Letter To: Myself

A little desperate heart

Why would you only tell me its always me who is against us

I dont know if you have only seen tip of the ice berg

I always got back no matter what no matter how deeply i felt hurt and happy at the same time.

I know i have issues with my emotions but i cant disown it knowing i survive and die at times with it

Your thoughtless blame and my cautious heart always against each other. My fragile heart and vast thought gobbled by your unhinged words.

Not only today but i felt writing each time when we end up like today but today i feel unsure of myself where i am just speaking my brain and heart.

Brisket of peace

I don’t know why my heart was scared

I didnt stop you from leaving yet i knew that we will never be together again in this life.

To: chapter us

I know you won’t find this in this lifetime but if its meant to reach there then i hope you now understand that after all these years of Waiting And again waiting i have felt a grief in my choice of losing you when i didn’t answer your call…..

Losing you was most difficult for me but the nature of my love for you is what matters. If it distorts into half truth then perhaps it is better that i leave it all and choose to free away myself and my mind. I must move on and lose you, because even after that sudden ring and call on that very cold eve i cried and i understood its again me who is falling apart and being told on for all the disconnection. I understood how hurt you were, how you needed me in that wrong time yet i could not convince my mind to turn back. I may not be able to express all the emotions i have been but i surly had the rollercoaster journey proving to be better and at end it was only me fight my mind in darkness .

Exhausted,

Staring at changes each day