Cunty

I have been putting off scheduling a doctors appointment for far too long. I’ll be turning 26 next month and I know I should start prioritizing my health more. Can’t help the crippling anxiety that comes with actually bringing myself there even scheduling an apt

Ending an 8 month relationship because you felt forced and compelled to because his ex and other parties talked him into it. Even though don’t want to. Then a month after the breakup you sleep with him after like an idiot. Upon getting attached you blow up his phone continually causing him to back away even more. Suddenly you find yourself talking to an old 5 plus year situationship who just in a span of weeks later tell you “they’ve moved on.” I literally cannot handle rejection in the slightest. People say there’s always someone out there for everyone but if that was true I would have found love by now. This overwhelming and consuming feeling knowing I’ll always be forever alone. I have far too many issues for a person to handle me is slowly killing me in the inside. I don’t if I was meant for love in this lifetime. Everytime I reel a person in close only to end up hurting them in the end. Too many people dispise me and I’m starting to believe iam the issue.