Make Your Mother Sigh

Hey sweetie, sorry for the late reply, I haven’t been feeling very well lately. 😔 Don’t be scared to ask stuff though, I won’t bite lol! What kind of story did you have in mind? I did have a scenario that I wanted to write a few years ago where John gets all in his feels about his gender identity because he’s wearing a dress for the first time, he feels confused and happy and pretty and upset. Paul would accidentally put his foot in his mouth saying something that makes John fly off the handle but once they have a heart-to-heart, Paul makes Johnny feel so pretty and special. 🥰🥰🥰 You probably have something totally different in mind, that’s just my own Pyramus & Thisbe daydream lol!

Hey! I’m so sorry I’m just now answering this, I’ve been logged into my other account for a couple of weeks and I’ve barely been on at all. Honestly though, things haven’t been great. I’m either very depressed or dealing with a secret mold infestation, because I’m having additional symptoms that make me think that it could be the latter. But in any case, it’s been really hard for me to feel like posting. Even when I do feel like posting, I lose the energy before I can even do it. It kind of feels hard to do anything if I’m being honest, and I don’t know how to fix it. 😔

Lmao, I LOVE that quote! I swear to God my fics and my fantasies didn't just spring up out of nowhere!

If this is weird, then call me Mrs. Weird lmao! I love this fantasy, it's so hot! I have a soft spot for institutionalized regression fantasies, especially forced regression. John would have the biggest tantrums when he realizes where he is and what's going to happen to him, and the first experiences of his training, but he'd tantrum just as hard when he realizes how much he loves it. He'd see other boys and girls who very obviously despise every second of this, but he has to force himself to stop from smiling and giggling at his baby toys and shows, sucking his thumb without thinking about it, mindlessly wetting his diaper and getting turned on by it... Paul would instantly be obsessed with baby Johnny! It would also be hot if Paul was the one who hired the center to abduct John and regress him... John would feel so betrayed, but also humiliated because he realizes that Paul knew what a baby he was before he did.

I didn't expect to get a message like this, so thank you for apologizing. I know it's easier to do anonymously, but it's still tough to own up. Part of me figured that you were just a kid, but there was also a part of me that was paranoid that it was actually someone who said they were a friend, so at least I can lay that worry to rest. It's basic human psychology to attack people who are outside social norms, especially if you identify with those people-- it's pretty common for closeted gay people to bully openly gay people. If you're already feeling othered, and don't want your normal friends to think you're into weird shit, you make fun of it. I won't lie, some of the shit you said to me really hurt my feelings, but I get it, and I forgive you. I'm just glad you learned from the experience and it sounds like you aren't going to harass people like that again, too many people nowadays love being mean. I hope you find contentment.

I should probably find a new therapist, but that's also exhausting (and expensive). And I do not want to go back on anti-depressants. I don't remember what I used to take, but the several types I tried didn't work for me, and when I stopped taking them, I had terrible vertigo for like three weeks. I just don't know what to do. All I do is work, clean the house, take care of the cats, watch tv, mindlessly scroll my phone, and read maybe one book a month. How do you find joy in life when there's so much evil in the world? The knowledge that I'm not doing enough, but not knowing what to do, has paralyzed me. Everything is just so fucked up right now. I just want to fantasize about going back in time to the 70s so I could hang out with John (and k*ll D*n*ld Tr*mp).