An Imaginary Portrait...

i feel disconected to everyone I know back home. I thouhgt it was a good idea to move to a different city where I would know nobody. Yet i am searching online for this connection..which I had back home. I’m just not good the past week..I know i should be. I like my internship a lot, its a challenge almost every day and  the most exciting part has yet to start ( which will be in two months) but I hate to say it, I am lonely here. and I never really understood loneliness because of social media, but I do now.  I know coming here is was the right decision, and i still believe it. Its just very hard..and i am coping not very well.  Also the last months have been really intense..and maybe its my fear of losing everything that i am now want to be clingy with the people back home. But i am stopping myself. Because i need this distance also for myself. And i need this internship and I also finally do something which i think is important.  Yet i am in this different city by myself.