It's Complicated.

I dunno… I… Fuck, I think…

No, Wes, that was my fault, I'm really sorry. Don't... blame yourself for that, that was me. I'm-- fucking shit. 

It’s okay. It’s okay it’s okay it’s okay, it was just a moment of weakness. We were talking, something felt right, okay? No damage done.

No, god, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have done that, I'm sorry. Moment of weakness or not, it was still shitty. I should... I should go? 

Shit, shit, shit, shit—

Shit, no fuck, you're right. 

Positive.

That's... Reassuring. 

No—what? It’s fine. I swear. You’re not putting anything on me.

Are you sure? I feel like all I do is bitch about my life and eat your food. 

Yeah. Yeah, I understand. Completely.

Yeah-- right, yeah, sorry. I don't mean to put this all on you. I'm sorry. 

It’s not selfish of you. That’s a big adjustment. He’s asking a lot of you. You’d be leaving everything. It’s okay to feel a little…apprehensive.

All of my confusion over the decision, I just... It's scary, I'm just afraid that I... love him to a point and I know that's so shitty, but... I love him, I do, but I've never had a good relationship before and I'm afraid the distance will only cause more emotional distance. It's hard for me to get close to people. 

So, he’s asking you to move? That doesn’t seem fair. Especially since, it seems like, you’re making good progress. Y’know from when I last saw you. Seems kind of…selfish for him to ask that of you. No offense.

Bry, selfish? No, god no, I mean-- He's asking me to consider it and honestly, it seems like the only way we'd be able to make our relationship work. He got an amazing job offer in the city and it's only about an hour away, but he'd be moving there and I... I know it's selfish of me to think but I don't want him to go. I'm afraid the distance won't hold well. 

I know. I know it is. But, you want it now, and I think that means a lot more than you think it does. It’s scary but you’re not gonna let the fear win, y’know? There’s something bigger and better in being committed to someone than in being afraid of it.

I guess. I just don't know if I can uproot my whole life, what I've always known, just to be twenty minutes closer to someone I love. It's so complicated and I've never really been good with that. 

Ha! Thanks, Lizzy. Always good to know my butt gives me a brighter future. I dunno. I wanna settle down. I’m not getting my kicks from hookups, I never did. I don’t want to get tricked into something meaningless. I can’t lose someone else important to me.

I... I used to be into hookups, but now all I've wanted to do for a while is settle down, but it's so hard because... because... I don't commit easily. It's one of my downfalls. I find commitment so lovely and warming, but it's so fucking scary. 

Just…wish I had more to offer than mozzarella sticks.

Oh-- hey, c'mere. You've got a lot more than fried cheese, Wes. You're a catch. You're sweet and funny and you've got a nice butt. 

Thanks. I dunno… That kinda stuff is all mixed up in my head. I don’t really understand anything except food. Kinda makes everything else harder.

You do food well, though, and honestly, that's really all you need to know to snag a girl. We love food. Food is great. You're going to make some little lady very happy with mozzarella sticks some day. 

That’s just it, I don’t want to try to create something to fit me. Whoever she is has gotta be real, y’know? Like, her own person. Someone I can take care of, sure, but someone who’s not afraid to just, be herself. No hiding anything, y’know?

Yeah, I guess you're right-- can't really build-a-bear a girl into loving you. You're not so bad, though, I'm sure you're going to find someone for you. Someone who's not afraid to let it all out. 

I like to think so, but I’m starting to get the idea I’m just too picky. Weird? How so?

Picky? Well, what kind of girls are you into, then? You can't really build a dream spouse, but you can try. 

Ha, guess that explains why I’m still single, huh?

You're just waiting for the right girl, don't worry about it. I don't blame you, relationships are weird.