HEAVEN'S SOFT WEEPING. {ap}

THIS BLOG, AS WELL AS ALL MY OTHER RP BLOGS, WILL FROM NOW ON BE ON INDEFINITE HIATUS.

This decision was really hard to make, and believe me it’s not one I make lightly. A lot of thought ( too much thought, probably ) went into this. I’ve agonized over it for months bordering on years.

I’ve been rping on Tumblr for almost five years ( it would have been 5 exactly on April 23 ), and for the majority of that time I’ve been trying really hard to make things fun again. I’ve branched into different fandoms and found muses I love! But very early on it became something of an OBLIGATION. Even thinking about logging on became stressful because of how many replies I ‘OWED.’ And then being stressed about that made me unable to write at all. 

That being said, I don’t regret any part of my time here. I love all the people I met here, and all the characters and series I’ve been introduced to by the amazing writers I count myself lucky to have been among.

I have a lot of projects in real life right now that need my full attention, and I need to give myself more time to do those as well as improve my health. 

IF YOU DECIDE TO UNFOLLOW, I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND. HOWEVER, PLEASE NOTE – If I ever do come back to Tumblr rp, this is the blog where I will say so.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY WRITING EXPERIENCE HERE SPECIAL. 

you have a place here.

your place here is not defined by how many followers you have, how many people like your headcanons, or how many people send you memes. your place here is not determined by who follows you, or who unfollows you; your place here is not determined by who likes you or who ices you out. your place here does not depend on which “groupchat” or “squad” you’re a part of, or even if you aren’t a participant in any groupchat, or don’t have anyone in a squad. your place here doesn’t require that you’re someone’s “main” or “exclusive” and your place here doesn’t necessitate that you’re publicly lauded as someone’s “favorite” of your muse. your place here doesn’t equate to the number of anon asks you get, or the number of people who comment on your ooc posts. your place here isn’t equivalent to how many ooc posts you make or don’t make, or how quickly you respond to threads, or which topics you choose to publicly speak up on or even which topics you choose to publicly stay silent on. your place here cannot be taken or revoked if there’s a small part of the community that turns against you, and your place here is not contingent on you being accepted by a few. your place here is not contingent on the people who will or won’t write with you.

I know it hurts when people on the dash are constantly talking about things that go on in their groupchats or squads and you aren’t a part of that. I know it hurts when you reblog a meme and don’t get any sent to you. I know it hurts when you get replaced within a group of people you thought were your friends; I know it hurts when you get kicked out of a group of people you thought were your friends. I know it hurts when you see someone post a headcanon and immediately get a dozen likes, when you posted one five minutes ago and didn’t get any. I know it hurts when people reblog promos for others who write the same muse as you and say in the tags how that person is “the best” of that muse, or their “favorite” of that muse. I know it hurts when everyone on your dash is reblogging promos, and you reblog yours too, and no one else reblogs it. I know it hurts when you make ooc posts about being sad or lonely or needing to talk and get no response, and you see other people make similar ooc posts and get a dozen “I’m here for you” responses. I know it hurts when you’re let down by people you thought you were friends with; I know it hurts when you realize friendships were toxic. I know it hurts to feel lonely, or unwanted, or unneeded, or like no one cares. 

but please, don’t forget: you have a place here. you add value to this community. you are important.