someone: oh that's so cool! say something

me:

This is bigger than us. This is bigger than the apocalypse. If the portal works, we can use it to find the origin. The one moment that started all this. And when we’ve found it, we’ll destroy it. And everything that arises from it. That is paradise.

tbh i am thinking about hannah a lot. she’s set up from pretty much the very beginning to be easy to dislike or even hate. she’s not a nice person, she’s manipulative, she’s bitter, she has no integrity. she cares about herself and herself only she doesn’t give a shit about how her actions affect other people. she wants the things/people she wants and she’s going to take what she wants with no consideration for others. she treats people like things. she’s the kind of character that makes you go she had it coming when she dies. and yet, she gets a happy ending where she is loved and cared for, and it really made me think. 

like, hannah in the ‘split off’ worlds just goes through these constant cycles of being rejected, of being left behind, of being unwanted. she so high key wants love and acceptance but she holds on too tightly, to the wrong people, for the wrong reasons and it makes her incredibly vulnerable. in the ‘original’ world, i like to believe that because ulrich didn’t exist and all that shit didn’t go down with teenage hannah becoming obsessed with him and trying to get between him and katharina come hell or high water, hannah actually was able to become HER OWN PERSON and experience acceptance both from other people and herself (! bc i high key get the vibe that hannah doesn’t like herself at all). she never goes through losing her husband to suicide, either. 

 i am in no way shape or form excusing her behaviour BUT her behaviour makes a lot of sense. she is reacting to being rejected, abandoned, and pushed around by manipulating, isolating, and scheming. she’s the classic example of someone who hurts others because they have been hurt themselves. again, i am not excusing her but it’s just… real. because let’s face it people who are bullies more often than not start on that path by being victims first. 

and maybe, just maybe in the original world that remains her life has taken her/ continues to take her down a path that lets her be a better person. 

Everything in life occurs in cycles. But this time, it will be the last cycle. This knot can only be undone… by destroying it entirely.

Starting from tomorrow I’ll tag everything Season 2 related as “dark spoilers” if you want to block it!

Also, I’m not a huge binge watcher, so it’ll take me a few days to post about the entire season.

D A R K : Charlotte Doppler