Lets Hate Spaghetti Dick.

It's me. It's for-fucks-sake-goddamn from so many years ago. not sure if you remember me but this is all coming back to me. i regret what i have done to ethan. while he may have done some fucked up stuff, he didn't deserve all the shit i've done to embarass him. ethan, if you're reading this, i'm sorry. it's been nearly four years. i remember the call i had with hothead back in the day and how i posted it on youtube. that was during my freshman year in college and i'm about to graduate.

(continued from last post) looking back at all this drama is hilarious. looking at what we were concerned with is just so weird to me. seeing my impact on his ED page just made me feel ashamed of myself and oddly proud, like i had some sort of minor impact. while it was easy to hate on him, i think what i forgot is that he's human too. that's what made me the monster. if any of you remember me and want to reconnect, let me know. might make a video or two making amends. peace. FFSGD

sorry, last message. it's still FFSGD. i actually genuinely enjoyed my time with all of you, even hothead. it's odd childhood nostalgia i'll never forget. even if i may never see you guys or ever talk to you again, just know that i genuinely wish the best happens for all of you as we all move into adulthood. time is a precious thing and i'm happy i spent some of it feeling like some sort of patchwork family together. i'm not sad that it's over, i'm happy it happened. i'm now @hy448 on twitter.

To reply to lilyreplies, I didn't technically "leave" the internet. After I deleted the last blog relating to HotHead last year in 2017, I honestly felt it was the best decision of my life, as it got rid of my demons of the past. When I had the blog, I was an immature teenager who lacked common sense. With it gone, I felt like a new person altogether. I know I can't erase the history, but I can forget about the events that happened 4 years ago.

Looking back on it now as a 19-year old adult, looking at any pictures of the character makes me cringe, hard. To this day, I still loathe the character I once had, and to be honest, killing the character last year made me feel relieved that the past is now fully behind me. Since then, I made a promise to myself to never mention the past about the character (the name included, but this one was an exception), nor the events happened with the character.

(Continued from last ask) All in all, that was basically a summary of what I had been doing for the past couple of years. A lot has changed, both for you and me. I had matured and basically forgot about the past, really.

Damn, it's weird knowing my cringe-self and just loathing over this dude that everyone hated (who I still low key despise but ya know, he tried his best). Now it's just like memories of younger me now I'll be going into adulthood. Time flies by fast, I wonder how Hothead is doing.

Look at what happen to ask-purple-power-ranger-pony.

holy heck) If we're saying goodbye to thing blog, I should say it's been a fun, argivating ride.

Well I guess all I can do now is to congratulate you and to thank you to finish what I (sorta) started.

So lemme get this straight, after I stopped using ASPH to kick the everloving hell out of hothead, you have been continuing to put up with him up until this recently? Damn that is what I call dedication. And well it seems to have payed off from what I can gather from your last post.

wait wait wait, so I roleplayed with him back in like 2014 and he was 14? I was like 16 and the rp went on for a while until when this controversy happened. At first I was on his side but now i'm stuck in the middle of not knowing what to do about any of this... Now that I think of it all of the rps only had sex, I tried to make it clean sometimes yes because I would like it to be clean and nsfw but it seemed to always be nsfw. So idk what to make of all this stuff now :c