Terrible Terrible Thoughts

I can feel the food coming up in my throat and belly is so heavy and sensitive to the slightest touches..I just kept going. I need it to be picked up and dropped. Letting me feel the weight of it all as it threatens to cover my fupa. I just want hands to be grazed across it bumping over every stretch mark and indentation. I want to it to be needed. Lay me down as you push more down my throat caressing the swell of my top belly. Slap me and then lay kisses all over my body. Tell me I'm your perfect darling, as I begin to struggle to sit up after being stuffed past the brim. Rub lotion over every crease roll and fold, pinching all the excesss admiring how there's a thick layer of permanent fat over me before you can truly feel how rock hard my stomach is. Dumb me down into the fattest bimbo cow and feed and milk me please please

I have stretch marks on my fupa...

I'm not an active feedee but I haven't looked at the scale in MONTHS. I was around 230-240lbs but I'm so scared to look at the number. My belly button is deeper, what used to be a little hanging lower belly is now something I can actually pick up and fold and squish. Like FOLD-Im laying on my side and Its like my belly is an extension of myself. I've had stretch marks for every but they literally line the top the sides of my tummy. And living alone...I have the munchies every night. Literally two nights ago I came home made myself Mac n cheese had three rice cakes half a pint of sorbet 2 sodas, chips and guac, half a container of cherries. 3 of those sugar cookies that feel like play dough. It's crazy, I didn't even realize because I was mindlessly grazing. I'm long distance and my partner knows about this kink and we indulge in person but what if I get too fat? From what I know he's not a feeder more so someone who likes seeing me get off on what I like..so what happens if I outgrow him. Or maybe he does enjoy it, maybe when he touches my belly he likes the fact that he can pick it up with two hands. I know he loves my t*ts and how heavy and swollen they get so maybe I won't outgrow him. I don't know but man what I would give to be outwardly teased and enabled by him, keep taking me out, tell me you love me no matter what as I graze on snacks all day. As new itchy red lines cross my belly arms and inner thighs. I need it I need it so bad .

This is such a craving for me. Because what do you mean the weed makes me more sensitive.

I'm not an active feedee but I haven't looked at the scale in MONTHS. I was around 230-240lbs but I'm so scared to look at the number. My belly button is deeper, what used to be a little hanging lower belly is now something I can actually pick up and fold and squish. Like FOLD-Im laying on my side and Its like my belly is an extension of myself. I've had stretch marks for every but they literally line the top the sides of my tummy. And living alone...I have the munchies every night. Literally two nights ago I came home made myself Mac n cheese had three rice cakes half a pint of sorbet 2 sodas, chips and guac, half a container of cherries. 3 of those sugar cookies that feel like play dough. It's crazy, I didn't even realize because I was mindlessly grazing. I'm long distance and my partner knows about this kink and we indulge in person but what if I get too fat? From what I know he's not a feeder more so someone who likes seeing me get off on what I like..so what happens if I outgrow him. Or maybe he does enjoy it, maybe when he touches my belly he likes the fact that he can pick it up with two hands. I know he loves my t*ts and how heavy and swollen they get so maybe I won't outgrow him. I don't know but man what I would give to be outwardly teased and enabled by him, keep taking me out, tell me you love me no matter what as I graze on snacks all day. As new itchy red lines cross my belly arms and inner thighs. I need it I need it so bad .