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hii hope you're all doing well :) it's been one year exactly since i decided to drop out of university and i'm feeling really complicated about it all. taking this year off has been such a good and necessary decision and ive discovered so much about myself and my dreams and desires etc etc but im still essentially in the same situation as last year so it's not served me that well i guess... my plan for this year was to seek some sort of treatment/diagnosis/whatever and all i've done is get put on waitlists and cry during almost every appointment ive had this year. but one of the places said it'd be my turn before the end of the year and there's only three months left!! that's nothing in comparison to all the time i've spent waiting already. i'll get there soon enough. love you <3

anyway i hope you're all doing well and having beautiful days and that the world shines upon you!! i think im gonna continue my little hiatus bc i want to have a beautiful summer and my usual screentime habits just dont fit in the picture im envisioning. peace and love ^‿^

im kinda seriously thinking about quitting my job bc work just requires energy i dont have/cant spare but omg almost everyone else is quitting too this summer and that's kinda making me feel bad... it's so annoying bc it's not my problem at all if they end up short staffed but the whole situation is stressing me out so bad that i havent been able to properly digest anything all weekend. normal reaction to stress im sure