So why am I still depending so hard on others? Why am I giving so much of myself to those who aren’t even interested in seeing what I have to offer ? - when I could be giving more of that energy to myself? I’m leaving myself on empty continuously in an attempt to make others feel whole (as if I even understand what that feels like)

I cut to the chase when speaking to be heard. I hide my vulnerability to avoid being judged or seen as unstable. I have a big heart & I feel everything so intensely. Why is that such a turn off to people? It’s “unhealthy” to experience your emotions deeply - but being desensitized/unaware of them is “normal” ?

Anyways, my hearts heavy & I’m tired of allowing it to be that way. How does it carry so much weight but feel so empty at the same time ? What a paradox