#1 girl jiyong truther

my commissions post!! please click the pic above to see my insta post for full details since i can’t post it all here :(

ooo... you wanna read my new vampire sope fic... ooo.. you wanna read vampire yoongi sooo badddd......

well.. this is awkward,

thank you so much.. it feels so good to have finally finished it lol.. it was honestly getting hard to write it but knowing that somehow there were people who genuinely stuck by with every update made me really want to continue and finish it and im so glad people like you exist <3 it would not have been finished otherwise..

don't you guys completely leave me yet! i will write gtop again in the future, but much shorter, and i may write sequels within the universe in the future...

you can expect it now!! the final chapter...

honestly call me whatever you want but i still havent listened to it properly, i just cant bring myself to. bigbang were such a huge part of my life when i was younger and in a really horrible place. im happy for seunghyun, i genuinely am happy that hes healing and coming back to the music scene, but in my head it feels like i cant listen to it because itll be me accepting that bigbang as it was when i needed them most is over. i know its not rational but thats just the way my head works lol, i cant watch anyones lives and i avoid concerts and stuff because of my high stress and anticipatory overwhelm and emotional intensity avoidance and whatever else bs any therapists can come up with lol

hi! there is one chapter left that id like to write, but honestly im struggling with it. i thought id have a good direction with it but the last chapter didnt exactly go as id planned because i rushed it in one writing session with all kinds of shit going on in my life and i dont think the readers enjoyed it as much as i thought they would

in my head id planned for this from near the start and i was so excited for it the whole time i was writing this fic but i kinda regret the way i executed the actual chapter i feel like it couldve been better. even though i know its my fic and you kinda have to blind-eye some plotholes because i never meant for it to be *this* long or do some suspension of disbelief because cctv in korea is crazy good or whatever, i still feel like maybe i shouldnt have just written something and sent it out like that. so those kinds of feelings are making me not really wanna write this anymore lol...

of course!! >:) the wait will definitely not be as long as it was for this last chapter too don’t worry

and before anyone says ANYTHING yes i have a plan yes you’ll probably find plot holes. i don’t care 😊😊 it’s fiction

wehehe.... i wasnt planning on it per se but... now i wanna,

feel free to send me a dm cuz i wanna know what you wanna see in the next one.. <3 same for anyone else who comes here from... *that fic*

right now!!! go read!

hi!! thank you for the respectful message :)) i have been heavily drinking lol but i will do my best to reply coherently. i have in no way abandoned once a god so dont you guys worry, i promise promise prmise there will be an update. little tw but i had another little mishap with life recently because everything is just too much its like unethical, but literally today i got hired for a very competitive position in a company ive really really wanted to work for less than a day after my interview! im really glad, its boosted my self confidence and morale because i must be good if they wanted to hire me that bad lmfao.. i guess that means ill be working on the next chapter soon :) i know ive been sating for a while that the end is near, but right where we are right now is Imminently Near the end. this is genuinely one of the last chapters that im going to write next.

as always im genuinely so grateful for everyone waiting on me so patiently.. most of you are so good to me and understanding. this is my longest fic ever and the fact that poeple genuinely want to read this and stay with me while im writing feels crazy to me lol