Update I uh… ended up pissing myself before the shower even ended… I tried so hard to hold on and just completely lost control 😣💦
Firstly, I forgot I needed to do my scar care, which added another ten minutes before I even started the shower. That, combined with me drinking even more water (for genuine thirst and maybe a bit of horniness) really hit me hard the second I turned the shower water on and could hear so much water flowing so freely. I literally started to pant with a hand jammed between my legs as I frantically tore my boxers off to get in the shower, trying to ignore the way my piss was already desperately pushing to get out of me while I kept myself clamped shut (I may have leaked a tiny bit into my boxers before I could get them off… shut up…)
I then spent the next couple minutes lathering up my body and hair while frantically pee dancing under the warm water, stopping to grab myself every 15-30 seconds as my bladder spasmed again trying to let go. My desperation had genuinely sky rocketed so much I was trying to mentally talk my way through my desperation, counting every step I needed to finish before I could pee, it’s ok it’s ok. Just 1) lather up body, 2) lather up hair, 3) wash face- fUCK
I realise in this moment, I had forgotten my face wash in my room. I’d just finished my previous bottle that morning and forgot to replace it, and now was slamming the shower water off and scrambling out to go get it. I didn’t bother to dry myself, didn’t bother to even grab a towel to cover myself, just ran out the bathroom dripping water all over the floor, one hand jammed right up against my trembling piss hole to try and hold back the flood from just releasing all over the floor. It did not help that I’m blind as fuck without my glasses, so I was stumbling around my room whimpering trying to find this damn bottle, all while my bladder kept pulsing and threatening to burst right then and there. Every second I spent out the shower felt closer and closer to just complete oblivion I was so close to losing it fuck. It was made even worse by th fact all my toiletries are kept in a drawer close to the floor, so I was forced to kneel to see what was even in there and groan as the pressure worsened, my knee pressing into my bladder bulge and fuck fuck fuck I needed to go I needed to-
THERE! I grabbed the bottle and sprinted back to the shower, throwing the water back on as I practically leapt in there. My cunt was throbbing at this point, every wave was getting worse and worse and I was so full I literally tried to stand up straight to grab something off the upper shelf and had to slam back into a hunched position as I lost an involuntary leak. I was so, so full.
It all came to a head when I was lathering my hair up a second time, both hands occupied so I couldn’t grab myself properly. Standing there with my legs twisted in a vice as one hand held the shampoo and the other in my hair, when I felt the first leak. The proper beginning of the end of my control.
My lathering hand slammed down, gripping so fucking tightly to try and help my tired muscles keep it in just a bit longer. The back of my logical brain knew I logistically couldn’t hold on til the end of my shower, I had another ten minutes of exfoliating and washing and drying and my bladder simply could not cope. I literally couldn’t even stand up straight, how was I meant to bend and twist to exfoliate my shoulders and back like this? But fuck if I didnt ignore every warning sign and keep fucking trying.
I felt another leak, and another, and then my muscles simply gave out. I groaned and leaned back as it finally flooded out of me, pale piss mixing with the shower water as I leaned back and just let go completely. It felt, so fucking good. I honestly felt a bit light headed after, all the blood in my brain rushing to my dick after how good it all felt.
I definitely want to try and hold again sometime when I’m desperate in the shower, try to get to the end like a proper good boy, but this felt so good to just lose total control like that. Fuck I’m tired now
