Lil Indigo

no matter how hard i try i get misunderstood and i don’t even know why i feel like i’m saying exactly what i mean and people read it and hear it totally different. it feels like i’m on another planet 

i try so fucking hard all the time for everyone but when i ask for anything it’s impossible.

supposed to be my partner in this life and i can’t even express myself without you making me feel crazy and unwanted

autistic or not i guess i just suck idk how to shut the fuck is like read the room everyone hates you

too many feelings i don’t want feelings

i ruin everything i don’t know how to be or socialize and i don’t know how to interact with people without being annoying and bringing people down i don’t mean to but i just need to learn how to stop talking everything i say i notice everyone roll their eyes at me and laughing at me everyone thinks it but for some reason i haven’t learned to shut up. idk why i keep tying

maybe i’m not so good and don’t deserve

i wish people understood addiction better. i feel like i’m drowning alone in a kiddie pool and everyone’s laughing at me because it seems ridiculous to them