Sober Thoughts Are Boring

Although this converstion is more honest, l dont think anything will change.. BUT IF IT DOESSSS shits crazy and ...🤷🏼‍♂️

I used to think that the idea of expressing your emotions and inner thoughts on tumblr was a dumb idea. Nowadays tumblr is the only place where I feel comfortable expressing me real emotions. Vulnerability is my biggest fear but I guess tumblr is just my own version of a diary for me to hopefully one day look back at it and laugh.

Nothing make sense when you’re the sober one dealing with a drunk whose expressing feelings. BUT everything makes sense when you’re the drunk expressing feelings to a sober person.

Not being in control suck. I deadass want to say fuck everything and go back to just doing me. The worst part about all that is that im also a sucker for love and I want to take a risk with my feelings by going with the flow and not being the one in control. Whatever happends happends I guess but as of today I feel stupid.

Laat year when I lived in texas I was in a predicament of wether I should stay in texas or to go back to boston. My biggest fear of choosing boston was that I would go back to the same bs ass problem and that nothing is different because I was aways for a year. Now that I am back in Boston for almost a year, idk if I made the right choice.. as of rn I think I should say fuck everything and all my complaints. There will be a light at the end of every tunnel.

Yeah I quit, im not even gonna bother trying

Im a dumb kid making dumb decisions who over thinks his dumb choices and continues to act dumb.. Adulting is dumb and idk how to be smart