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I see the moon and it always makes me think of you and that’s why .

So you call me and sit there when you never had anything to say to get me to be the one to leave so you don’t have to feel anything and tell yourself they left. So you can feel free on everything you do that you threaten me with yesterday when you said I’ll show you idc well guess what I already know you don’t and you were going do all the shit your planning to do anyways. I even said all the things you were going to use when all the shit happened and you said just that oh it’s family oh I did this cause this and this it’s an excuse instead of just owning and seeing you choose not to be around me and go out to do things with me but yeah I am the problem well you don’t have to worry about that anymore I gave you every chance yesterday to knowledge things and you use everything like you always do instead of seeing the plan and simple problem that’s there but that’s fine after hearing all that yesterday after I said don’t even say it you did anyways I am done finally done your never going change and I am done being broken over someone who don’t care what going on with me and still going out with everyone friends and family and all this but never have time with me yeah you can mysteriously make time and get time off for everything else. Yeah sure okay. Also you already told me you got the days off you wanted then back track and said you didn’t funny you say I never listen when you said you got that day off before your appointment to but okay now it changes yeah sounds like plans but whatever doesn’t matter anymore just another lie to the pile. I loved you wholeheartedly love you and when done anything for you but you were so blind for someone who just like your parents and controls you who you can and can’t see like come on now. My heart may be shattered but I tried I tried to be a friend I tried to be someone to you but you just kept me like a old in a closet while everyone else got you and got to do everything but I am the problem yeah sure if I am the problem from wanting to do things like we use to I’ll stay that problem then. I lost respect for myself when I watch you go out with everyone and do things with them but never me always I didn’t wanna do it but did it anyways funny how it always end up laughing and smiling and being a good time but you say you can’t do shit with me okay. 5 years I let you do this and watch everything and more that you try to hide and anytime you don’t mention anything to avoid a fight just an excuse you shouldn’t have done it cause you know your going hurt someone. I hope you’re happy now and can feel your freedom like when you ghosted me before and couldn’t be upfront and spent everyday with someone else and lied to me. Hope you finally got what you wanted again. Least you have more people here to help you kept busy and do things with now you don’t even need me more you got everything now and more people to do things with when you couldn’t with me.