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*Please note: This is my own personal safe space. In no way is this to promote anything negative. Only to find my safe space with like-minded people*

SW: 140lbs

GW1: 135lbs 🕊️

GW2: 130lbs

GW3: 125lbs

GW4: 120lbs

GW5: 110lbs

UGW: 100lbs

🗓️ 7/16/26

Well, I don’t want to toot my own horn yet because I don’t know if it’s water weight but I’m down to 137lbs.

Which doesn’t seem like a lot at all, but it’s close to my first GW and seeing the numbers get smaller always is a nice motivator.

I need to build this habit back up slowly, because I can be a bit inconsistent when it comes to the physical activity aspect of things like to burn calories.

I think what I’m going to start doing to ease things in is to walk my dog twice a day. (2 miles in the morning, 2miles at night) That should be around 10,000 steps.

Then at least go to the gym three times a week, with also playing a bit of volleyball.

Eventually I want to start going to the gym everyday— but knowing myself I won’t be consistent so I need to ease my way into things.

Then, in terms of diet eat no more than 800 calories a day. I am aiming for less— but my max no-no is 800. This is solely because I need to be a bit realistic. I won’t be able to do much physical activity with nothing in my system.

So my diet will probably look like this. Also, I am over calculating because I rather over calculate than under.

Breakfast: Coffee & an egg. ~200 calories

Lunch (if needed for extra energy): No more than 4 cubes of cheese. ~80 calories

Dinner: A meal under ~500 calories

(Note, of course this is WORST case scenario. I don’t need people questioning things.)

I recently got a boyfriend, and we’ve been together for a few months. I am so jealous of him because he’s technically underweight (despite being super toned) to the point people even mention it. I hate looking like a whale next to him to the point I don’t take photos.

He doesn’t eat much, and I learned he used to be a huge health freak. (He says he’s skinny because he got used to not eating since his parents didn’t really feed him as a child).

While it sucks, I’m now going to use this as motivation. I want to be skinnier than him by a long shot.

I am so ashamed of myself. Today was supposed to be a start of a new leaf, but I went ahead and drank some ginger juice and a breakfast sandwich.

I hate being such a glutton— I can’t wait until I can go without breakfast any more.

To combat everything, a light dinner.

Anyone wanna be moots? It would be nice to be able to speak with someone and help each other out. I’m an open book and non-judgmental. (:

Here’s a bit of some of my interests besides all of this—

• Anime

• Video Games

• Reading

• Art

Just a fyi:

🗓️ 7-12-26

Okay, well I’m back and super disappointed. While I was gone, I have gained weight— up to 140lbs.

I feel so gross and disgusting. Just a few months ago I managed to get to ~125lbs and was so proud. Now I’m back to the 140lbs that I tried to hard to get down.

But, I’m determined to hit my goals more than ever. I’m aiming for at LEAST 5lbs in one month. Preferably 10lbs.

Going to start eating tomorrow with what I did prior:

- coffee (no creamer) & 1 egg

- chicken & rice

And then also work out:

- 1x in the morning after breakfast

- 1x at night after dinner

Let’s get it started.