lightning thoughts_

I lost my mom... She had a massive stroke that killed her instantly, and I couldn't say how much I loved her for the last time. It feels like the ground suddenly opened up and dragged me.  I've been depressed in recent months we spent together, and she always stood by me, giving me strength...  Everything is awful and I just cry all the time, wishing I could have my life back the way it was.

My ex-gf returned my things this week. She didn't wanna see me, so she left my stuff with a friend. Since January she doesn't call or ask how i'm doing. She didn't left any note, a goodbye or whatever. Not even a drunk call late night. I was hoping I could get over her and move on, but 3 years and a half is really a long time. How strange is this, someone you really loved and cared about simply walk away from you and never look back? How can I trust someone after that? Seems to me impossible.