your body reacted out of pure habit, and your arm moved to wrap around his shoulders to hold on.
You moved one of your hands to cup his cheek, pulling his attention and lips back towards yours. You kissed him slowly and deeply a couple of times before pulling back enough that your breath mingled with his to whisper. âDo you really think I want to take things slow?âÂ
He grinned, and his head shook slightly against yours, your noses barely touching before he whispered back. âJudginâ by the way my neck is all marked up? No, maâam, it does notâŚâÂ
You both chuckled and stayed there for another second before you leaned back in and kissed him deeply, lips lingering on each pass for a few seconds before the next.
Jack lifted you effortlessly from the table after a few slow kissesâtaking you to the bed.Â
He carefully laid you on your back before you both began undressing each other and yourselves between kisses.
Eventually you were both bare before each otherâyou laid there giggling as Jack carefully removed your jeans from your legs.Â
He stood at the foot of the bed, naked and exposedâin his most vulnerable stateâand couldnât help but pause and admire the beauty that you were before him. How you had always been the most breathtaking woman in every room. How after years the years spent apart, you were still as he remembered you on that last night together.Â
He gently rubbed the inside of your ankle with his thumb as his eyes slowly made their way up your body.Â
âI could never bring myself to feel for anyone else the way I feel for youâŚâ He admitted quietly, almost like he didnât know he said it outloud.Â
You moved to sit up on the backs of your elbows. Your hair fell over your shoulders and barely onto your breasts with the way you tilted your head to the side as you watched him.Â
âSo there were others?â You asked softlyânot an ounce of judgement or hurt in your voiceâmore like curiosity.Â
Jack blinked, finding your eyes and swallowed nervouslyâfeeling slightly guilty for something he knew you didnât hold him responsible for. Didnât mean it didnât feel wrong. If anything, it felt dirty and unfaithfulâin some way disloyal to you.
âYes.â He muttered quietly, âAnd, this isnât my business to ask of you, just becauseââ
âYes.â You answered before he could finish his sentence.Â
His jaw tightened and his thumb stopped against your ankle for a moment before it started again. âDid youâŚâ he paused, worried he was about to ask something heâd regret.Â
You leaned further up to where you were now sitting up fully and held out your hand for him to takeâextending it as a gesture of love and respect as you pressed for him to continue. âDid I, whatâŚ?âÂ
You saw his features and body language immediately change the second he saw your hand. A small smile creeped up the corners of his mouth and he somehow softened in a way only you could understand.Â
He reached for your hand and leaned forward to kiss your knuckles before he began to crawl up the bed to meet you as you slowly laid back down the closer he got.Â
He finally came to lay on his side next to you, keeping your fingers laced with hisâkeeping then close to his lips as he gently kissed your knuckles while he thought of the words he wanted to say.Â
He started slowly, keeping this gaze on your fingers laced with hisâhis voice small and shy. âDid you fall in love with any of them?â
You smiled at his fixation on your hands togetherâso you used it to your advantage. You pulled them to your lips and kissed them, effectively pulling his attention back to your gaze.Â
âI never could stomach more than a night with someone else.â Another kiss to his thumb as you chuckled to yourself. âAnd that was if we spent the night together. Most of the men that tried to hit on me or take me out drove me insaneâŚâÂ
Jack chuckled and brushed his thumb over yours before he reached with his other hand and tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear. Your gaze snapped up to his and for a moment you both just took up the space you were in togetherâcommitting it to memory.Â
He cupped your cheek after a few moments and caressed your cheek softly before murmuring. âIâm never letting you go again.âÂ
You melted into his soft hold and smiled as you whispered, taking your hand out of his and cupping his cheek on the opposite side. âNever again.âÂ
Jack pulled you slowly to his lips and kissed you deeply and passionatelyâlingering with each one for a few seconds longer than the last.Â
Your hand moved to lie across his chest as he moved to lie himself between your legs. He moved his hand down the side of your body before it came between your legs and pressed the back of your thigh back slightly to give him more room.Â
You gasped at the feeling of his cock sliding between your foldsâthe feeling sending heat straight to your cunt. You thought you were wet already? You were now going to be soaking.Â
Jack grunted at the feeling and pulled away from your lips to look downâresting his forehead against yoursâseeing the tip of his cock glistening from your seeping folds already.
He smirked as he dragged himself up and down your slitâcoating it more before tapping it against your clit, âGod baby, youâre always so wet for meâŚâÂ
Your cheeks bloomed a deep pink as soft moans escaped between breaths. âYou know what you do to meâŚâÂ
Jack pressed into your entrance for only a moment before drawing back out, teasing you now that he had you like this.Â
You gripped his biceps and gasped at the sudden stretch, then the absence of him. How there was an ache of how much you missed feeling him like thisâand how it came rushing back.Â
âJackâŚâ You whined along with a needy moan as one of your hands slinked between your bodies, slowly wrapping around his shaftâreintroducing yourself to the girth and sheer sweet length of him made you moan softly.Â
âPleaseâŚâ You whimpered as you attempted to glide him back inside you, only to get barely the tip in before he pulled himself back out. He gently wrapped his hand around your wrist and kissed your collarbone to coax your hand to release him.
âShh, I promise to make it worth the waitâŚâ He murmured against your skin as your hand came back to rest on his shoulder.
He took his cock back and slowly dragged himself up and down your slit, achingly slow, one final time before perching himself at your entrance.
He kissed your collarbone again up to your jaw, then your cheek, before gently nudging your nose to ask. âAre you going to be a good girl and take me all in one go?âÂ
âYes.â Your breath mingled with his as you nodded, your voice filled with need.
He looked down and watched your pretty little pussy hungrily as he hesitated for just a moment before he looked back up, and his lips barely grazed yours as his eyes searched your face to tell him to stop or perhaps this wasn't real.
But when it didn't come, he leaned inâcapturing your lips as he kissed youâslowly, deeply, and with a warmth that wrapped around every fractured piece of your heart.
He stole your breath away with effortless ease, only to give it back through the quiet tenderness of his touch as he slowly sank himself into your heat.Â
You both moaned and pulled away from each other's lipsâunable to concentrate on something as simple as kissing.Â
Your mouth fell open, gasping at the way you stretched around him.
Jack felt his knees slightly give at the sensationâit was almost euphoric. Underneath your fingertips, you felt goosebumps scatter across his skinâthe man becoming completely undone.
âFuck, I missed how well you take me.â He let out a low grunt, his voice strained as he fully buried himself inside you.Â
Your breath was quick and light, moans falling out as you exhaled.
âGod, I forgot how thick you are. Fuckâyou feel so good.â You mewled as you began moving your hips just slightly to grind against him.Â
Jack could only produce a guttural growl at your movements. No more than a couple swirls and wordless groans, and his hand firmly came to grab at your hips, stopping your movements.
âMm, babyâyou gotta stop that, or Iâm not gonna last much longer.âÂ
You bit your bottom lip, biting back a giggle before moving your hand up to thread your fingers through the back of his hair as you whined. "But it felt so good..."
His grip tightened as he grunted, his eyes closing to refocus himself before muttering. "A little too good."
You gasped another moan at the feeling of his hips drawing back. âMm, wait, don't stop. Please, I need to feelââÂ
Your words were robbed, and a tiny squeak was the only thing that escaped your throat as Jack fully withdrewâonly to sink back in immediately, faster this time.
He smirked, rolling your hips a littleâhis tip rubbing against the deepest part of you as he muttered. âWhat was that, hm? You need me to move my what?âÂ
You let out a needy, stretched-out moan, body arching against his as you breathed. âPleaseâŚâÂ
âSay it.â He insisted and did it again, but this time slower, much slower.
When you didn't answer and could only moan, he reached around your thigh and pushed it back to open you upâto get deeper before he did it again.
Only this time his forehead was pressed against yours; this time his groans mingled against your breathless moans and whimpers. This time it was more deliberate in making you feel every inch.
This time it was a clear, intentional effort to tease you to the brink of begging for more. And fuck did it work.Â
You mewled as your cunt tightened around him. The immediate flush of pure ecstasy coursed through your veins the moment his tip reentered your pussy.Â
God could only help you as you couldnât help the desperate, filthy noises that came from your throat with every inch he sunk back into you.Â
"I need you to say it, baby," Jack whispered, his movements slowing until they came to a complete stop.Â
When you didn't answer right awayâonly letting out a quiet, trembling breathâhe hummed, pleased with how easy it still was to completely melt you like this. How you were already a mess, and heâd barely begun.Â
He slowly moved his lips against your skin, down to your chin, where he lightly nipped before peppering a few lingering kisses there, each one gentler than the lastâgiving you a moment to recover.
"Tell me what you need," he murmured, his voice warm and impossibly patient. "Tell me how I can take care of you... how I make up for lost time..."Â
You couldn't speak, let alone barely think. Your thoughts had unraveled somewhere between how he looked at you and the way he felt so deep inside you. It left you unable to form so much as a single coherent word.
All that you knew was one thing. One thing you knew heâd understand and want as much as you did: feed into the quiet ache of staying as close to each other as possible.
You went to speak but found yourself catching your bottom lip between your teeth, tryingâand failingâto steady the shaky, slightly pathetic whimper that escaped you as his hips flexed enough to move a fraction inside you.
So instead of trying to get out a string of words, your hand rose to cradle his cheek. Your thumb brushed softly over his bottom lip before you gently drew him back to your lips and began kissing him deeply.
Jack answered without hesitation, melting into you as though he understood you without a word being utteredâlike understanding you was the easiest thing in the world.Â
The room around you and the outside storm faded as his hips began thrusting again slowly. It faded until there was nothing left but shared breaths, quiet moans, and the unhurried tenderness of simply being together like this again.
When he finally deepened the kiss, it was slow and deliberate as his tongue slid between your lips and began dancing with yours. Your hands moved slowly down to his waist and pulled him closerâas if he could get any closer than he wasâespecially with the tip of his cock steadily hitting your cervix with each pass of his hips.Â
âFuck, youâre doing so good for me.â He rasped, pulling back from your lips to nudge your head to the side with the tip of his nose.Â
You tilted your head up and to the side as he began kissing down your body. âI thinkâFuck, Iâm going to cumâŚâ You panted, fingers barely curling against his waist as you started to feel that coil tighten.Â
âYeah? You gonna cum for me?â He mumbled as he squeezed your thigh, lips dragging down to your sternum.Â
Your chest heaved up and down as you felt an intense heat start to pool in your stomach. Your hands shot to the sheets beneath you as you whined over and over, âMhm, donât stop. God, pleaseâdonât stop.âÂ
âYouâre so fucking hot when you make those noises.â Jack cooed as his hand slowly moved from the back of your thigh to between your bodies. His thumb pressed against the bud of your clit, which was enough for a soft cry to escape from you.Â
Your back arched slightly off the mattress, and your breath got caught in the back of your throat as he began slow circles on the bundle of nerves. He grinned and continued the rhythm you requested while drawing slow, aching circles, moving his lips down to your breasts.Â
He began gently nipping at your nipple before he sucked it between his teeth and flicked his tongue at the bud. Between that and what he was doing to your clit, you couldnât help but let out a loud, unrestrained cry as you pulsed around him. Your fingers gripped the sheets tightly, and your thighs quivered against his body in absolute pleasure as you came. Â
He hummed, satisfied at the way you completely came undoneâbut didnât let up.
No, instead he pressed on your clit slightly harder and started rubbing counterclockwise. His hips also changed pace and began pumping a bit harder and fasterânot allowing the wave to come downâno, he wanted it to climb higher.Â
âO-Ohfuckfuckââ You cried out, voice breaking. Your hips began involuntarily grinding against him, needing sweet release. Your body felt intense shockwaves erupt with each pump of his cock against that sweet spot he continued to be hit over and over and over again.Â
âMm, thatâs it. Give me more...â Jack groaned against your breast. However, instead of encouraging your movements, he turned his hand's placement from the inside of your thigh to the top of your pelvis to keep your movements stillâhis thumb never missing a beat on your clit.
You gasped and loudly whined from the intensity. Your voice became helpless and needy as you begged. âJ-Jack, please! Please, itâs too much!âÂ
Just as he was about to allow that sweet crash to happenâyou made the stupid mistake of trying to get away.
You planted your feet into the mattress and pushed off and back only an inchâthe pleasure almost too much to bear after not having it for so long. You werenât used to it like before.Â
Jack caught you by your hip and pulled you right back where he had you. A growl escaped him as he sat up to kneel between your legs, as he continued to thrust at the same pace. âMm, where do you think youâre goinâ?âÂ
You looked up, your vision slightly blurred, to see his body glistening with a thin layer of sweat as he knelt there. His own chest was heaving as his own groans and grunts graced the room, coming closer and closer to his own orgasm.Â
âI canâtâfuck!â You gasped sharply as his thumb released pressure just enough that it sent another shock barreling through your body. You gripped the sheets beside your head and pressed your head back, arching your chest up, as your eyes rolled back and jaw fell open.Â
A broken, shaky moan came out as you pleaded. âGoddamnit, Jack, pleaseâŚâÂ
He could see the way your stomach contracted and felt how you clenched around him with each deep stroke. He knew it was too much, but fuck, he loved making you feel this good.
"Mm, fuck you're beautiful when you're wrapped around my cock, baby." He smirked as he watched you, enjoying the show. He drank in the image of your tits perked and marked up by him. How they bounced every time his cock fucked into that pretty little pussy.Â
He looked down at that next.Â
He grunted as he could see how much his cock was coated in your cum. How easily it slid in and out of you, like he was made for you.
âFuck, look at you, baby. Look how fucking beautiful this pussy is when I'm opening you up so nicely.â He moaned before his gaze flicked up to find you cupping your breasts, fingers pinching your nipplesâdoing anything for some release.Â
He growled and moved both hands to your hips before fucking you harder and faster than beforeâwanting to be the one to give you the release you needed.Â
âFuckfuckfuckââ He muttered through clenched teeth, trying to keep himself from cumming himself.Â
You didnât need much more before that wave youâd been riding came crashing downâhard and fast.
Your hand shot up against the headboard while the other shot to his wrist as you cried out loudlyâyour body quivering in absolute and electrifying pleasure.Â
âAh, fuck babyââ Jack grunted as you pulsed around him, drawing him in deeper.Â
He waited as long as he could to give you what you needed before quickly withdrawing himselfâfalling back onto his heels with his cock still hard in his grip, his own chest heaving and flushed.Â
You whimpered at the sudden absence of him and barely was able to lift your head off the pillow. Your vision was slightly blurred, but you found him stroking himself slowly.
The sight was one of the hottest images youâd ever seen, but made you also question: why the hell did he pull out?
âJack? You ok?â You panted, out of breath and still coming down from your high.Â
He sat up on his knees and nodded toward you as his voice was low and husky as he instructed firmly. âGet on your hands and knees for me.âÂ
You bit your lip and somehow managed the strength to turn around on your belly before weakly pulling your knees up and under yourself, then arching your backâputting yourself just how you knew he liked.Â
He continued to stroke himself as he moved up and over your legs to align himself behind you on his knees.Â
He hummed, dissatisfied, when you werenât at the exact angle he wanted. He saw you could barely hold yourself up, so he grabbed the meat of your hips and pulled you up a little more. Next, he reached up near your head and grabbed a pillowâgently sliding it underneath your stomach.Â
âHow does that feel now, sweetheart?â He quietly asked as he kissed your shoulder, kneading the soft flesh of your waist as he made his way back behind you.Â
âMm, much better.â You purred, smiling into the sheets as you felt him kiss your spine.
Less than a moment later, you gasped at the feeling of him sliding through your slit, but before he did anything further, you glanced at him over your shoulder.
You barely shook your ass side to side to tease him as you asked. âDo you want my arms up or down?âÂ
Jack grinned at your attempt, the action always obvious with you.
He tilted his head to the same side you were looking over before lightly tapping his tip at your slit as he shook his head. âI want you to stay right where I have you.â Â
He bit his lip, knowing how good this was going to feelâfor both of you.
âI want you to keep your eyes on me, yes?â He requested as he spit into his hand and stroked himself a few more times.Â
You nodded again, too shocked to speak.
He didn't wait for words as he guided himself back into your warmth. He also didnât take it slow like earlier, didnât tease, didnât play gamesâhe just buried himself as deep as your weeping cunt would allow.Â
Your brows pinched together, and your jaw fell open as your breath was completely stolen againâthen another loud, sweet, needy moan escapedâsending a warmth straight to his core.Â
You couldnât do anything but grip the sheets beneath you and arch your ass up more, feeling him deeper than before. He was deep enough and at an angle that stole the breath from your lungs with each thrust. He was able to hit that sweet spot of your cervix that had always made you see stars.Â
âFuck thatâs good.â He moaned, moving his hands onto the mattress beside you to hold himself up.Â
âGod, youâre so deepâŚâ You mewled, feeling him continue to hit your cervix again and againâmore than ever before.Â
He would pull his hips back just enough to stop before the tip pulled out, before plunging himself right back in. The rhythm stole your breathâenough that when you exhaled, a choked back moan would come singing out.Â
He grunted and panted as he began to build up speed before finding a steady rhythm that had you both grunting and moaningâthe dirtiest sounds bouncing off the walls.Â
âYouâre so tight like this, baby. Always takinâ me so wellâŚâ He grunted before reaching forward and wrapping his hand around the bottom part of your jaw and part of your neck.
You moaned louder and grinned sinfully before he pulled you up to look at him as he continued thrusting into you. Your eyes rolled back as he sped up a bitâonly for him to lean down and sloppily kiss you upside down.Â
Fuck thatâs hot.
You lost yourselves in one anotherâtrading lingering kisses and shared breaths that turned into moans with each thrust. Your tongues eventually slipped into each other's mouths or small nips at the other's lips.Â
After a few minutes, you couldnât hold yourself up and fell back onto the sheets, crying into the mattress as you felt that coil start to tightly wind as he began thrusting a bit harder than before, chasing his own high.Â
âFuckfuckfuckâŚâ You sobbed as you heard the sloppy, wet sounds of his hips hitting against your pussy.Â
Jack was close, but he wanted to give you one more before he came. He was determined to give you at least that.Â
âCan you give me one more, baby?â He cooed as he leaned down to kiss your shoulder, moaning as you arched your back and pressed your ass back against him.Â
You nodded and began rocking back against him, using each other's friction to bring you both closer to release.
You held a nearby pillow close, using it to muffle your moans as you feared they were becoming too loud.Â
Jack reached up to grab it, wanting to hear every little sound from youâonly for the ring of your phone on the nightstand to pull his attention away.Â
He stalled his hips for a brief moment to lean forward to grab it before continuing his thrusts as he looked at the contact displayed.
He grinned as he held it, his thumb hovering over the answer button. âLooks like Gin is calling for a pre-flight update!"Â
You whined and shook your head rapidly into the pillow, knowing you were about to cum at any momentâespecially with how deep he kept hitting. âF-Fuck noâl-let it go to voicemailâŚâÂ
âMm, heâs going to want an update before he boards his plane.â He smirked, continuing to thrust into you at an aching pace that was starting to make your vision blur. âHere, let me answer it for you!âÂ
You moaned softly before you realized what heâd said.
âNo no no! Wait, wait, wait, JackââÂ
Jack tutted as you pleaded, slowing his thrusts just enough to drive you crazy before his thumb hit the answer and speaker buttonâtossing it next to you on the pillow.Â
You couldnât help the moan that slipped out just as the phone was tossed next to you.Â
âHello? Brandy? You there?âÂ
You swallowed down another moan and nodded into the pillow, unable to form a single word.Â
âAgent? Can you hear me?â Gin asked from the other side of the line.Â
Jack grunted before he withdrew himself completely, his tip perched at his entrance before plunging himself back inside, quietly groaning before whispering. âSpeak up baby, he canât hear you...âÂ
You cried out into the pillow before lifting the phone to your ear, breathlessly whimpering, âY-Yeah, I'm here. I can hear youâŚâÂ
Gin either didnât hear or pick up on anything as he continued, clueless. âGreat! Look sorry to call so late. Wasnât sure if youâd still be awake.âÂ
You hummed, barely holding on to your sanity as Jack continued at a relentless pace behind you but managed to shakily respond. âY-Yeah, Iâm awake... W-We were just going through some uhmââÂ
You suddenly gasped and whimpered as he hit that soft spongy spot deep within as he pulled your hips up a fraction.
You quickly covered your mouth with your free hand and shoved the speaker into the pillow to muffle it before moaning into your palm.  Â
Ginâs voice carried on as you continued to moan into your palm and the pillow. âListen, I was just calling to check in. Champagne advised me there might be a bit ofâŚtension between you and the one we got assigned with? Some fella named, Whiskey?âÂ
You cried into the pillow as Jack reached under your pelvis and began rubbing your clitâpurposely pressing every button he could to break you.Â
âN-No⌠things are fineâŚâ You whimpered, clenching the phone to your ear as you stuttered. âJackâI mean uhmâAgent W-Whiskey and I are getting along just fine.âÂ
Jack grinned proudly as he continued rubbing his fingers against the bud, your pussy tightening more and more.Â
âAh well, thatâs great to hear!â Ginâs voice sounded pleasantly surprised. There was a pause, and then he continued. âNow, donât get mad at me, but I read up on his profile and saw heâs the one you worked with a few years back. Is that right?âÂ
Jack pressed his fingers a little harder and rubbed a little faster at the end of Ginâs question, making you moan out loud. âY-Yes! Yes, that's him!âÂ
âWhoa! Agent, you doinâ alright?â Gin asked, sounding slightly concerned.
You shamefully continued to whimper through your response. âOh yeah, yeah! No, Iâm fâIâm fine!â You panted, softly whimpering as you tried to think of a viable excuse for the noises you were making.Â
âBrandy?â Gin pressed.Â
âIâm fine justâŚâ You gasped down a moan before you rambled off. âJustâgoing for a run! Clearing my head!âÂ
You shoved your head into the pillow as you moaned uncontrollably only to hear Gin chuckle. âJeez, how far are you runninâ? You sound like youâre in painâŚâÂ
âT-Trust me, Iâm n-not in pain!â You whimpered into the pillow, edging closer and closer to cumming.Â
âOkayâŚâ Gin said, not completely convinced by the sounds he could barely hear. âWell, are we good to go for tomorrow? Is there anythinâ I should bring to help us out? Any equipment from Gingerâs stock pile?âÂ
âUhmmââ You whimpered as you lifted your head from the pillow, trying to think of something to say to get him off the phone without sounding any more suspicious. But just as you were about to respond, Jack reached around underneath your jaw again and pulled you back up to his lips to kiss you like before.Â
You both moaned and whimpered as he continued to thrust in and out of you. You could hear Ginâs voice from the phone that was now forgotten on the pillow as Jackâs tongue was nearly down your throat.
âBrandy? Hello? Ageeent? You there?â Gin said in a singsong voice like he wasnât sure if the line dropped the call.
Jack let you go after hearing Gin ask, âJeez, did the line drop?âÂ
You fell back to the pillow, drunk on him and a mess. But you felt a tightness and warmth building rapidly behind your belly button and couldn't help but slightly panic as you held the phone back up to your ear.
You whimpered before shakily stuttering. âS-Sorry Gin⌠Iâm g-going to have to call you back when I get backâfuck... back to the hotel!â Then you hung up the phone and dropped your head into the pillow as you loudly cried out in absolute pleasure.Â
Jack leaned back onto his hand to hover against your back and kissed your shoulder as he whimpered, coming close to his peak as well. âFuck baby, that was hot.âÂ
You sobbed into the pillow, âThat was riskyâthat wasâŚâÂ
Jack reached back around your pelvis and began rapidly rubbing your clit at a pace that made you forget the English language all together. You cried out into the pillow as your orgasm rippled throughout your body.Â
âFuckfuckfuck! I'm cuming, Iâm cumingââ You gasped as your thighs shook and your legs immediately gave outâmaking you melt beneath him.Â
Jack wasnât too far behind as he managed to hold up with his arm that was already between your legs. He sped up the pace as you pulsed around him with a pressure that can only be described as intoxicating. Â
His hips stalled, and his knees buckled as he spilled deep inside you. A few soft guttural moans escaped him as he rested his teeth lightly against your shoulder.Â
You reached around and threaded your fingers through his hair, holding him close as you softly cried, beginning to come down.
Jack began feverishly kissing your shoulder, moving your hair to the side to kiss the soft spot on the back of your neck as he groanedâcoming down as well.
âI missed you⌠fuck, I missed you, baby.â He murmured across your skin between long kisses across your back and shoulder.Â
You panted, out of breath, but couldnât help the smile that pulled at the corners of your mouth as you listened to his words. Your fingers combed through his hair as you hummed in response. âI fear I forgot how⌠I cannot use my legs for a good long while afterwards...â Â
You both chuckled together before Jack tucked a strand of hair behind your ear and kissed the inner part of your shoulder.Â
âI guess itâs a good thing Gin thought you were on an intense run if you suddenly have issues with walking tomorrow...âÂ
You giggled and nodded, turning slightly underneath to be able to see him more. âI can only hope and pray he believed me.âÂ
Jack chuckled a little louder at that and slowly pulled out of you with a quiet hiss before he laid beside you.Â
âHm, we donât have to worry. Gin ainât the brightest bulb in the Statesmen.â He said with a boyish grin as he looked up at the ceiling, his chest still heaving.Â
You hummed and turned to lay on your side, tucking your hand under your cheek as you faced him. âYou donât need to tell me that. He carries a⌠certain reputation around the office, especially lately.âÂ
He turned his head to you and smiled before turning to face you, reaching out to lightly caress your arm with his finger tips. âWhy do you think I requested to work with you first then have him show up to wrap things up?â Â
You gasped and lightly shoved his chest, acting offended. âSo the truth comes out, huh? This was all your doing!âÂ
Jack chuckled but then something softer settled between you as his fingers trailed up your arm to your cheek. He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear before cupping your cheek and moving in closerâleaning in to press his forehead to yours.Â
âYeah⌠but, I donât regret itânot for one second. Now that I have you, Iâm never lettinâ you go.â He quietly promised.Â
You put your hand on his and closed your eyes as you leaned into him. âNeither am IâŚâÂ
Jack took in the sight that you were in front of him and couldn't find any words other than, âYou know, I've loved you since our second mission together?âÂ
You opened your eyes to that, slightly shocked, but couldnât help the warmth and smile that gave youâthe memories it brought.Â
âReally? What did it for you back then? That horrible posh accent I had to do for a week or that ridiculous puffy dress I had to wear to that banquet?â You questioned, softly giggling under your breath.Â
Jack smiled and shrugged as he also reminisced. âI will say that dress was one to remember⌠and not in a good way."
You both chuckled and shook your head, remembering that night.
But then he hummed and smirked. "But that accent you had? Baby⌠you know I felt about it.âÂ
You bit your bottom lip and ran your fingers through his hair, combing back the mess youâd made. âYes, yes. You were the only one that fancied it.â You teased in that same ridiculous accent.Â
Jack's nose brushed yours as a low groan escaped his chest before he pulled you in by your waist.
He leaned in and kissed you slowly, lingering against your lips before he pulled back to murmur against your lips, âThereâs just... somethin' about it that makes you sound so innocent. Makes me want toââÂ
âMm, Iâm well aware of what the accent makes you do.â You purred in the same accent. You felt him pull your leg over his waist, and before you knew itâyou were straddling his hips.Â
He barely lifted his head off the mattress to continue to kiss you through the smooth maneuver of itâhis hand staying steady on your cheek.
You felt his already hardened cock sit nicely between your weeping folds before his hand on your thigh reached around and aligned himself back at your entrance.Â
You let out a soft moan as his hand moved down your body to land on your hip before he fed you down to sit on him.Â
You pressed against his chest to push him to lie down, softly nipping at his bottom lip before quietly whimpering as you fully seated yourself and stayed there.Â
âIf weâre going to do another round, we need to make it a fast one. Remember, I need to call Gin back.â You breathlessly moaned in your normal voice as you circled your hipsârubbing his tip against your cervix.Â
Jack grunted as he pulled his bottom lip between his teeth.Â
âMm, you want fast, baby?â He drawled as he couldnât help but watch your hips swirl. âSay all that again... with the accent.âÂ
You planted both of your hands on his thighs behind you and puffed out your chest to make your tits perk in a way that always drove him mad. You started rolling your hips, grinding up and down on his cock at an achingly slow pace as you repeated what you said, moaning sweetly in that accent he requested.Â
Jackâs jaw tightly clenched and his fingers gripped the meat of your waist as he moanedâhis eyes rolling back in pleasure. âF-Fuck me thatâs goodâŚâÂ
You let your head fall back, breathlessly moaning as you continued rolling your hips. âPleaseâŚâÂ
Jack growled at your plea and sat up with you in his lap, wrapping his arm around your lower back to keep you right where he wanted you. He then began quickly thrusting up into youâusing his other arm to hold himself up from behind.Â
Your nondominant arm moved quickly, wrapped around his shoulders but gripping tightly onto his bicep to hold yourself steady. Your other hand, tangled in his hair as you cried out broken moans, begging. âFuckfuckfuckâdonât stop, donât stop, donât fucking stop!âÂ
âYeah? That feel good, baby?â Jack growled and then began moaning as he completely ruined you.
He held you tightly against him; his face was buried in your tits as he took turns sucking on each of your nipples. With each thrust of his cock as it pounded up into youâyou let out this desperate whimper that made his body tense, and his mind completely mush as his climax barreled closer to release.Â
You werenât too far behind either.
It took no more than a minute or two before you clenched around him and sobbed into his hair as you cameâlegs shaking, breath caught in the back of your throat, intense heat pulsing in your core, heart pounding in your earsâtype of orgasm.Â
Jack nipped at the soft flesh of your breasts as you reached your peak, murmuring against your skin. âThatâs it baby... thatâs a good girlâŚâÂ
You whimpered and moaned, barely kissing his damp hair down to his temple, then to his cheekâpulling his lips up to your own.
Once you had access, you kissed him slowly and deeplyâmoaning quietly between each breath as you felt his hip become more erratic and messy.Â
"Cum for me, baby..." You purred in the accent between a kiss.
Jack grunted at that and pushed off the mattress. He brought his hand to thread through the back of your hair as he kissed you back, grunting and moaning louder, the higher he climbed.
He shivered, and his lips stalled against yoursâhis hips bucking up one last timeâbefore spilling again inside you with a deep groan.Â
You both stayed there for a moment, completely frozen by pleasure. Your lips brushed against each other, and hot breath mingled as your sticky bodies stayed close with each rise and fall of your chests.Â
It wasnât until his hips remembered to relax that you quietly moanedâfeeling him fall out of you. The sudden loss of him made you whine as you stole another deep and slow kiss from him.Â
He closed his eyes as he held you against his lips and hummed, tasting the salty sweetness of your upper lip before slowly lying back downâpulling you with him.Â
You followed as he fell, continuing to press lazy, slow kisses against his lips.
His arm loosened around your waist and his fingers lightly traced up your back and arms before lacing your hand with his as he pulled away. He kissed your knuckles as you moved to lay down next to himâputting your head on his chest.Â
You hummed and smiled as you watched the tenderness he gave you before you kissed his chest a few times.Â
âYou still gonna give Gin a call back?â He murmured against your knuckles.Â
You chuckled and nodded as you reached for your phone next to his head, sliding it open to pull up your contact list.Â
âI think as long as I speak normally, Iâve got a good few minutes before you wind yourself back up again.â You teased, scrolling to find Ginâs contact to dial.Â
Jack chuckled and let go of your hand the second you clicked the dial buttonâpulling your gaze up to his by gently pinching your chin.Â
His voice was husky and heavy as he warned, the phone ringing in your hand. âIâll give you a couple of minutes before I start makinâ my way down south to clean up my mess, mâkay?â Â
You swallowed and felt your cheeks immediately turn red before he pecked your lips once. He then sat up from the bed and walked to the bathroomâleaving you there, speechless and short circuiting with that response.
It wasn't until Gin's voice crackled through the receiver that you finally snapped back to reality.
You quickly cleared your throat and answered, unable to hide the smile tugging at your lips as you secretly hoped Jack would come back far sooner than he'd promised.
As reckless as it was, you couldn't deny the thrill that came with the risk.
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here's a rough draft sneak peek of chpt 8 of the way you see me
You donât remember half the drive it took to get from the diner to Harryâs. You know that most of it was spent speeding and barely getting through the intersections before the light turned red.
You were a complete whirlwind of emotions. A storm that was just getting angrier by the minute.
A storm that Harry had no idea was coming.
You untied your apron and violently threw it in the backseat before grabbing the letter that you had sitting in the center console. You slammed your car door shutâharder than you meant to, if you were being honestâbut your blood was boiling the more you those customer service reps words echoed in your head:
âOh, would you look at that! I see that a lump sum payment was made by an H. Castâwait, Iâm so sorry. It says the payee wished to remain anonymous.â
You huffed and puffed as you stormed up the driveway, muttering under your breath, âAnonymous? Why would he want to be anonymous, unless he knew what he was doing was wrong?â
You didnât waste a moment to take deep breathes or talk sense into yourself before you roughly pressed the doorbell. You took a small step backâfully preparing to have the first word as soon as that door opened.
What you didn't expect was for Harry to open his front door, holding his phone to his ear.
You noticed his tie was slightly loosened and his sleeves were rolled up to just below his elbows. Those words you had cocked and ready to shoot at him, instantly halting on the tip of your tongue.
However, for him, it wasn't more than a mere moment before a smile instantly warmed his featuresâespecially realizing it was you. The stress of the day heâd been having, instantly melted away.
"Look, Russell, if you give me an hour, I can have that contract sent to your assistant..." He said to the man on the other end before opening the door wider, moving aside to let you inânot realizing the energy you had seeping off of you as you stood there on his doorstep.
You took a deep breath as you stepped inside, trying to calm yourself.
"...and then you can just tell Eugene that the terms need to be amended by legal. He'll understand the delay with how anal he is." He continued as he shut the door behind you.
Your mind raced with a million different ways of what to say to him, how this might go, what this meant for you two if he did what you think he did.
You were so lost in your thoughts that he slightly startled you when he gently touched the small of your back, leaning in to kiss your cheek.
"Meet me in the kitchen. I'll just be a minute." He whispered to you, moving the phone away for a momentâcompletely oblivious and distracted by the man on the other end of the phone. He didn't notice how tightly you were gripping the strap of your bag, enough to make your knuckles white.
He certainly didn't notice the letter clenched in your other hand. Because if he did, he would have told Russell he had a bad connection or some bullshit excuse before he hung up and asked what was going on.
For once, he didn't notice anything due to the belief that nothing could go wrong when he had you in his life.
He pecked your cheek once more, his thumb rubbing a few gentle arches onto your backânot waiting for you to nod or say anything more before he walked back down the hall to his office, chuckling at what the gentleman on the other line said.
You stood there, unable to move. You felt like you might crack if you took off your shoes or jacket. You would let it go in the name of not wanting this comfort to end.
But you couldn't ignore this.
You refused to feel like you were yet again some project to fix, or that you and Jace were some charity case.
You didn't know how long it had been since he disappeared into his office, but when he came back out, smiling and humming to himselfâhe stopped dead in his tracks to see you unmoved.
"Baby? Is everything ok?" Harry asked, his smile slowly disappearing and brows furrowing.
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content warning: explicit content (18+ mdni), more under the cut.
A = Aftercare (what theyâre like after sex)
heâs gentle and careful. heâs up before you are, urging you to stay on the bed as he goes and retrieves a warm and wet towel to clean you up
and when he cleans the mess he made, harry focuses on the task at handâcompletely enamored with how you look lying naked on his bed.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerâs)
harry likes his eyes, always did. he knows how to use them too. soft and puppy like when he wanted you to forgive him for forgetting to pick up dinner, and stern and serious when he needed to speak with investors.
his favorite body part of his partnerâs would be your ass. especially in a pair boy shorts (paired with a thin tank top), walking around the penthouse like it didnât distract him.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
one of his favorite things is watching his come trickle out of you. it stills himâhis white spend pulsing out of you and dripping down your inner thighs.
oftentimes, heâd gather his release on the tip of his length to push it back inside of you. something possessive takes over him whenever he sees his cum leak out of you.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
heâd never admit it but he caught you one afternoon in his bed, watching porn with your hand between his legs. he stayed hidden behind the door, just watching and listening to the sounds of your pleasure as you got yourself off.
he knew youâd be embarrassed if he ever told you, but heâd be lying if he said he wasnât hoping for that same scenario every time he came home early.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyâre doing?)
absolutely. thereâs no doubt about it. ever since his leg lengthening surgery, harry had plenty of experience with a lot of women who finally started noticing him.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
itâs a cliche, but harryâs favorite position with you is missionary.
he loves feeling your legs wrap around his waist, pulling him closer. but the best thing about missionary is the fact that he could stare into your eyes, watch your face contort into pleasure. itâs intimate. and itâs real.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
harry is 100% serious in the moment. itâs not that he canât be goofy, but whenever youâre around, he canât help himself. itâs like something else takes over him.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
he does his best to groom himself. harry has always been an organized and neat person, so that extends to his grooming.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
eye contact. low groans. muttering how much you mean to him and how good you feel. he tries to get as close to you as possible, lips brushing your own, feeling your breath on his lips. heâs always been a hopeless romantic anyway.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
he masturbates quite regularly. especially when youâre away for a trip or a work event and you have to work late.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
harry has a breeding kink. when you told him that he cum inside you the first time, it was like a whole other world opened up for him. he started imagining you pregnantâhow beautiful youâd look. he also loves knowing that youâre walking around filled with his cum too.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
if he was being honest, he didnât necessarily have a favorite place⌠so long as itâs with you. but if he had to choose, heâd say the shower. he loves watching the water cascade down your body⌠and he loves it when he presses you up against the glass too.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
you. you. you. itâs easy to get him turned on whenever youâre around. itâs the small things you do tooâhow you bite your lower lip when youâre thinking, when youâre asleep on your side, one leg straightened out and the other bent forward to reveal your legs and ass, and even when youâre sitting on the sofa with a book in your hands and your hair pulled into a messy bun. as long as itâs you, heâs already turned on.
N = No (something they wouldnât do, turn offs)
he wonât call you derogatory namesâeven if itâs part of role play. it just doesnât sit right with him when all he sees you as is perfect.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
oh, harry loves giving and he loves receiving too. not only does it feel good to have your lips around him, but the fact that you are more than eager to just swallow him whole gets him going.
giving, on the other hand, he loves it when you sit on his face. loves the way you taste, the way you move your body against his mouth.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
both. he likes it both ways, and he knows you like it too. thereâs just something in the way of you feel around him that makes him want to go slow, but the fast at the same time.
he loves feeling your walls slide along his length, gripping him with each thrust. when heâs rough and on top, he enjoys watching your breasts bounce⌠but when heâs behind, he loves watching your ass shake against him.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
harry doesnât typically like quickies⌠only because itâs just not enough time for him to do everything he wants to.
but he wonât say no to it either⌠especially if youâre pressed for time but want him badly. who is he to deny you of your needs?
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
yes, 100%. harry loves tasking risks with you. in fact, it excites him at how heâs so willing to try new things. only if itâs with you. always with you.
there was one thing that heâs never done before that he did with you that heâs now obsessed with: bondage. specifically, tying you up.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
harryâs pushing fifty, so itâs not like he can go round after round. but he does have stamina to make that one round last for what seems like hours.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
harry bought a toy because you asked. at first, he was offended, he wasnât sure why you needed one when you had him.
but now, the vibrator has become a part of your sex life. he likes using it on you as he thrusts into you, watching you come undone so quickly.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
oh he loves teasing you. harry enjoys pushing you so close to the edge until youâre an absolute mess, begging for him to just fuck you.
luckily for you, whatever his girl wants, his girl gets.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
heâs not overly loud, but harry is vocal during sex. he growls and groans, loud enough for you to hear. heâll curse under his breath you when your mouth is wrapped around him and he moans when he slides into your heat.
he never holds back when heâs with you. especially when youâve told him before that you like the sounds he makes.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
harry likes being the little spoon sometimes. especially when heâs had a stressful day at work. youâd just hold him and the weight and warmth of your body against his always manages to ease any stress and concern that he feels.
X = X-ray (letâs see whatâs going on under those clothes)
harry isnât considered chiseled. heâs muscular and broad in his own way, but he also has some weight around his midsection, which doesnât usually bother him. not when you look at him the way you do.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
oh itâs high. harry has a super high sex drive where youâre concerned. he yearns for you whenever youâre apart and he yearns for you whenever youâre just sitting right next to him.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
harry doesnât fall asleep that fast. not because he isnât tired, but because he likes to take a longer look at you before he does.
he loves how peaceful you look, how your lips naturally part to let each breath out, and how your chest rises with each soft breath. itâs in those small and brief moments that he realizes just how lucky he is that you continue to choose him.
Iâd love a snippet of all of your WIPS but again and again with Pero sounds intriguing! Thereâs a serious lack of Pero fics!
anon !! yes, i agree, there is a serious lack of pero tovar fics out there!
again and again is something i dabbled with in one of my pedrotober days. however, after recently re-reading it, i would change up a few things and possibly add a slightly different beginning, but either way - it's a WIP i'm excited about.
here's a link to what's already been posted to get an idea of the story, and then here's a rough draft sneak peek of a later part in the chapter:
rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!
(ty for tagging me @pedroscurls đ¤)
sweet symphony chpt 8 (jackson!joel x f!reader)
the way you see me chpt 8 (younger!harry castillo (materialists) x f!reader)
falling inn love chpt 10 (harry castillo x f!reader)
again and again (pero tovar x f!reader)
after the end, there was you (jackson!joel x f!reader)
after all this time (jackson!joel x f!reader)
across the ages (au young!marcus acacius x f!reader)
NPT (and anyone else who wants to join!): @mountainsandmayhem @mermaidgirl30 @stylesispunk @simpingforjoel @poorsoulofmine @reedispunk @gothcsz @alltheirdamn
pairing: jacksonjoel! x f!reader
word count: 5.7k
warnings: established relationship, angst, mentions of an injury, betrayal-ish, mentions of depression themes, intoxication (reader is at one point a little tipsy), arguing, without giving spoilers away: SMUT (18+ MDNI).
a/n: this is part of @pedroscurls's PPCU challenge. i'm a couple of days late in posting, but I still wanted to participate as it got me out of a writing funk.
my one line of dialogue is "You don't give a shit about me."
i am glad to have been able to write something for this challenge, as it's been so damn hard for me lately. so thank you jamie, for helping me get somewhat back on the horse! i'm hoping this is the start of getting back into the swing of things.
please check out the other stories that were written for this challenge - i'm sure they are all so amazing - i'm still working my way through them đ¤ anyways, as always, enjoy!! xx
Joel stirred awake at the sound of the front door creaking open.
It only took his brain a moment before an immediate wave of relief washed over himâespecially hearing it click shut. That simple sound brought him nothing but relief after the evening you two had just had hours earlier.Â
Earlier that day - 6:21 PM
Joel sighed as he sat down on the bench near the front door to begin taking off his boots, watching you hang up your jacket a few feet from him. âI'm sorry, I just... I donât understand why youâre so upsetâŚâ
Yeah, thatâs not the right thing to say to someone who had been a swirling storm ever since you'd left Mariaâs office. Meaning, the walk home had been completely silent. You gave him the cold shoulder, walked two paces in front of himâsteam rolling off you in a fiery fit of anger.Â
âSo upset?â You echoed, scoffing as you let your foot goâyour disbelief for such a diabolical question completely stopping the motion of taking your boots off. âWhy wouldnât I be upset? You stood there and told everyone I wasnât ready to go back outââ
âBecause you arenât!â He looked up at you from where he sat, voice laced with a painful type of honesty.
You stood there for a moment, silent, shocked by his bluntness.Â
Joel sighed as he set his boot down beside his leg before continuing, softening his voice a touch. âBaby, you⌠You canât act like you arenât wakinâ up every morninâ in pain. That going back out would smart with how bad your knee has been treatin' you..âÂ
You swallowed the sour words you had cocked and loaded to spit back if heâd said anything else, but this? He was right about this. And god damnit, he knew you knew he was right.Â
You hated how you couldnât lie to yourself. Not when you did wake up every damn morning stiff and aching. You hated itâgetting older, but also you couldnât deny that your knee hadnât been the same since the accident less than a season ago. No matter how hard you tried to push yourself or ignore itâyou couldnât pretend it was ever going to be like it was. You were forever going to be feeling the ramifications of that day.
But on a more important noteâyou couldnât stand to wake up and live another day in this.
You needed to get back to the swing of things. You needed some sense of normalcy; you needed to get back to your routine.
And somehow you thought Joel of all people would understand that. But now? Now you felt that maybe he didn't know you at all.Â
God, you hated that.
You shook your head and looked down at the ground, trying to keep yourself from boiling over again. âYou donât get to make those decisions for me.âÂ
When he didn't answer, you looked up just as he shook his head and slightly rolled his eyesâgetting ready to cut in. Big mistake.Â
âNo, you don't get to roll your eyes. You don't get to do that⌠God, you donât get to stand there like you speak for me andââ
âAnd what? Tell the truth?â He scoffed as he stood, cutting you off againâshedding his jacket from his shoulders, moving past to hang it up on the coat rack. âYou were there... You heard them ask me what I thought and IââÂ
You turned your body to follow him, your voice starting to rise like the fire in your chest as you interrupted now, âYou told them that Iâd be a fucking liability, Joel!âÂ
You rarely ever called him by his name in moments like thisâbut he wasn't stupid. He knew when you did, it was more serious than he was treating it. And especially now, with the way you were looking at him? He knew you were more than just hurt.
âNo, IâŚI didnât say thatââ He started to try and reason, taking a step toward you, reaching out for your hand or to try and ease you.Â
But you stepped back.
You stepped back and kept your hand away, putting it behind you, your voice having a fraction of restraint, âNo... no, you donât get to do... that.âÂ
âDo what?â He asked, trying not to show how much that singular motion wounded him.Â
âYou canât do that." You took a shaky breath and shook your head as you looked down at your half-unlaced boot. âYou can't act like you did nothing wrong, Joel.âÂ
âBut I didnâtâI justâŚâ He sighed, feeling like no matter what he said, you werenât in the place to hear him, you were too upset. âWhat did you want me to say? What would you have me do? Lie?âŚâ
âI just... I just feel it wasnât your place to say anythingâŚâÂ
He furrowed his brow, confused by the things you were saying. âWasnât my place?â
You hesitated, but then you went to shake your head only for your body to betray you into a shrug, like you were unsure. Your heart's silent way of telling you deep down it was his placeâjust like it was yours with him.
âI don't understand." He scoffedânow his anger was starting to simmer at how cold you were being. "Then tell me, what is my place?â
The way he firmly planted himself made you clench your jaw in frustration at his stubbornness. He wasn't going to let this go.
âIâm not doing this⌠You know what I meant.â You muttered as you knelt to lace your boot. You needed to cool off, and he wasn't going to let you do that here. Not now that things were misinterpreted and tempers were sure to boil over.
Joel looked down at you and shrugged, trying to act nonchalant, âApparently, I donât. Apparently, you and I are on two different pages of what is and isnât our place. So enlighten me, please. What is my place?âÂ
The more he kept pushing, the more he kept pressing on a button that was going to make you react in a way you hadn't around him yet.
âJoel, stop.â You warned, your hands starting to shake in anger or frustration... but it was only making it worse as you had to retie the lace again.
âNo, tell me.â He pressed again, his tone losing that softness it started with.Â
Your head was swimming with nothing but anger. Enough that you knew if you fed into this, youâd say things out of that ugly place it always took you to. Things youâd regret.Â
âIâm not doing this right now. I canâtâŚâ You muttered as you pulled the laces in a sloppy, half-assed bow out of frustration and rose to your feet, moving past him to grab your jacket youâd just hung up. âI... I canât do this with you.âÂ
âCanât do this? What? You canât talk things through?â He followed you, his heart now pounding in his earsâhis anger taking over faster than he could control. âLook, I know weâre new to this⌠thisâŚâ He scoffed a small cold chuckle before continuing, â...God, whatever this is.âÂ
You pulled your jacket on and kept your gaze down, biting the side of your cheek to keep yourself silent.Â
But silence didnât bring him comfort. But would it to anyone else? With all the things you were saying? All the things you weren't? Â
For Joel, it just fed into his insecurities about not being good enoughânot being enough to fight for. It cracked the very fragile part of himself that he had only opened for you.Â
He watched you for a moment, watched you struggle to line up the zipper to your jacket. Something in him didn't understand that you werenât stepping awayâyou were stepping back.
You needed to pause.
You needed to find your head and pull it out of your ass.Â
But he just saw someone leavingâsomeone hurting him.Â
So he did what every insecure man does when they feel smallâŚ
He kept fucking talking until he would regret it.
He pinched the bridge of his nose and painfully chuckled. âRight, because I guess the only place you see me being is the one between yourââÂ
But then he stopped the moment his brain caught up with his ass was about to say.
Something that wouldnât be easy to take back.Â
You finally lined up the zipper and pulled it up in a sharp and quick motion, your eyes finding hisâfilled with hurt at the words he left lingering on the tip of his tongue.Â
âWhat? Between my legs?...â You paused for a moment and looked at himâreally looked at him before finishing off with, âYou really think thatâs all we are?...â Not able to help the way your voice broke on that last wordâyour eyes suddenly started to burn as they filled with tears.Â
His face fell in that sad puppy sort of way that only he could achieve, especially in moments like theseâin moments where he knew he massively fucked up.
âN-No, fuck, I didnât mean that⌠Iââ He took a step toward you, instinct making him reach out for you.
You felt a heat crawl up your neck, and tears suddenly started to cloud your vision. But before he could see any of that, you brushed past him and headed for the front door.Â
âFuck⌠I was so stupid." You mumbled, wiping a tear that fell down your cheek.
Your voice broke as you felt yourself start to spiral. "You... You donât give a shit about me if thatâs what you think that is all we are...â
"No, whoa, hey... no." He started to scramble, not knowing what to say, what to do. How to fix this. "Sweetheart, you know that you mean more to me than anythin' in this world."
You didn't need to hear this. You weren't going to believe it, no matter how sad or desperate he sounded.
You needed air. You needed to get out of this damn hallway. You needed a fucking drink.
You reached for the doorknob and twisted it. âI need to go. I... I need to leave.â You said a bit louder, your voice still unsteady.Â
âNo, No⌠babyâfuck, you know I didnât mean that.â Joel quickly followed after you, putting his hand on the door from behind youâin an attempt to keep it shut just as you were about to pull it open. âBaby, I didnât mean that. You know I didnât mean that. Please. Please donât leave.â
You stayed facing the door, your hand clenched around the handle, voice small and eerily even. âJoel... let me go.âÂ
Joel stayed there for a second, contemplating his options before he slowly let his hand off the door with a soft, defeated sigh.
His voice softened to a gentle plea as he stayed where he was, standing behind you, âPlease donât go. PleaseââÂ
You could feel the warmth radiating off of him as he stood behind you. You could smell the comforting scent of his citrus and pine soap with each inhale.
The urge every atom in your being was fighting against? Not to take a single step back? It was painful.
Because in any other scenario, you would fold. You would take that step back and lean into him. Youâd surrender in the name of your love for him and let all this anger go.
Youâd let him wrap you in his arms and hold you close. Youâd melt against him, and he'd lean over your shoulder and kiss your neckâin that soft, sweet way he'd begin to apologize.
Youâd stop being so damn stubborn and let the man love you in the way you never felt you deservedâeven though he insisted every day heâd never stop trying to show you how much you do.Â
But this time, it felt different. This wasnât any other fight you two had come across in the past.
This struck something deep that you didnât know how to navigate. It was something you hadn't ever felt.
It was something that only came from the world ending and finding yourself with someone. It was unfamiliar territory, and that was terrifying.Â
However, the longer you stood there, the more Joel could feel you fighting back every instinct. He could feel the energy pulsing off of you.Â
So he did what he always did: he moved in to offer comfort.Â
He moved a few inches closer, closing the space even more so that you would be able to feel his breath against your neck as he continued to softly plead, âAll I meant⌠all I was tryinâ to do was protect you by what I said with Maria. I need..." He sighed softly, his hand hovering the side of your hip. "I need you safeâŚâ Â
Your eyelids betrayed you as they slowly closedâonly for a few secondsâbut it was enough that you felt yourself lean back and touch his chest before you snapped forward and shook your head, shaking yourself out of his spell. âJoel, pleaseâŚâÂ
You opened the door to leave when his voice came one last time from behind you, completely broken. âYou know that Iâd never hurt you. You know how much I need you... how much I love youâŚâÂ
You held onto the doorknobâyour knuckles now turning white as you allowed a few tears to run down your cheeks before you nodded and swallowed the lump sitting high in the back of your throat.Â
âOf course I do.â
Then you looked back at him, and there he saw it: the utter heartbreak youâd been hiding under all that anger since leaving Mariaâs office.Â
âBut that makes what you did hurt even worseâŚâ You choked out before turning around and walking outâsoftly shutting the door behind you.Â
Joel stood there and just stared at the door. He didn't move from that spot for an hour before he moved to sit at the benchâwhere he sat for a few more hours.
Waiting for you.
Waiting to make things right. To be there when you get back.Â
If you came back.Â
Heâd just drifted to sleep when he heard the front door creak open. He didnât waste a moment before he moved to sit up in bedâhis racing.
He turned the nightstandâs lamp on and saw the time on the clock next to it:Â
12:11 AM
He realized he'd been asleep for no more than 20 minutes, and that in some way felt like heâd betrayed you. By not being down there when you came home.Â
âBaby?â He called from the bed before rushing to his feet and slowly stepping towards the doorâslightly hesitating in case he'd dreamt the sound.Â
He heard you stumble and crash into what he could only assume was the coat rack before you called out, âJesus, youâre still awake?â Your voice filled with a small level of disbelief, like you didn't expect him to wait up.
He rushed out of the bedroom and stopped at the top of the stairs to see you at the bottom, already looking up for him.
You looked lighter than beforeânot so angry or upset. Needless to say, however much relief that brought him, he couldnât assume and risk a repeat of earlier.
âWell... yeah, I...â He said softly as he stepped down a few steps before sitting on the top stair, keeping his voice gentle. âI wanted to be awake when you got home. You know, in case you wanted to talk orââÂ
âMm, I was angry... and real fuckin' stupid earlier...â You hiccupped as you cut him off, holding tightly onto the railing, keeping yourself steady as it was clear now that you were a bit tipsy.Â
âWhoa, hey... no⌠I said some reallyââ Joel tried to start, only for you to cut him off again.Â
You hiccupped louder, and you waved your hand out in front of you to stop him, âMm, stop talking and let me get this out, m'kay?â
Joel couldnât help the small smile that pulled at his lips before he exhaled in mock defeat and nodded towards you, âOkayâŚâÂ
You took a deep breath and stumbled up a few steps, slightly tripping on the third one, but caught yourself and looked up at him again. âI... I was angry for several reasons...â You sighed and shrugged as you saw him soften somehow even more as he waited for you to carry on. âI felt angry for feeling overwhelmed at the way I literally canât do the one thing Iâve been doing since I got to Jackson.âÂ
You looked away for a moment, trying to find the wordsâbefore looking down.
âFor⌠For feeling like a burden to you and Ellie while I've been recovering.â Your voice changed, like there was shame woven into it.
You heard him inhale, like he was going to speak up, so you quickly continued, needing to get it all on the table.
âI feltâno, I feel like Iâm losing my sense of routine. I justâI was or am⌠feeling a lot.â You looked up at him to only see him give you the softest nodâlike he was giving you the small nudge to keep going.Â
You swallowed and took another step up towards himâthis one more solidâopening up more. âBut⌠what I was mostly upset about is⌠because I tried lying to myself and everyone else today. But you?â You helplessly chuckled as you pinched the bridge of your nose, slightly annoyed that you didnât understand this before.Â
âYou held me accountable."
Joel hummed in agreement before he tilted his head slightly, watching youâlike he was reading all the unspoken things you were holding back.Â
âTell me moreâŚâ He plead.
Your cheeks warmed at the soft patience of his voice before putting your hand back on the rail, thinking of how to put what you wanted to say into words, before looking up at him.
But then you realized who was looking down at you with those soft brown eyes, and suddenly, the need for perfect words and for it all to make sense left.Â
"I uhm, I talked to Gail... at the bar tonight, and she said a lot of things that just⌠fuckâthey obnoxiously made sense..." You started to chuckle.Â
Joel grinned as he leaned in to listen.Â
"She said that I uhm..." You sighed as you shut your eyes tightly, trying to remember Gail's exact words. âThat I didn't communicate my feelings and anxieties before going to Maria's⌠and so, when it didnât go my wayâshe said that âI put an unfair amount of blame on youâ..."Â
You slowly opened your eyes and shrugged as you looked down at the step in front of you. Focusing on the small line of finish that had worn off the wood. "I guess⌠what I need to come to terms with is, I'm a bit rusty and should probably retire from patrol with how bad my knee is..."
Joel simply hummed again, not in agreement or anythingâjust to let you know heâd been listening.Â
But this time, when you looked up at him, the weight of everything that had been said and happened earlier caught in the back of your throat. Your lip quivered before you whispered, âAnd Iâm sorry. IâIâm so sorry for leaving. I know thatââ The shakiness in your voice instantly made Joel move to come racing down the stairs toward you.Â
âHey, hey no⌠câmereââ He whispered tenderly before collapsing back down on the stairs in front of you, reaching to put his hands on your cheeks.Â
âCan I say somethinâ now?â He asked as his thumb brushed a tear away.Â
You let out a sad chuckle and nodded, stepping closer to lean into his warm hold.Â
His eyes danced across your face as he studied you for a few seconds before softly tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
âYou mean more to me than I will ever be able to⌠say or show you.â His thumb wiped another of your tears away. âBut if tonight taught me anything? It showed me a real ugly taste of what my life would be without you.âÂ
You leaned into his hand and couldnât help but smile, âThat bad, huh?âÂ
âMm, horribly miserable darlinââŚâ Joel murmured as his lips matched your smile and his thumb began gently stroking back and forth over your cheek. âI never want to go up to that cold bed alone, mm?â Â
Your cheeks warmed a soft blush, and you closed your eyes as you hummed in agreement, âCanât say I wanted my evening to be spent nursing a bottle of vodka⌠getting therapized by Gail of all peopleâŚâÂ
That made Joel chuckleâbut the noise only came through his nostrils and through his chest.Â
The sound was so small and simple⌠but it was that familiar vibration that always warmed your soul.
It was the warmth that welcomed you every morning when he kissed you awake. The sound that he couldnât help but let out when he pulled you close and begged for five more minutes with youâwhich always made you smile and giggleâas youâd never dare deny yourself of that level of absolute bliss, especially with him.
But tonight, it was the trigger that you needed. It was the spark needed to feel that same wave of relief that washed over Joel after hearing the door clickâthis was your wave.Â
You opened your eyes to find him already soaking you in, in a way only poets could describe. In a way that no matter how deep you looked, you couldnât find a single ounce of anger or betrayal that was there before.Â
Nothing ill harbored towards you.Â
Instead, there was nothing but love and respect and compassion and absolute commitment.Â
But then again, Joel could never hold anything against you after a fight for long. If there was one weakness that man had, it was his devotion to you.Â
He was utterly and helplessly in love with you and could never stay upset for too longâeven when you were the one who massively fucked up.Â
Instead, he forgave youâevery single time. Â
He moved on.Â
He gave you a second chance more times than you felt you deserved. Â
He was the one good and fair thing this world had given you after taking so much away. And you were the same to him.Â
You were his second chance at being happyâbeing truly, stupidly, blindly, and endlessly happy. Â
âWell, in that case, how about we finish out the night⌠the right wayâŚand head upstairs?â He murmured as he pulled down to his lipsâadding before his lips touched yours, "Let me make it up to you..."
You leaned into him as you kissed him slowly the first time, lingering on his lips long enough to taste the peppermint from his toothpaste. You then moved your hand off the railing to land on his chest before gripping the soft fabric of his t-shirt and kissing him again, deeper this time.Â
He inhaled at what that did to him and moved one of his hands through your hair to cradle the back of your neckâwhile the other moved down to your waist to pull you up to straddle his lap, muttering, âMm, câmereâŚâÂ
You blindly stumbled up the few stairs needed to meet him, giggling against his lips before straddling his lap and kissing him deeper. Your free arm easily wrapped around his shoulderâbringing yourself close enough that your chest pressed against his.Â
His hand stayed cradled at your neck as his lips moved against yours in a slow and deep passionate fit of kisses. Your hand slowly moved to thread through the soft curls at the back of his neck, softly panting between each pass.
Eventually, you slid your tongue gradually more and more between his lipsâa silent plea for moreâuntil his began dancing with yours.Â
Joel groaned before his hands moved down to grip your ass, moving your hips to grind against the thin fabric of his pajama pantsâsending a clear message he also wanted more.Â
You moaned quietly at the growing bulge grinding slowly against the seam of your jeans. You pulled back only for his lips to move to your jawline, then your neck, sucking soft marks into your skin.Â
âJoelâŚâ You breathed, eyes fluttering shut as your fingers curled around his hair, holding him right where you wanted him.
There. That was the version of his name he loved to hear roll off your tongue.
He groaned, the rumble coming up from deep in his chestâbouncing off the soft skin he had between his lips as he began making his mark.
His hands stayed on your ass, grinding you back and forth against his lap until you eventually began doing it yourself.
Your breathing became heavier before small whimpers bubbled their way outâmaking him smirk against your skin. âMm, I love when you make those sounds.â He muttered before slowly gliding his lips across your skin, back up to yours, before kissing you passionately.
You kissed him back, continuing your rhythm against his growing erection that was now stimulating something for you with each pass it rubbed against your clit. You could feel his hands move up your body and then underneath your shirt to eventually tug your bra down before he cupped your titâmaking your breath hitch in between a kiss.
You kissed him harder, a touch sloppier, as you both were too hot and hungry for each other. So when you pulled back, he chased after youâhis eyes lidded and grinning wide.
"Where do you think you're going?" He murmured leaning in for you, palming your breast with one hand and gripping your waist with the other.
You moaned again, your breath hot against his lips before you kissed him once moreâthis time slowly pulling back and leaning your forehead against his.
"Ellie... she's down the hall..." You whispered as you combed your fingers through his curls, your hips slowing down their rhythm.
"Mhm, and she's one of the heaviest sleepers we know..." He grinned as his thumb teased your nipple, making you gasp, and your hips roll once more against him.
"Come on... think about it..." He almost sounded like he was begging.
Your cheeks flushed red at how hot that made you feel. How wet you could feel yourself getting, imagining the thrill of it allâthe thought of what could be done on these stairs.
But then you realized two pretty important points:
You were still somewhat drunk. Additionally to that point, you were in no way, shape, or form going to have the coordination to fuck him on these stairs.
You both were not as young as you'd like to believe. Because if you were to put it back in your pants for a second? You'd both agree that the outcome would most likely end in one or the both of you getting hurt, rather than having any fun.
Joel took your silence as a way to further his causeâso he leaned in and kissed your chin, then jawline, humming along with each kiss.
"You could ride me, right here... give me a show with those pretty little tits of yours." He purred before lightly pinching the bud of your nipple.
Your grip tightened on his shoulderâthe instant sensation shooting a heat down to your core. You bit your lip to hold in a moan that would be loud enough to stir the house.
"Or I could bend you over... get you on your hands and knees..." Another small pinch and kiss to the soft spot just under your jawline. "Watch that perfect pussy of yours take me so well from behind..."
Your eyes fluttered shut, and you swallowed down another moan. No matter how hard you tried, you couldn't help the way your hips began to grind slowly against himâhelplessly weak to feel his cock move against your cunt.
His teeth gently grazed your jawline before he groaned, feeling your hips press further onto himâyour passive way of teasing him back.
"You and I both know we don't have the back or knees for these damn stairs..." You breathed before a moan slipped out, as he lightly pinched and tugged at your nippleâeasily driving you mad with lust.
"Fuck, well if thatâs the case⌠you gotta stop makin' those little noises you know I like, baby..." He teased before tugging lightly again at your nipple. "You're going to make me weak in the knees...â He kissed down your neck to the hem of your shirt before kissing back up. ââŚthen Iâll really be unable to make it up to the bedroom."
Your head was swimming and everything in you screamed to stay where you were. But, when the perfect moment came, for that small pause of when his lips reached up for yoursâyou put your hand on his chest and gently pushed him away, putting his back against the stairs.
Something similar to a growl escaped from his chest and rumbled against your palm as he looked at you with that devilish smirk. âWhat are you up to?"
You kept your hand on his chest as you maneuvered up and off his lap to stand in front of himâhis hands sliding off your body.
He looked up at you from where he satâdrinking you inâhis chest lightly heaving, lips pink and swollen.
You began to undo your belt, keeping eye contact, tryingâand failingânot to grin too wide as you whispered, âGiving you some motivation to get upstairsâŚâ
Joel watched as your pants slid down and off your body before you kicked them down the few stairs behind you.
He bit his bottom lip as his eyes locked in on you standing thereâwearing his favorite lacy black panties. âMm darlinâ, you could be wearing a fuckinâ parka, and Iâd want you on your hands and knees.â
You crossed your arms over your torso to grab the hem of your shirt before you slowly pulled it up over your headârevealing a matching lace black bra, one that left little to the imagination.
You tilted your head to the side and bit your lip as you noticed his hand had moved into his lap. He had starting to stroking himself slowlyâneeding relief.
"You're favorite, right?" You teased as your thumb slid just barely, underneath the elastic around your hip.
He groaned as he watchedânodding once at you. "You're being a tease, baby..."
You smirked and tossed your hair to one side, another one of his favorite sights before innocently asking, "Am I?"
He groaned, the sound animalistic as he tightened his grip and nodded. "You know what you're doing."
"Do I?" You cooed, knowing you were getting him pent up.
He watched you slowly draw the elastic down your hip boneâexposing that soft skin between your hip and mound. His jaw clenched, and his eyes fluttered shut as he let out a small whimper. âF-FuckâŚâ
You smirked as you stepped up a stair to stand more so over him than eye level. You put your hands on his knees and leaned forwardâyour cleavage was on full displayâanother one of his favorites.
âTell me how you want me waiting for youâŚâ You purred, slowly moving inâinches from his lipsâmaking his eyes open immediately.
You now fully had his attention. And as you expected, his eyes dipped down to your tits like the man couldnât help himself.
"Mm, eyes up here, handsome..." You taunted.
His gaze darkened as it snapped up to meet yours, his smirk widening as he moved to lean forwardâwanting to catch your lipsâonly for you to tease him and pull back.
"Tell me..." You whispered as you began sliding your hands slowly up his thighs.
His breath hitched the further your hands crawled. He swallowed before lightly nudging his nose against yours, "Fuck... we should fight more often if it gets you like this..."
"Joel..." You whispered, like a soft warning for him to focus.
"On your back." He nudged your nose again, his eyes fluttering shut as he tilted his head to the side to kiss youâneeding your lips on his. "Legs spread wide, like the good girl you are."
You bit your bottom lip and muttered as you leaned in to meet his lips with yours, "Yes, sir..."
He groaned as your lips collided in a deep and passionate kiss. He waited only moments before he couldn't resist but reach up and cup your cheeks as he continued to kiss youâgetting slowly sloppier and heated with each kiss.
You moaned softly, the sound not able to be held back when he kissed you like this.
You felt his tongue begin to dance with yours and for a small moment, you were tempted to say 'Fuck it' and crawl back into his lap.
You could easily pull your panties to one side and pull him out through that buttoned up openingâone that you were no stranger to.
It took everything in you not to give in.
So before you did something you'd both regret in the morning, you ran one of your hands up his abdomen to his chest before gently pushing him back against the stairs againâyour lips reluctant to separate as your foreheads stayed together .
"Mm, waitâ" He mumbled, out of breath, slightly dazed.
You murmured as you nudged his nose playfully, "Donât keep me waiting.â
Then you maneuvered past him and began rushing up the stairs, tossing your bra behind you at him.
He snapped out of whatever spell he was in at the feeling of it hitting the back of his headâonly to spin around and find you at the top of the stairs with your panties around your ankleâgiggling as you kicked them down the stairs at himâswiftly flicking your index finger, beckoning him to join you.
listen - im so glad this challenge helped you out of your writing funk bc this was 1000/10 AMAZING! joel fuckin miller - oh. my. GODDDDDD
tbh i was a bit worried about this dialogue but gahhh - you fit it in SO WELL and donât even get me started on the manâs dirty talk bc it had me BLUSHING omfg (even my partner was like why are your cheeks so red rnđŤ )
ugh thank you for participating - Iâve missed your writing and hope that this helped you get back into the swing of thingsđ
@pedroscurlsto ma'am.... to have you even like my post but then reblog it and share your thoughts??? someone sedate mee
i kid you not, you are one of the handful of writers on here that i followed beforehand that got me to write - so to hear you enjoyed my writing?? thank you so very much! i'm so grateful for you and hope you enjoy more that's coming <33
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