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''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

the more you twist yourself into a pretzel to avoid regret the harder it will hit when it eventually catches up to you.

sick to my fucking stomach for all the times i begged to be loved and seen by anyone lmao

i don’t care who knows my pain. i’m ashamed of most of it but i’m gonna say its good exposure therapy to let everyone know just how much it hurts. how lonely i feel and how weak i feel when i get this lonely. so lonely i want to call my first love and tell him i don’t know how it’s been years since ive been without you. how there was a time i couldn’t imagine even taking a breath without you. how everything was heavy with you but i liked it because the weight reminded me that i wasn’t alone. but now i am light and i am free, but still lonely.