Welcome to My Thoughts.

What’s most ANNOYING about it is… we just got home from a friend’s birthday party and so many kids from Gwen’s class were there. Needless to say, Gwen was very upset. We talked about it on the way home. Her sweet self was like, “it makes me feel like they thought my party was going to be boring.”

Y’all. I ordered a bounce house, 8 pizzas and a half a sheet cake from Costco.

Do people just not RSVP anymore? Is that just not common courtesy in 2026? I’m gonna be PISSED if I invested this much money into her party and only family shows up. I’ll also be double pissed because I’m going to have one sad little girl.

When Konnor fell off the bed on Mother’s Day, we took him to get checked out. They did his vitals, weight, height… PA came in and felt his back, head, and did a cognitive look over.

We were there for 10 minutes….

$977.78

ALMOST A THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS FOR THEM TO JUST GIVE MY SON A LOOK OVER.

We took him to the ER and he is fine. Just has a nice goose egg on his forehead but he’s acting like his normal happy boy self. I was a freaking MESS. This kid is going to age me quicker than I’d like.

Finding little moments of good in WFH life. I wouldn’t trade the time I get with my son for anything. Sure, my job is not the most exciting, but I do have it pretty freakin’ good. I’ve been with him every day for the past 6 months of his life. I’m truly so glad I’ve been able to give to him what I gave his big sister. It might look a little different because I’m working this time around, but at least mama is home.

Well, I also did my monthly budget. Day care would cost us over $1,000/month. I make good money, however, I am also tackling debt and this is the most financially stable we’ve been for a long time. As much as I’ve griped about this job I’m currently in, it’s not the worst and it offers 1. Financial stability, and 2. Flexibility. I truly think once I have a full caseload and I’m not stressing over how I’m going to get my hours every week, the dust will settle.

I know how I sound you guys. I’ve been bitching about this job for weeks now but I think it took really looking at my monthly budget to see how good I actually have it and how I don’t want to go back to living paycheck to paycheck. My husband is also winding down his busy season so he’s more present, and I think the Prozac is finally kicking in so… lots of different factors at play which has me feeling immensely better.

My husband is looking to make a job transition this fall once he completes his PMP certification. Our son will be eligible for the day care we actually want him in come December/January. So, I think I can (and should) hang on until at least then. Hopefully by then, other dream roles that I have in mind might actually be available. Or, maybe I’ll be debt free and can enjoy the fat salary I have right now. Time will tell. Until then, I think I’m staying put.

I went for a medication evaluation today, fully prepared for them to once again say “oh it’s just anxiety” or maybe even ADHD… nope…

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Depression 😭 (*ya girl is now on Prozac because I’m tired of being an irritable, angry wife/mom*). I’m extremely high functioning and mask well for the most part, but uh, not so much lately. Yes, I’m in therapy.