welcome! this is the personal blog for an alter (Lim) in a diagnosed, polyfrag DID system. I'm an introject of the character from Rusino's Looping the Rooms! I AM NOT MIKU!!!!! My cool Carrd btw,, (flashing gifs warning! Also it's primarily made for desktop...)
we are bodily 19! anyone can interact, but I ask that anyone <18 do not try to be friends. we can be mutuals though!
I mainly post system related content and syscourse/other mental health related discourse, but may also occasionally post about my sourcekin identity and other random things!
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#「🔄 looping」 (general posts)
#「🔄 limbo」 (reblogs)
#「🔄 dal segno」 (asks)
#「🔄 entities」 (hate asks)
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Byi
we are diagnosed with DID, ASD, and highly suspect OCD + NPD. these disorders affect every aspect of we as a collective interact with others
as stated in the beginning of this post, I am sourcekin, which means I identify as my source and like to be treated as it. this does not mean you can treat me as a fictional character; treat me as the person I am in source, not as a toy to play pretend with
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Endos will say "We don't claim to be disordered / don't claim to have CDDs!"
Well, claiming to have a symptom of a disorder that can only exist within said disorder... kind of literally means you are (indirectly) claiming to have that disorder without the thing that causes it or any of the disordering parts of it.
What makes the personality states merge in the first place? Is that just a biological or physical thing? Or is it psychological? Like, if people view their states as one person, then that's what the states become?
it's the natural development of any human brain ^^
the age at which the personality states merge into one cohesive personality is debated, but it's the scientific consensus that it doesn't happen past childhood, so CDDs only have a chance of developing during childhood if trauma occurs in that time frame
if it was psychological like you described, many systems would have already cured themselves of their CDD!
"multiplicity describes a fractured identity resulting from a complex dissociative disorder"
Does that mean someone can have a fractured identity for reasons other than a complex dissociative disorder, and it just wouldn't be called multiplicity?
no, that is scientifically impossible. the brain would not fracture itself (not so fun fact: the brain PHYSICALLY changes because of trauma) for no reason
a fractured identity is the brain's absolute last resort defense mechanism in response to the trauma it was enduring during it's development in childhood; it puts up dissociative barriers between the pre-merging personality states because it literally thinks it will die otherwise, the personality states of which go on to develop independently into alters
note. because the dissociative separation happens pre-merging of a child's personality states, multiplicity cannot form later in life
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but no actually, it's not up to me to define it. the science behind it does that for me
multiplicity describes a fractured identity resulting from a complex dissociative disorder
obviously, complex DISSOCIATIVE disorders are caused by: extreme dissociation, and extreme dissociation is caused by: trauma
obligatory mention of the fact that not all dissociation is caused by trauma nor is all dissociation pathological, but the extreme dissociation that causes dissociative disorders (not just the complex ones) always is, in both regards
I think endos need to learn that dissociation ≠ multiplicity and that their dissociative experiences are real, but not multiplicity. Dissociation without multiplicity can mimick multiplicity.
maybe endos could want / need trauma holders for . . the trauma they may have ??? what kinda question is that lmao
the point of trauma-holders is to insure memory fragmentation, not to "deal with trauma".
"Memory fragmentation occurs to protect the brain from the trauma it endures and is the brain’s way of trying to heal." (Kylie Hamacher, 2026.) (feel free to dm me for my source on this if you can't find it!! XD)
some parts might be more tolerant of healing with access to it, but trauma-holders literally develop from the severe trauma that traumagenic systems go through. they develop as a means to shut-off those memories to ensure functional life for the system. watering down trauma-holders to just "oh we remember things" is inherently ableist to systems who have suffered so much.