don't forget to love.

mood: vincent van gogh eating yellow paint to feel happiness on the inside

I hate how I spend every year crying on my birthday.

some days i don't miss you at all but some days i miss you so much i feel like i'm suffocating and i hate how i still can't fully get over you

i'm so angry. i'm so angry that you hurt me. i'm so angry that you kissed me and told me how much you cared for me and just decided to disappear on me with no explanation. i'm so angry how one second we were talking every day to just complete silence. no warning. now i'm constantly sitting here wondering what exactly went wrong. i know i shouldn't blame myself but i keep thinking what did i do to make you leave and it angers me that you made me feel this way, that you made me question myself, wondering if i'm able to trust someone again. i was a cautious person before i met you but you broke all my walls down just to leave me in the rubble.

i don't get how people think it's okay to tell the shit you tell them in confidence to other people

it took me this long to notice though so idk if i should be sad or happy that i didn’t care enough to realize he deleted me until after all this time