motion sick

[ virginia gardner, cis female, she/her, silver ] hey have you seen LYDIA RADCLIFFE ? SHE let me borrow HER COPY OF PRIDE AND PREJUDICE. oh, you know them! they’re 22 and they’ve been at Roy G. for FOUR YEARS. They are known to be a total PIECES. i’m surprised you haven’t heard them blaring ALL TOO WELL BY TAYLOR SWIFT all night. they remind me of JOURNAL PAGES FILLED WITH INK, HALF DRANK CUPS OF COFFEE, AND TEARDROPS ON PIANO KEYS. anyway, let me know if you see them ! (bea, 23, she/her, cst, n/a). 

tw: teen pregnancy, pregnancy loss

hello !  my name is bea and i’m super excited to be here!  lydia is an old character of mine that i’ve modified a bit to suit this roleplay.  i’ve been wanting to play again bc i love her so much!  i hope you do too.  pls let me know if you have any questions or if you’d like to plot!  you can hit me up on discord @ nothing new#5393

character inspiration 

rory gilmore, cassie howard, jo march, neil perry, jane austen, rachel green

playlist

illicit affairs by taylor swift

motion sickness by phoebe bridgers 

tomorrow will be kinder by the secret sisters

grace by kate havnevik

all too well (10 minute version) by taylor swift

favorite crime by olivia rodrigo

she used to be mine by sara bareilles

you all over me by taylor swift feat. maren morris

don’t forget me way out west

every little thing she does is magic by sleeping at last

a brief biography

there was never a time when lydia didn’t know that after high school she would be attending an ivy league university.  she was raised on the east coast by two wealthy yale alumni, a legacy family in the making.  her entire schooling career was preparing her for the day she would walk through the yale courtyard as a student.

she’s always had a passion for reading and writing.  as a little girl she would stay up late, snuggled up with a good book.  she would hide herself in her closet with a flashlight reading the iliad, shakespeare, and harry potter.

it was no surprise when she entered school that she excelled in english.  throughout middle & high school she won several awards for her poetry, short stories, and literary essays.  she’s showed her work at conferences across the country and spent a summer interning at the library of congress, an honor usually reserved for college students

another joy liddy found in childhood was her love of playing the piano.  it seemed to come natural to her, though it probably helped that she had one of the best piano teachers in the city, and a desire to practice whenever she could.  as she got older, her parents encouraged her in her craft, but it was always treated as nothing more than a hobby and nothing to pursue as a career.  lydia tended to refer to it as her guilty pleasure.

as anticipated, during her senior year she was accepted into the prestigious university, and that fall she began classes, pursing a degree in literature.

however, during her freshman year, lydia found herself caught up in something she never expected.  she was used to spending a lot of time with her english teachers.  in high school the english classroom had been her second home.  but this time she realized she was developing feelings for her professor, and it turned into a secret affair they were able to keep under wraps until disaster struck.  

[PREGNANCY TW] a few months into the relationship, lydia discovered she was pregnant.  she was terrified, but she was in love.  she’d never really desired motherhood, but suddenly everything was different.  in her perfect world, she’d put off college, she’d run away with her love and her baby and read dickens to her child in her garden and be happy.  but of course…she knew that was never an option.  because the love of her life was married and had a life of his own, and she had expectations to meet and a family image to uphold.  teen pregnancy and a torrid affair was absolutely out of the question.

[PREGNANCY LOSS TW] her parents were horrified to learn of lydia’s wrongdoings.  they agonized over what to do, and how they were going to cover this up.  however, they didn’t have to suffer for long, only two months into her pregnancy, she suffered a miscarriage.  they were relieved she could continue school as normal, the student body or their wealthy friends none the wiser. [END OF TW]

lydia had other ideas however.  the loss had torn her apart.  she knew a life with her child was never an option, but she still mourned the possibility.  she decided she couldn’t go back to yale- or anywhere for that matter.  she needed to get away- somewhere without the cold or the expectations or the pressure.  that’s how she found the apartments in miami.

she took a year off to explore life in a new place- and explore herself. now she’s taking classes at a local community college, something she knows her parents would die at the knowledge of, but she’s trying her best to do something she’s never done before- please no one but herself.

she’s changed quite a bit since her ordeal.  the girl who once cared about nothing but her scholarly pursuits was left back in high school.  she still occasionally feels the weight of needing to please her parents, but she’s trying to find more of herself too.  she knows she has to be someone beyond studying.  she wants to branch out, she wants to have fun.  she’s just afraid of opening herself up again for the first time since her pregnancy.  but deep down, she truly is a happy, passionate young woman.

tldr; lydia is a big fat book nerd who got knocked up by her college english professor and dropped out and fled away from her family’s demands and expectations to miami where she ended up at the apartments.  heartbroken & hormonal, she now longs to explore new things, find herself, and maybe stop being so boring.

quick bullets/headcanons 

she figure skated throughout childhood, but dropped out during her early teens when the commitment interfered with her academic rigor’

she loves to write, mostly poetry but also prose.  

she’s pretty much obsessed with female witers.  she’ll talk your ear off about jane austen, louisa may alcott, elizabeth barrett browning, emily dickenson or the bronte sisters anytime.  beware.

a bit of a coffee addict, she developed an unhealthy relationship with it in high school that she hasn’t kicked.

lydia grew up wealthy, but is now more or less cut off from her parents.  she occasionally receives a bank transfer from her grandfather that is never spoken about- but for the first time in her life she is on her own.  she works at a local library as often as she can to stay afloat, and uses her grandfather’s money to pay for school.

wanted connections

friends - give my sweet baby some pals! people she trusts. people that give her new experiences.  sometimes she’s a tad bit gloomy since her scandal, so i’d love some people that can break through her shell.  some close friends, a ride or die bff, acquaintances, maybe someone who she knew in childhood who also happens to be in miami now?? literally anything.  

romantic - past and future relationships of all kind.  lydia would be slow to let someone in after her affair which can open the door for a lot of possible connections.  maybe the first person who got her to open up, a never ending will they/won’t they flirtation, someone who broke her heart, someone whose heart she broke bc she wasn’t ready yet. i’d also love for lydia to explore her bisexuality but she doesn’t entirely know about yet.  

coworker or regular - lydia works at a local library!  perhaps your muse works there too or comes in often to check out books

family - maybe a cousin that was a push to come to miami?

other - a college classmate, study buddy, a fellow writer or musician, roommate 

anything!! we can brainstorm!  i’m open to all types of interesting connections & drama hehe.  

ty for reading all this!  hopefully it wasn’t too much!  i haven’t rped in at least a year so i’m excited to jump back in!