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I HAVE FINALLY POSTED THE THING TO AO3

(working title, might be changed later)

premise:

immediately post s2 finale, after my fic that is _immediately_ immediately after it. Lilith has not called Charlie yet.

slice of life soap opera: nobody permadies, but a few people might at some points wish they did

the most insane multiship i can cram into a single timeline, and trust me, I am _creative_ with that. Welcome to hell, Alastor!

doing my best to treat serious subjects with the gravity they deserve, but this is still ultimately a fic, so yknow. sensitivity readers feel free to volunteer?

this is _mostly_ not a pornfic, but uh. regenerating immortal demon kink will be had. mind the tags, and check them for updates when i post a new chapter, okay?

#hazbin hotel #my writing #alastors terrible night #alastors better morning #alastor the radio demon #alastor hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #radiostatic #staticradio #radiosilence #staticsilence #staticlovetune #(yes all of these. i am writing it Like That)#radiodust #radioapple #appleradio

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werewolfsone

I am my own beautifully deeply biased and flawed individual who has hammer brain and sees nails everywhere but it does seem like some of these individuals who do not understand the issue with websites like Wattpad hitting people with censorship (especially a website where people post creative works of art made on an individual basis) could just benefit from experiencing horror as a genre more often. Watch and read horror. Watch some slashers. Watch A24 and Hammer films from the 1960s. Get really really into 1990s Japanese horror. Watch every creature feature you can find. Watch horror that pushes your buttons a bit and makes you kind of uncomfortable.

It's like... conceptualizing things like violence and sex and nudity and cursing and cannibalism and rape and fear in art is completely inaccessible for some people. You don't gotta go find the most triggering films you can, I cannot for the life of me get thru any one Saw film. But I've spent enough time in the genre to know how incredibly stunning these stories are, how they can speak on an individual level and a cultural level. They're fun, they're heartbreaking, they're silly, they're terrifying, it's literally the entirety of human experience wrapped up in this genre. And these stories are being told with nudity and sex and blood and violence and gore! It's part of the story! Sometimes that's the whole story! And it becomes a really intriguing or funny or beautiful piece of art people talk about for literal decades! I need people to know that "dark and adult topics" in and of themselves are a legitimate way to make art, and banning those aspects is not making art spaces as a whole better, cleaner, more pure, more academic. It's making things more corporate and fascist to remove them. And if more people saw this stuff as legitimate art even when it's "not for them" it would be clearer to see how this censorship is so dangerous.

#Reblog #Horror #Mhm

kitsunesongs

I was randomly thinking just now and had the sudden thought of “calling radio obsolete really doesn’t make sense because you know you’ve made it when your song is on the radio” there are THOUSANDS of songs on Spotify and Apple and ITunes ect ect with a whole bunch of plays but they don’t end up on the radio. meanwhile I often discover new music via the radio on my drive to and from work and you can guess Why these songs are really popular — I mean when I heard Golden playing for the first time on the radio I freaked out and karaoked the whole time because YES THAT’S GOOD MUSIC RIGHT THERE.

anyway long-winded method of me saying that despite the Vees having their media empire I noticed that they don’t really have a monopoly on music itself. Music is a part of Hell, it’s heavily connected to the Morningstars, and it’s in and of itself indicative of power.

I just find it really fascinating. especially when I think about it in relation to Alastor & subsequently radio. 🍿

anywho gotta go clean my bathroom now 🫡

🦝 anon

Exactly! Radio is STILL AROUND, and has been from the start, it just changed a bit. There are podcasts, radioplays, stuff like welcome to nightvale and the magnus archives that's purely sound based, talking and radio hosts, music plays on the radio - I'm not going on spotify and paying for music, I'm just listening to shit on the radio.

Music really is! Hell and Heaven are musicals, the Vees CAN'T have a monopoly on it and I bet it BURNS Vox.

Lol good luck with your bathroom!

#hazbin hotel #Radio #Reblog #This is soooo true

You know it would really make soooo much sense if all of Alastor's non stop taunting of Vox in s2 was a deliberate campaign to take back control / flip their dynamic after the chair scene. I don't actually buy that the mask Vox put on Alastor really magically prevented him from speaking through tech, or Vox would have simply put that back on after gagging him with wires failed. No, Alastor simply did not try to speak until that moment.

Alastor's plan did not require riling Vox up any further. Vox already sees himself as in charge of the Vees and wants power for himself first of all, it's right there in the s2 intro song. If anything, Alastor riling Vox up further worked against him by driving Vox to extremes after Alastor freed himself. I think Alastor did not realize this in advance any more than Vox realized that his actions did get to Alastor and the smile is his shield and armor. They both were so focused on the wounds the other dealt them, they missed the impact they were themselves having.

Alastor played obedient little prisoner until Vox followed up the sexual assault with freeing him up to speak and visibly wanting his approval. That was his opportunity to charm and bamboozle, to make Vox feel that Alastor's still the powerful one between the two of them. Because even more than emotionally, it made him *physically* safer. A Vox who wants to impress him is a Vox who has less energy and focus for details of his anatomy. A Vox who wants to prove something is a Vox who doesn't quite as sharply realize that he can do anything he wants and Alastor is bound by the deal to not resist.

I don't think Alastor realized in advance exactly how psychosexual Vox's obsession with him was - the audience got to see Vox watch the finale fight, Alastor didn't. And Vox's bar proposal was of a business partnership, not to date. I think Alastor found himself in a situation that was a few orders of magnitude more horrifying than he thought he was agreeing to, and grabbed for what control he could as soon as he had the wits for it.

And it backfired! It backfired on him, it backfired on Vox, it backfired on the Vees, it backfired on the rest of Pentagram City, it backfired on Emily's wing.

Alastor is not always in control, he's just very good at acting lile it. He has an explicit monologue about it to Charlie in s1 it's NOT SUBTLE.

And I just don't think his plan went to plan, like, at all. The only reason it worked out is because it was just that foolproof, built on completely axiomatic variables - Vox will grab for as much power as he can given opportunity, Vox will grab Charlie when he feels he's won, Vox won't kill Alastor until he feels he's won. That's it! That's the full list of what Alastor predicted in advance!

The rest was desperate damage control :]

#hazbin hotel #Alastor the radio demon

itsasunnydaye

Someone tell me why the fuck Alastor is blamed for all of the shit that went down with Vox. (TW: MENTIONS OF RAPE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT.)

"Oh but he likes it tho!" "He poses for Vox's cameras!" Have we ever considered that he does a grand total of 0 posing after season 1? The first time Alastor and Vox "interact" in season 2 is in episode 3, where Alastor, instead of engaging Vox like he did in season 1, immediately teleports away. I think he's annoyed at how obsessed Vox is with him. He looks nothing but annoyed to be in Vox's presence.

I'm standing by the truth that Alastor is DEEPLY affected by Vox's psychosexual obsession with him

Which, by the way, VOX IS PSYCHOSEXUALLY OBSESSED WITH ALASTOR, because of his comments at the end of S1 ("Oh Alastor, I can't wait to watch you get FUCKED!" "I am so hard right now!" "Fuck you Alastor, ahahahaha, this is better than sex!"), filming him, tying him up and gagging him, drawing his ass, claiming he does not have a fail, which means he probably took the liberty to CHECK, he forced Alastor to watch him and Valentino have sex (which is a form of sexual assault, ESPECIALLY if Vox attempted to include Alastor in the sex, and keeping in mind we don't know what happened during the sex. Alastor looked extremely pissed and disgusted.) and then there's the entirety of DYFR, which has EXTREMELY rapey lyrics (my house, my rules, my room, my tools, at my mercy, cursed to watch me take it all (take Val when they were having sex) , run dry and how you look so small (which insinuates that Alastor was not only unaroused, but was actively disgusted), try to squirm and struggle and it wouldn't do a thing, master and bottomest bitch, though the radio's gone dead you know, the show must go on (Insinuating Alastor was dissociating while he and Val were going at it, or, if we take the darker path that Vox actually did rape Alastor, Alastor went limp, or fell unconscious, and Vox still continued.))...

Obviously that would affect Alastor. I'm pretty sure he's a sex-repulsed asexual. The few sexual advances made towards him have made him very very very very very uncomfortable. First Angel Dust's offer to blow him, which he was very taken aback by, Angel Dust's offer to have sex with him, which he was also disgusted by, and his entire reaction to Vox's advances in episode 4. Coming from someone who is aceflux and has times where I am sex repulsed, I mean it is physically repulsive to think about or do. And adding on the fact that he believes he is heterosexual, and does not understand his own asexuality, he is likely feeling extremely confused, disgusted, and uncomfortable with the entire situation.

So why he fuck is he the one who is blamed for it all? "He deserves it because he was mean to Vox!" EXCUSE ME? NOTHING JUSTIFIES SEXUAL ASSAULT. Yes, Alastor's rejection of Vox was extremely harsh, but that does not justify Vox ASSAULTING HIM.

Are they just as bad as each other? Yes and no. They're both extremely toxic people, and they kill and they hurt others. But towards each other? Yeah, I'd say Vox is worse.

Let's see, what has Alastor done to Vox?

Rejected him harshly, called him pathetic, weak, disappointed, embarrassing

Insulted him and poked at his reliance on the other Vees.

Fought him

Lied about him publicly and taunted him

Sliced his wires off

Threw him against a building

Threw a truck at him

Collapsed a bridge on top of him

Attacked his friends

Threatened to send him to his broadcast

Hmm, and what has Vox done to Alastor?

Threw a tantrum over him coming back, causing a city-wide blackout

Made sexual comments towards him

Called him a furry, called him gross, has a weird fixation on his "triangle ass", called his staff a dildo.

Spied on him

Openly slandered the Hotel.

Mocked him.

Fought him

Electrocuted him

Bound and gagged him

Got his friends to fight him

Paraded him around hell

Announced on live television that Alastor did not have a tail.

Drew a crude image of his tail-less behind

Went on a weird ass smoothie date with him

Forced him to watch Valentino and Vox to have sex

Flashed him

Invaded his personal space several times, particularly touching his shoulders and face

Forced him into several sexually provocative positions

Caused Alastor to drop his smile

Threatened to slit his throat

Threw him halfway across the Pentagram

Called his massive death shark, that then went on to nearly bite Alastor's arm off

Tried to kill him with an angelic cannon

Was quite literally ready to kill everyone in the vicinity just to see Alastor hurt

So...uh...yeah

#hazbin hotel #Reblog #Vox the tv demon #alastor the radio demon #Yeah like #Alastor was meeeean to him #Vox. Uh. Went wayyyyy beyond that #It really stands out to me that never even once did Alastor deliberately hit Vox in the face #And it's not like the animators were avoiding it #Val cracks Vox's face with a thrown drink in a much lower stakes confrontation #Right in Alastor's view at that

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pokemliver5

Why the fandom desperately wants Alastor humbled

Apparently I have a lot of thoughts cause this is my third long post of today. I think one of the reasons people still want to see Al humbled is because by all accounts he wasn’t. Yes he went through a ton of shit but he wasn’t humbled “Don’t you Forget” didn’t make him bend to Rosie’s will it fueled him and gave him the push he needed to escape her. Vox’s “revenge” or victory over him was a carefully crafted ruse to inflate his ego enough to save his own soul. Vox put him through every kind of physical and emotional violation you can think of and it didn’t make Alastor “realize what he missed out by saying no”. Alastor was affected by his experiences but didn’t let them break him he didn’t dwell on them and focused on the bigger picture. I think this is why some people find him less sympathetic than Vox or Lucifer they cry a lot make a lot of sad faces and embrace victim hood while Al though he will get upset will take a breath and regroup. It’s why people will still make posts like “Ha ha remember when Al got bullied three times that ep” “Ha ha Tail-less loser” It’s why people still go “I want him to suffer next season!” As if he didn’t go through every type of pain imaginable and still come up on top. They’re mad he didn’t give them the reaction they wanted. He’ll let you take your short term victory let you think you won and come back on the other side stronger. Tbh even the humiliation parade likely didn’t do any lasting damage since the hell news cycle pretty much already moved on and Vox’s “victory” over him was likely reveled to be a fluke if anything if I was one of the overlords cheering it on I’d hope I don’t end up on his hit list. It’s one of the reasons I’m excited for his villain arc he’s going to be a very different beast then Adam or Vox

#hazbin hotel #Reblog #Alastor the radio demon #Yup #You know what I can accept might *effectively* humble him?#Emily's wing #Because that's not him absorbing the consequences of his own actions and merrily whistling on #That's someone else #Who doesn't even think anything of it and doesn't see a debt and doesn't blame him #If anything can make him think twice before more hubris it's that #He's used to being on his own and fighting for himself #He doesn't like it when someone else fights for him and doesn't account for it in his plans #Niffty is a fluke and a passive obstable to work around sure #But Emily? I think that might get to him

alastor-insanity

Everyone talks about the chair scene for sexual violation, as they should. Ive seen less people discuss the romantic violation of the smoothie date. Ive seen almost no one talk about what an emotional violation it was that Vox put Alastor on TV

feathermoonparlor

THIS THIS THIS. I also want to add that Alastor's potential as a menace to society has not yet been fully explored. If I had my way, Alastor would take his revenge by jamming cell phone signals, knocking out Wifi, and overriding Hell's TV stations with creepy static-y jazz music and a garbled shadowy image of his silhouette.

Vox needs to understand that the existence of his empire is contingent on Alastor's good graces. He is the motherfucking RADIO DEMON.

Like, Mr. TV-Head-Man, everything you do rides on Alastor's medium. Call him an old-timey prick all you want, but guess what, that so-called old man could make your gadgets useless if he really wanted to.

mysticcollectionbee

I'm waiting to see season 3 to cover this (to see if his powers are different now that his deal with Rosie is over and because Amir said we would see more of the extent of his powers) BUT if his powers are the same or more free (he did act like Rosie was acting more like a restriction than a source)...Then his capacity for ruining other Overlords isn't just directly killing them but affecting how their business is run. Plus, if Vox has mind control powers because TV "rots the brain" and tv propaganda AND Velvette can gain power and abilities from social media and her technology then Alastor should be able to do the same but we haven't really seen it. And I am super curious how it connects because his broadcast seems important to him (He's pissed that he was off the air for 7 years) but not acting like he needs it for his power or strength (He doesn't have a strict schedule for it and seems to do it purely out of personal enjoyment)...So...

What is the Radio Demon's main radio themed powers? Cause he seems to be more focused on using his shadow powers over anything else but he DOES have technology powers just like Velvette and Vox (not including Valentino because I'mma be honest I have a crack theory that there is a film demon but that they happen to not be an Overlord, or atleast in a similar level as Cherri Bomb or Sir Pentious) shown when he can easily mess with any technology and being able to connect with the speakers (and since only he really uses it in both seasons, I genuinely believe he might be the one who placed them).

Power theorizing aside, I think it does say something about how Alastor views Vox that he HASN'T tried to fuck with Voxtec on a much grander scale, instead choosing to hold back his punches and only attack him personally and directly. The semi-opposite of what Vox does to him but still harming him likewise.

Sorry this was long lol.

lilietsblog

i will say that Alastor did directly consent to being on TV. It was implicit in his "prisoner" offer and he never specified otherwise.

The rest of it, yeah. Bonus points: the implications of Vox announcing on TV what is and isn't under Alastor's clothes.

#hazbin hotel #Reblog #Alastor the radio demon #Vox the tv demon #And yeah it says a lot to me that we never see Alastor fucking with Vox that Vox didn't initiate #Except for the soul deal plan #Alastor threatened Vox in front of the entire city AND THEN DIDN'T DO ANYTHING FOR HALF A YEAR

mousidy

sorry, but you were socialized christian. I just can't trust you in a trans space

mousidy

they literally taught you that trans people were subhuman and that you were better than them. I don't know if you can be trusted around other trans people

mousidy

they scapegoated and abused you for showing signs of transness? uh... no? christianity is the most privileged religion there is. stop whining

mousidy

gotta say I was not expecting people to go to bat for my strawman

mousidy

me: "lol wouldn't it be crazy if trans communities treated ex-christian trans people who survived religious abuse the same way they treat trans women who they call 'male socialized'"

some of you, for some reason: "wait hold on that's a great idea"

mousidy

lotta people on this post going "ok well male socialization is fake and gay but christian socialization is Real and we should discriminate based on it" and I just think it's interesting how badly some people want to exclude others from queer community based on background

a lot of you clearly still believe socialization is an immutably tainting force, and you wanna be able to punish people for things you imagine they'll do because of it. can you at least wait for our hypothetical traumatized ex-christian to do something worthy of the punishment you're eager to inflict? can we wait for them to express a harmful belief instead of assuming they hold them? no? we just gotta bar them entirely? ok

mousidy

I actually don't believe you're normal to trans women if you believe there's such a thing as being eternally tainted by one's upbringing

#reblog #Yup

The source is literally the show lol, it doesn't take a genius to see that he's a self serving abuser in the show and your projecting what you want him to be on him and claiming it's "in the show"

oh. You didn't watch the show. Got it

#Asks #Anon #Lol

rat-rambles

With the whole award thing going on I have something to get off my chest.

If you call Hazbin Hotel a bad show and no outher show you are litterly homophobia.

Straight people have been writeing bad tv for DECADES. Picking on the one gay show you dont like is homophobic. It just is. You are litterly targeting the show that centers gay people that is homophobic. Anyone who says outherwise is lieing or dumb.

#hazbin hotel #Reblog #Yup

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Your post about Alastor not needing to be Charlie 2 is great except for the fact that you are putting WAY too much faith in Viv to make Alastor anything but a self serving abuser who can't change no matter what happens which is exactly what she wants and has always intended for him to be

source?

#Asks #Anon #Dumbass take tbh #And yes i do have sources for my claim #Do you think all the helpful friendly alastor evidence i keep pointing out like self generated out of nowhere unintended by viv or what

damnfandomproblems

Fandom Problem #16,512:

The tag auto-fill function some people seem to have (not even sure how they get that??) is a plague. Stop taking all my rambling tags you did not write those those are not your own thoughts.

#Reblog #YES THIS #peer review like god intended #Faesite #This is soooo annoying

rat-rambles

My stupidest headcannon is I thin Val and Alastor both have ankle issues becuse they bith have werid feet and wear heels.

This is the one and only thing they actually have in common. They both just star leaning aginst a wall in pain like "No I'm fine just go on ahead."

#hazbin hotel #Reblog #Gif warning #I volunteer Angel also #He has the same problem and you know it

rat-rambles

Alastor is litterly a people pleaser who's mad about it like "why did I even do that I don't even like you?" Right after completing what ever he was asked to do.

Mimzy knows this and takes full advantage.

#hazbin hotel #Reblog #alastor the radio demon #Yessss #Reflexively helpful #His mama raised him TOO well

sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog

I've had fairly severe back pain for the last few days. My back hurts most of the time, but lately it really hurts, and it is literally maddening.

Like, I realize that there's nothing I can say that will help you bridge the empathy divide between us. I realize that, as Elaine Scarry wrote, "To have great pain is to have certainty. To hear that another person has pain is to have doubt."

But holy shit when you are really hurting, it is hard to really be anything else. The pain consumes both body and self. The answer to how are you is in pain, and the answer to what do you want to do today is have less pain, and the answer to what are your plans for the weekend is to lie supine in a vain attempt to relieve the pain.

Relief, which is a lovely word, becomes more and more the only thing I want. I don't want to be successful or win the lottery or have a million people read my new book; I only want relief. I want to be returned to the state that the rest of the world appears to be in, a world where you can care about this and about that instead of being forced only to care about the pain.

This is the part of the post where I say, "But at least I am learning lots of important lessons from the pain" or whatever, but no. I am learning nothing from it. It is so boring and monotonous and loud and all-encompassing. I give back pain one star.

#Reblog #Yup

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