like a dead star

Hi my name doesn't matter, just call me whatever you want because I doooooooon't caaaaaaare

I'm 16 and I'm agender (it/its)

I like anime and manga as well as videogames and a lot of music (I also play guitar and piano) so yeah that's cool amirite or amirite

I've been a big fan of Muse since 2018 and since then I've seen them at:

Etihad Stadium, Manchester, 8th June 2019

AO Arena, Manchester, 29th September 2023

O2 Academy Brixton, London, 3rd April 2026

1) I want to kill myself every hour of every day!

2) I dread waking up because it means I have to live another day in this life!

3) My anxiety disables me in everyday life!

4) Being neurodivergent means employers just don't want me and keep rejecting me!

5) All the sexual abuse that I've been through in my life has suddenly come back to me over the last few days!

6) The guilt of my own actions is crippling me!

7) I can't block it out anymore!

8) I can't sleep at night because my head feels like it's fucking exploding!

9) No one fucking cares about me and everyone secretly hates me! But don't tell them that I know, because then they'll start showing it instead of doing it secretly!

10) I can't make any good music! My first album releases on Spotify today and it's ASS!

11) The neglect I went through as a child is coming back to me suddenly!

12) All the bullying I went through is also coming back at once!

13) I'm remembering all the times I tried to end it!

I can feel the soil falling over my head,

And as I climb into an empty bed,