Jolas

Dimitri is allowed to make big, messy mistakes, and this is that. Dimitri’s deep-rooted self-hatred manifests in self-sabotaging actions.

Yeah, it should have been Mason not Mikhail.

In ep 5 and Mason shows up, where does Dimitri go? He goes stealth mode. spider monkey

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This is not a normal school. This is not high school seniors getting drunk with their English teacher. It's young adults who are being trained for an occupation that results in 1/3 of them dying. One-third! One-third of guardians die.

Arguments:

We are both Aquariuses. Our birthdays are only 5 days apart

We have an insane appreciation for architecture

We are both in love with Adrian Ivashkov

We are perfectionists and overachievers

We prefer a formal fashion style

We are the voice of reason in chaotic situations

We respect classic literature. I mean, like, she recommended The Great Gatsby to Adrian… MY FAVORITE BOOK

We only have one haircut that suits us and we deal with it

We are incredibly blind to social clues

We barely acknowledge our emotions, let alone share

We have a healthy caffeine addiction that we fail to control

We just really like to be prepared

Bonus, me relating to Sydney while reading:

@usergif back to cool event: challenge 3: layout/transition

I love this so much, thank you anon. :)

I think Ricky liked Gina from the moment she kissed him in the car. I have seen some speculation about what the Rina cue is. I and so many others thought it was just for Rina moments.. but I think the speculation is right. It’s a direct callback to HSM2 (you are the music in me). Being the music in someone is the love you have for them. That person lights you up and makes you feel something special. That’s what the entire song is about. Every time the Rina cue comes, it’s because Ricky feels something… the music… inside him. He has a moment that shows something big just happened for him. The first cue? In the car when she kisses his cheek. And you can see it. His face says it all. The way his eyes go wide and he shakes his head and smiles. You don’t need him to say it out loud- he likes her. I think there was maybe a little spark or something before because he mentions in the car he stayed in the show for her and he got defensive with Gina on the date with EJ. He even said he felt like Gina got him at Homecoming. This was ALL before the rina cue. But I think when the cue happened was when Ricky finally acknowledged and understood he liked her. TBH I think it was a lot like Ashlyn and Val’s moment with the fireworks.

I absolutely think there were feelings there while he dated Nini. Think about the timeline: he just got back together with Nini. She leaves and Gina comes in and says if she wasn’t leaving, she wouldn’t give up on them. Then Ashlyn gets the idea well after that to let Gina stay. Somewhere between the play and Christmas, Gina moved in with Ashlyn and she told the cast she was staying. This put Ricky in a tough position. He has these feelings for Gina and where he just got a girlfriend not only would it be inappropriate for him to say he wouldn’t give up on Gina too, but it would also be HELLA awkward for him to go back to Nini and tell her “never mind” after that big “I love you” speech. Also, as much as Ricky liked Gina, I think he worked SO HARD for Nini he didn’t want to let her go. Especially after seeing everything else in his life change (like seeing his mom’s boyfriend THAT NIGHT), he probably was holding onto the one thing that was stable: Nini. Gina could have been leaving, his parents were everywhere, Nini offered to stay and he knew Gina was out of the picture so, as he said himself, “I don’t know… with Gina leaving… it’s different… maybe I’m back to who I always was”. Gina leaving was the catalyst to him dating Nini because it meant stability and boy oh boy was he attracted to stability.

But, here’s the kicker: Gina stayed. So now Ricky is in a catch 22. Does he risk it all for Gina? Does he stay with Nini, the constant? Well… Nini left too. The last hope he had. So now, the one thing he thought wouldn’t change, wouldn’t leave, left. So, he reverts back to old Ricky. Trying every thing he possibly can to cling onto this thing he thought was a constant. And while Gina still continued to show up and while his feelings were there (as demonstrated in Valentine’s Day and in the snowstorm episode with how much he tried to talk to her, playing off the chocolates, feeling uncomfortable talking about Nini to her and in front of her [shushing her at his house when Nini called]), he wasn‘t going to let that constant go. His break up with Nini was SO important because it wasn’t just with her… he was breaking up with an old version of himself. That’s why his song he made on the piano was such a big moment for him over break, because it meant he finally was “letting go”. Of Nini, his need for consistency, his old self.

But, once he reconciled that part of him, the person he still was holding onto was gone. The next episode is the one where Carlos talks about EJ making eyes at Gina and Ricky goes, “Gina??” I think he saw Gina was staying, he wasn’t pursuing Nini anymore, now he could go back to the girl who had his heart since S1: Gina. But uh-oh! She’s taken by EJ now. So why try? So he finds the next promising thing: Lily. He’s started to accept change but doesn’t know what to do with it so it’s like he’s a total yo-yo and finds the biggest out of character person for him to date. Like he was embracing too much change. But then that doesn’t work out, so he realizes he just wants to accept what comes and do what is best for him (the song before he shows up at camp). He’s finally free of all his old patterns. So, with that in mind he just wants to be happy. Summer of fun! Right? Well, those unresolved feelings for Gina (as Carlos said) creeped right back in. They never left, but they were buried, came back up after Nini, then quickly buried again because of EJ and not talking to Gina. Now he and Gina are back to their S1 dynamics and starting over and he doesn’t have any distractions romantically, he’s embracing change, but not too much change (like Lily). Interesting he’s finding a “balance”…sound like anyone else we know this season? And guess who just happens to be there when he is at his best self? Gina. There’s nothing to distract or derail him from his feelings and that makes them even stronger and deeper than before. That’s why we keep seeing the rina cue SO MUCH and even twice this last episode. He can’t do anything to hold the feelings off and because Gina isn’t totally invested in EJ and spending a lot of time with Ricky (instead of ignoring him like 2B), those rina cues, those feelings, become more deep and profound.

Ricky let her slip through his fingers the night he chose Nini. Opening night he let her walk away because he thought she was gone for good. Now he blames himself for something that realistically, was kind of unavoidable. Honestly? I’m glad he didn’t choose her that night. I think they both needed to see what they didn’t want in order to know what they DO want. They needed to go through every single possible scenario that could be an argument against Rina and still come out stronger. They’re the couple that beats the odds and will meet each other at their best. And that is some beautiful, beautiful writing on Tim’s part.