｡･ﾟﾟ･𝓝𝓲𝓷𝓲･ﾟﾟ･｡

there’s so much i want to say to you…all of you, but the fear takes my breath away. so, i’ll stick to writing it where you can never see, and where i’ll never forget.

was I meant to bear the pain so you can thrive in happiness?

ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ, ɪ’ʟʟ ꜰɪx ɪᴛ. ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇᴀʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ.

ꜰᴜᴄᴋ.. ʏᴏᴜ’ᴠᴇ ɢᴏᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ.

ɪ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ. ɪ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜʏ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇɴ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴍᴇ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʏᴏᴜ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀʀᴛ.

ɪᴛ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴀᴍᴀᴢᴇꜱ ᴍᴇ ʜᴏᴡ Qᴜɪᴄᴋʟʏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀꜰʟɪᴇꜱ ᴄᴀɴ ᴅɪᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɢɪᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀ ꜱᴛᴏᴍᴀᴄʜ ᴀᴄʜᴇ.

ɪ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀʀᴛ. ɪꜱ ɪᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴍᴇ ᴀꜱ ᴍʏ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ? ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴇ? ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟɪᴘꜱ ꜰᴀɪʟ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴅᴏᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴀɴᴅ ʜᴇʟᴘ ʏᴏᴜ ꜱᴘᴇᴀᴋ? ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴄʜᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ꜰɪɴɢᴇʀꜱ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴡᴇ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜ? ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴄʜᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴɴᴏᴛ ꜱᴀʏ? ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴍᴇ, ᴏʀ ɪꜱ ɪᴛ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴇɴᴛɪʀᴇʟʏ ᴅɪꜰꜰᴇʀᴇɴᴛ?

ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ, ɪꜰ ᴡᴇ ɢᴀᴢᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʟᴏɴɢ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇꜱɪʀᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ ʜᴏʟᴅ ᴍʏ ɴᴇᴄᴋ ʟᴏᴠɪɴɢʟʏ ᴏʀ ᴡɪʟʟ ɪᴛ ꜱᴜꜰꜰᴏᴄᴀᴛᴇ ᴜꜱ ʙᴏᴛʜ?

ᴀᴍ ɪ ᴡʀᴏɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ʜᴀᴠɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀɴᴛᴀꜱɪᴇꜱ..?

ᴍᴏꜱᴛ ᴅᴀʏꜱ ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ɪꜱᴏʟᴀᴛᴇᴅ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴍᴀʟʟ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛꜱ ᴡᴇ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏɴᴇʟɪɴᴇꜱꜱ ʙᴇᴀʀᴀʙʟᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ.

ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴇꜱᴛ ᴍᴇ, ꜱᴇᴇɪɴɢ ʜᴏᴡ ʟᴏɴɢ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ɢᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴛᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ. ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴜᴛʜ ɪꜱ, ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇꜱᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ. ɪ’ʟʟ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀɢᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜ.

ɪᴍ ᴀ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴍʏ ʀᴇᴀʟɪꜱᴛ. ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ɪ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏꜰ, ᴡᴇ’ʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇʀꜰᴇᴄᴛ ᴄᴏᴜᴘʟᴇ. ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ᴡᴇ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ, ɪᴍ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴅɪᴛᴢʏ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ.

ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ʙʏ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇʟꜱᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴄʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴀᴛᴇ ɴɪɢʜᴛꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ.