!! levi !!

preface.

i have recently been informed of my name being mentioned in the sparklecare tags again and i do not care for this anymore so i would like to put some things to bed.

this statement is being given by the host - i will be switching between first and third person pronouns throughout this statement. the primary party culpable for these actions is Simon. i do not have full memories of this and am merely piecing together the situation from what i can grasp. despite this we do intend to take full accountability for its actions as a system. this is not an attempt to deflect blame but merely an explanation.

additionally if it has not been obvious from my lack of recent posts and waning activity i have been taking steps to publicly distance myself from this community.

if there are any other points that you believe should be addressed within this statement please let me know.

on proshipping.

i see little point in arguing over this as both sides seem firm in their views but i am of the belief that all fiction has the right to exist. your opinions on this fiction can vary and that is opinion and should not be attempted to be policed. to my knowledge my views on this have not hurt anyone. should this not be the case please inform me with the relevant information and i will respond accordingly.

the anticare server.

i will readily admit that it was incredibly rude of Simon to intrude on spaces that it was not intended to be in, however i do see this point against it as deeply hypocritical seeing as the anticare side has done the exact same. i do apologise for this and should any individual wish for a personal apology please feel free to reach out to me.

yes technically that part was true.

on a technicality i did date a minor when i was an adult. during my eighteenth birthday celebration a close friend of seventeen asked to date me and i obliged. i am no longer in this relationship or in contact with him.

additionally i do suffer with intrusive thoughts, which often reflect the fiction i chose to indulge in or create. this is my personal coping method and outlet for these desires and this has somewhat helped to alleviate them. i would never act on these thoughts in real life however, and should you not be able to understand the separation of thoughts and actions you should seek more understanding of this before it becomes harmful.

brief conclusion.

i am under no delusion that i was 'correct' in my conduct of this in the past and i take full responsibility for these actions. i do not care for the prolonging of this situation. i will answer questions given but likely will not return to this fandom proper.

this is the part where it gets personal, please feel free to end your reading here.

why do people keep saying i killed myself.

i am under the impression that there is a small group of people who are explicitly out to get me. i know the identities of these people but for my own self perseveration i will chose not to share. they have repeatedly indulged me in my worse habits and - apologies if this is too personal - facilitated my suicide attempt in late april of last year. i frequently feel unsafe to leave my own home and have only recently considered myself more 'recovered' from this pattern of thinking. during the week of writing this statement my paranoia has redoubled and i believe that i may be being followed.